I walk to the police station, which is just a few blocks away, my mind swimming with terror and anger

I walk to the police station, which is just a few blocks away, my mind swimming with terror and anger. I can't help blaming myself; I didn't even try to stop him. I could have maybe helped both of them. Then I remember, there was really nothing I could do. Roger made a decision; he cut me out of his life. I don't know if I can do this, go and rescue him and then watch him and Mimi leave again. This has to be the end.

Maureen and Joanne beat me to the police station, I walk in and see Joanne talking sternly with the officer behind the desk. I look to my left and Maureen is sitting next to Mimi with her arms around her. I walk up next to Joanne and stand quietly as she uses her best lawyer tone.

"This is his first offense, there is no reason to keep him overnight…" The cop says something about a hearing the next day to determine bail, and that there is no choice to keep him locked up overnight. Joanne turns away in disgust, "Well as his lawyer can I least see him?" The officer nods and waves Joanne towards a door. She grabs my hand and pulls me with her. The cop buzzes the door and we enter and Joanne quickly introduces me as her partner. I look down at my faded jeans and ripped sweater and almost laugh but the cop just points us to a room.

On TV they always make visiting someone at jail look horrible, with the soundproof glass and the telephone. Here, we are shown into a room with a table and four chairs. Joanne and I sit down next to each other and I lean my head against my hands and just look at her.

"How did we get here?"

She shakes her head, "I don't know."

Roger is brought in and he sits across from us. He looks tired and scared. He has lost a lot of weight, his once muscular frame is now very thin, and his cheeks have sunken in. He come acrosss terrible.

"What are you doing here?" He looks directly at me when he speaks.

"Mimi called." He just nods and turns to Joanne.

"So I'm screwed, right?"

"Tell me what happened first." I sit quietly as he churns out his tale.

"I was at the wrong place at the wrong time. I really wasn't doing anything." He looks at me for a second, and turns back to Joanne. "The cops raided Tony's place, just as he was selling to me. I was buying a lot, so it looks like intent to sell, but I wasn't." I put my head down. "Really."

"Try the truth now, Roger." Joanne speaks to him very professionally and I am in awe at her ability to distance herself from the situation.

"Fine," He rolls his eyes. "I have been selling once in while, and he was giving me just enough to take care of a few deals." He again looks over at me, but when I try and look in his eyes, he turns away. "How's Mimi?"

"She's scared." I answer him, "Where was she when this happened?"

"She was there too, but she didn't have anything on her, so they didn't arrest her. "Mark, I'm so sorry, for everything."

My cold expression doesn't change. Joanne starts babbling about how she should be able to get him off since it was his first arrest and he wasn't actually selling. She said she can make it look as if he were a victim of circumstance. "Maybe you shouldn't bother." I open my mouth and let the icy words fall out. "Maybe you should let him learn his lesson."

She looks at me, "Mark, not here, ok?"

Roger slams his hand on the table breaking me out of my trance, "Fuck you! You want to watch me rot away in jail?" I shake my head. "Mark, look, it wasn't my fault, really."

"Yeah, right." He turns away from me, "Look at me," He rotates back towards me and looks me in the eyes, "I told you I couldn't go through this again, yet here I am. I think that says something." He nods. "This is the last time though, no more."

"Yeah, I know." He looks at me defeated. A police officer comes in and tells us our time is up. I stand and look him in the eyes, "What is going to happen tomorrow if you get bail?" He shrugs. I shake my head and walk out of the room. Once I'm out I turn and slam my fist into the wall, crying out in pain. Joanne quickly comes to my side, calls me an idiot and walks me into the main waiting area. Benny has arrived and he is talking to Maureen and Mimi, Joanne sits me down and mumbles something about getting an ice pack.

"Mark, how is he?" Mimi speaks to me softly. I don't want to look at her. I can't help but blame her. The one time sweet, playful girl has turned into a shell of a person that I don't recognize anymore. I just shrug and she comes over to me. "I'm sorry, look this is it, we were just talking about getting clean the other day. I know he wants to and I do to. Please, don't turn your back on us." I look towards her through the corner of my eyes.

"I'll believe it when it happens." I get up, take the ice pack that Joanne is offering me and walk out of the station.

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