Years Go By
Tai's POV
I knocked on the door. With my son holding my hand. He looks just like me. A spitting image. He's riding on Agumon's back.
Flashback
"Sora, please, reconsider. Please think before rushing into getting married. Are you sure its Matt?" I asked Sora from across the booth of our favorite cafe.
"Why Tai? Don't be scared. Things won't change because Matt and I are getting married, you'll still be my best friend."
"No I won't. When you're his, they're just things I can't do with you anymore. Besides, Sora," I choked. "I've been in and will always be in love with you. Its how I feel."
"Oh....God." Sora eyes widened with horror.
"Listen, Sora, I've felt this way since i first met you. Its not my fault I think your the most perfect girl in the whole world. I've always known that. I wanted to spend my whole life with you, but now I see I can't be selfish. If your happier with Matt, I'll be happy for you." I looked down and felt tears drop.
I felt her hand reach across the table and rub my hand. I looked up.
"Tai, I'm so sorry. I love Matt and loves me too. Why didn't you tell me sooner?"
"What difference would it have made? You still loved him. I tried asking you at Matt's concert remember?"
"Tai! You idiot. Before Matts concert. I used to wait by the phone for hours for you to call. When we were kids, you should have asked me then. Why do you think I hated you for you comment on the hair clips. I wanted you to notice me. I wanted you. Stupid Tai, don't you remember. All these years, I've felt you never really wanted me. I expected you to fight for me."
Why the fuck does she tell me this now? I don't want to know how I let her slip from my grasps because I was to naive then. Oh Sora.
"Sora...I'm here now. I want to be with you now. Please choose to be with me."
"Sorry Tai, things change. I couldn't wait for you forever, besides, its not fair to Matt. He loves me and his body keeps me warm. It's something real and something I can trust will last."
"You're right Sora." I said with a smile wiping me tears away. I was trying to hide my true feelings. "I didn't fight for you because I thought you and Matt were my closest friends, that it would be wrong to take your happiness away. I thought after time, Matt and you would some how realize that you weren't meant to be. I hoped you weren't meant to be. Now, with all honesty, I hope you are happy and I know I can't do it. I can't make you happy with me. I guess we weren't meant to be. I guess it was just a last ditch effort. I just needed to tell you so I could go with my life knowing I tried. I realize I don't need you to love me back in order for me go on. As long as your happy, I'll learn to go on. Good by Sora, I have a plane to catch." I said.
"Tai! You're not staying for our wedding? You have to, you're Matt's best man." She looked shocked.
"I'm sorry Sora, I can't bear to watch it. I don't even deserve to be Matt's best man, I tried to steal the love of his life. Here, take the ring and give it Joe. Good old reliable Joe can be his best man. I'm not Matt's best friend, I'm yours and I'd make an ugly brides maid."
"No Tai, you have to be there, for me. I need you."
"You don't need me. You have Matt." I got up ready to part when she took my hand and kissed it.
"You know, part of me wants to jump on that plane with you and never look back, but we both know I can't do that."
"Why are telling me this?" I pulled my hand back violently. "I'm sorry, did I hurt you?" I was worried I scared my love.
She shook her head.
"Bye Sora," I said kissing her forehead. "Love you forever." I patted the spot my heart with my clenched fist.
"Bye Tai." she said looking down at her coffee. I turn to leave when I hear her yell.
"Wait!"
I spun around.
"Can you give me one last hug?" I grinned and pulled her tightly to me. She wiped my tears away. I don't recall how I got to the airplane. Or ever getting on it. I just remember being really intoxicated. I woke up in my apartment with an empty bottle in my arms. I turn my head. I was lying on my couch. I looked at the VCR as the minute digits finally turned to 3:00 PM. Sora was happily wed by now. I cried my brains out.
Years went by and I had a son. His mother was always traveling never stopping to care for anything. I never got married. I never felt love for any other woman but Sora Takenouchi. Sora Ishida. Years went by and feelings get suppressed. Our kids go the school together. They're all digidestined now.
End Flashback
"I can't wait. Sean and I are gonna build a fort." said TJ. I didn't say anything. Matt and Sora sure had a beautiful house. The door finally opened.
"Tai!!!!" Sora yelped hugging me. "and little Tai Junior! Agumon, come in"
"Please...Call me TJ! Call me TJ." he jumped up and down.
"Here, I brought some wine and some ribs still in soaked in sauce. I figure Matt and I can throw em on the barbecue."
"Oh." she said disappointed. "Matt won't be here. He had a training class to attend in the U.S., I know you two have been meaning to catch up, but its just a picnic so the kids can get together..." Sora turned her head. "Sean and Sara, TJ's here!" she hollered.
The kids ran down the stairs. "Hi Mr. Yagami" they waved and then they dashed out the door with little Tai. Hey, I wasn't inventive with names okay? Agumon ran after them.
"So, I'll just put these ribs on a tray and we'll oven bake em. Other than that, lunch is done so I guess I'll just have to give you a tour of the house."
"Sure." I said grinning. Sora took my arm and I felt strange. I still loved her.
As we walked I saw all sorts of pictures on the wall. They had a wedding picture on a counter and everything looked perfect. Meanwhile life at my apartment was messy. It wasn't the best place for my TJ, but what am I supposed to do?
"So here is the bath room, its blue. Nothing interesting here. Continuing on...and to your left is the master bed room."
Sora dragged me in. It was very spacious and had looked like the interior of a lavish hotel room. I felt awkward taking a step into her personal life. Nothing of sort seemed to belong to Matt. Like his life was wiped and conformed to her image. Everything was in place neatly. Things looked perfect, too perfect.
"Tai, come sit on the bed. Its really soft." I walked over to Sora who was giggling and staring at me. I sat on the bed. Sora got up and shoved me hard. I fell back on the bed and she climbed on me!
"Sora, what are you doi..."
"Shhh..." she cut me off coursing my hear back. "Let me lock the door."
She sprinted over and closed the door and locked it and returned to me kissing me about my face.
"Sora, no. You can't." I said.
"Don't you want me Tai?"
"Sora this is wrong. I love it, but its wrong. You have a husband."
"He's never home." she said still smiling.
"...and two kids."
"their outside playing, remember?" she answered still crawling over me. I was still inching back off the bed.
"That's not what I meant and besides, this is Matt's bed." I added incredulously.
"Lets be rational." I said.
"Hmmm...Lets not." she said pulling my shirt up.
"Sora! Stop, i won't ask you again."
"Good, then stop asking me to stop."
"I do love you, but its too late. It's wrong. My gosh, your...we're 33 and have kids. We're not horny teenagers. Are you listening?" Sora obviously wasn't. She started unbuttoning her blouse and sweater. She undid her skirt and she was revealed her nylons.
"Sora...don't"
"COme one Tai, one more adventure. You know you want to."
"Get a grip, Sora!" I shook her by the shoulders and noticed her bruises. I saw her discomfort.
"Sora. What is this? Did Matt do this to you?" I asked
Suddenly Sora was upset and nodded yes. She started to cry.
"Oh my,... Sora." I pulled her into a hug.
Not DONE YET
Tai's POV
I knocked on the door. With my son holding my hand. He looks just like me. A spitting image. He's riding on Agumon's back.
Flashback
"Sora, please, reconsider. Please think before rushing into getting married. Are you sure its Matt?" I asked Sora from across the booth of our favorite cafe.
"Why Tai? Don't be scared. Things won't change because Matt and I are getting married, you'll still be my best friend."
"No I won't. When you're his, they're just things I can't do with you anymore. Besides, Sora," I choked. "I've been in and will always be in love with you. Its how I feel."
"Oh....God." Sora eyes widened with horror.
"Listen, Sora, I've felt this way since i first met you. Its not my fault I think your the most perfect girl in the whole world. I've always known that. I wanted to spend my whole life with you, but now I see I can't be selfish. If your happier with Matt, I'll be happy for you." I looked down and felt tears drop.
I felt her hand reach across the table and rub my hand. I looked up.
"Tai, I'm so sorry. I love Matt and loves me too. Why didn't you tell me sooner?"
"What difference would it have made? You still loved him. I tried asking you at Matt's concert remember?"
"Tai! You idiot. Before Matts concert. I used to wait by the phone for hours for you to call. When we were kids, you should have asked me then. Why do you think I hated you for you comment on the hair clips. I wanted you to notice me. I wanted you. Stupid Tai, don't you remember. All these years, I've felt you never really wanted me. I expected you to fight for me."
Why the fuck does she tell me this now? I don't want to know how I let her slip from my grasps because I was to naive then. Oh Sora.
"Sora...I'm here now. I want to be with you now. Please choose to be with me."
"Sorry Tai, things change. I couldn't wait for you forever, besides, its not fair to Matt. He loves me and his body keeps me warm. It's something real and something I can trust will last."
"You're right Sora." I said with a smile wiping me tears away. I was trying to hide my true feelings. "I didn't fight for you because I thought you and Matt were my closest friends, that it would be wrong to take your happiness away. I thought after time, Matt and you would some how realize that you weren't meant to be. I hoped you weren't meant to be. Now, with all honesty, I hope you are happy and I know I can't do it. I can't make you happy with me. I guess we weren't meant to be. I guess it was just a last ditch effort. I just needed to tell you so I could go with my life knowing I tried. I realize I don't need you to love me back in order for me go on. As long as your happy, I'll learn to go on. Good by Sora, I have a plane to catch." I said.
"Tai! You're not staying for our wedding? You have to, you're Matt's best man." She looked shocked.
"I'm sorry Sora, I can't bear to watch it. I don't even deserve to be Matt's best man, I tried to steal the love of his life. Here, take the ring and give it Joe. Good old reliable Joe can be his best man. I'm not Matt's best friend, I'm yours and I'd make an ugly brides maid."
"No Tai, you have to be there, for me. I need you."
"You don't need me. You have Matt." I got up ready to part when she took my hand and kissed it.
"You know, part of me wants to jump on that plane with you and never look back, but we both know I can't do that."
"Why are telling me this?" I pulled my hand back violently. "I'm sorry, did I hurt you?" I was worried I scared my love.
She shook her head.
"Bye Sora," I said kissing her forehead. "Love you forever." I patted the spot my heart with my clenched fist.
"Bye Tai." she said looking down at her coffee. I turn to leave when I hear her yell.
"Wait!"
I spun around.
"Can you give me one last hug?" I grinned and pulled her tightly to me. She wiped my tears away. I don't recall how I got to the airplane. Or ever getting on it. I just remember being really intoxicated. I woke up in my apartment with an empty bottle in my arms. I turn my head. I was lying on my couch. I looked at the VCR as the minute digits finally turned to 3:00 PM. Sora was happily wed by now. I cried my brains out.
Years went by and I had a son. His mother was always traveling never stopping to care for anything. I never got married. I never felt love for any other woman but Sora Takenouchi. Sora Ishida. Years went by and feelings get suppressed. Our kids go the school together. They're all digidestined now.
End Flashback
"I can't wait. Sean and I are gonna build a fort." said TJ. I didn't say anything. Matt and Sora sure had a beautiful house. The door finally opened.
"Tai!!!!" Sora yelped hugging me. "and little Tai Junior! Agumon, come in"
"Please...Call me TJ! Call me TJ." he jumped up and down.
"Here, I brought some wine and some ribs still in soaked in sauce. I figure Matt and I can throw em on the barbecue."
"Oh." she said disappointed. "Matt won't be here. He had a training class to attend in the U.S., I know you two have been meaning to catch up, but its just a picnic so the kids can get together..." Sora turned her head. "Sean and Sara, TJ's here!" she hollered.
The kids ran down the stairs. "Hi Mr. Yagami" they waved and then they dashed out the door with little Tai. Hey, I wasn't inventive with names okay? Agumon ran after them.
"So, I'll just put these ribs on a tray and we'll oven bake em. Other than that, lunch is done so I guess I'll just have to give you a tour of the house."
"Sure." I said grinning. Sora took my arm and I felt strange. I still loved her.
As we walked I saw all sorts of pictures on the wall. They had a wedding picture on a counter and everything looked perfect. Meanwhile life at my apartment was messy. It wasn't the best place for my TJ, but what am I supposed to do?
"So here is the bath room, its blue. Nothing interesting here. Continuing on...and to your left is the master bed room."
Sora dragged me in. It was very spacious and had looked like the interior of a lavish hotel room. I felt awkward taking a step into her personal life. Nothing of sort seemed to belong to Matt. Like his life was wiped and conformed to her image. Everything was in place neatly. Things looked perfect, too perfect.
"Tai, come sit on the bed. Its really soft." I walked over to Sora who was giggling and staring at me. I sat on the bed. Sora got up and shoved me hard. I fell back on the bed and she climbed on me!
"Sora, what are you doi..."
"Shhh..." she cut me off coursing my hear back. "Let me lock the door."
She sprinted over and closed the door and locked it and returned to me kissing me about my face.
"Sora, no. You can't." I said.
"Don't you want me Tai?"
"Sora this is wrong. I love it, but its wrong. You have a husband."
"He's never home." she said still smiling.
"...and two kids."
"their outside playing, remember?" she answered still crawling over me. I was still inching back off the bed.
"That's not what I meant and besides, this is Matt's bed." I added incredulously.
"Lets be rational." I said.
"Hmmm...Lets not." she said pulling my shirt up.
"Sora! Stop, i won't ask you again."
"Good, then stop asking me to stop."
"I do love you, but its too late. It's wrong. My gosh, your...we're 33 and have kids. We're not horny teenagers. Are you listening?" Sora obviously wasn't. She started unbuttoning her blouse and sweater. She undid her skirt and she was revealed her nylons.
"Sora...don't"
"COme one Tai, one more adventure. You know you want to."
"Get a grip, Sora!" I shook her by the shoulders and noticed her bruises. I saw her discomfort.
"Sora. What is this? Did Matt do this to you?" I asked
Suddenly Sora was upset and nodded yes. She started to cry.
"Oh my,... Sora." I pulled her into a hug.
Not DONE YET
