Results of Hidden Feelings
I
Sit and cry
All night long
Listening to that sad sad song
I decide
I can't take it on the inside
Any more
Open the door
Sit upon the floor
I slide the blade
Across my flesh
Vision begins to fade
The tears and blood flow
They do not want to slow
As I cry
Wondering why
It had to be this way
I could not stay
I know
I will die
I say good bye
Knowing it was time to go
Wishing it could have been
Different
I hope that I will be forgiven
For the sin
That I have just committed
To late
For all is left to fate
I close my eyes
Whispering, my last good byes
How cold
I release my hold
On my life
And the knife
That I used to take
My life away
So that I shall never see another day
Tears began to dot the page as the blonde finished the last line. He really did wish it could have been different but it wasn't. It had been ten years and he still couldn't get over him. Tai would never have returned the feelings Matt had for the brunette. Matt sat in the bathroom, razor blade in one hand piece of paper in other. Setting the blade on the edge of the sink, he carefully folded up the piece of paper. Why? He should have just told Tai but he was afraid of rejection so for ten years he lived with the pain of loneliness until he just couldn't take it anymore.
He picked up the blade replacing it with the neatly folded paper. Sitting on the edge of the tub, Matt pulled his sleeves up exposing his thin pale wrists. Tears silently hit the floor as Matt slid the cold razor blade across his skin. Tiny crimson droplets were already falling to the floor. Matt watched as his tears mixed with his blood. He now sat on the floor watching his life drain onto the cold floor. Suddenly feeling faint he lay down on the bathroom floor. Puddles of blood forming around his arms that lay on the floor at his sides. Lying there staring at the ceiling as everything began to blur and fade.
At the same time…
Tai was on his way to see Matt. Why he wasn't quite sure, after all it had been ten years since they seen each other. Tai didn't know what he was going to say or do, all he knew was that he was going to see Matt. After ten years what would he say, especially to Matt. No one may have known it, but Tai had been in love with the blonde and still was.
Tai didn't want to believe it at the time, but he had been and still was in love with Matt. So finally after ten years the brunette was going to tell the blue eyed singer. He only hoped it wasn't too late. Ten years is a long time. Tai looked up just to see he had passed Matt's apartment building.
Reluctantly Tai made his way up the stairs, he figured it would give him a little extra time if he took the stairs instead of the elevator. He finally arrived at Matt's door and was now beginning to panic. What would he say? What would he do? Thoughts zoomed through Tai's head. No turning back now, He had to tell him.
After he collected his thoughts, he knocked on the door. Nothing…He knocked again…Still no reply….
Maybe he wasn't home. Tk told Tai Matt was always home on Tuesdays. Tai was beginning to get a bad feeling about all this, something wasn't right. He slowly reached out and turned the knob, it was open. He went in.
Tai looked around…….the apartment would have been totally dark had it not been daylight outside. Sunlight poured in through the windows. Immediately Tai scanned the apartment for Matt.
He wasn't in the Kitchen
…….or the living room
…….or the bedroom
Tai's knees gave out as soon as he opened the bathroom door. Tears welled up in his eyes as he made his way over to Matt's body. Immediately he felt for a pulse.
Okay everyone all I need to know is if you want a happy ending or a sad ending……………will matt live or will matt die………..what is tai going to do ………………………..its all up to you please read and review..
