Chapter Seven
"Is this love that I'm feeling, is this the love that I've been searching for…" Jon sang softly to the night as he threw stones in to the small pond he was sitting next to. Somewhere a strange animal called to others, and the whistling wind gently knocked tree branches together, all the sounds coming together in some strange song that only nature and the Digital World understood. For some reason Jon's own singing reminded him of Matt's harmonica playing, and the conversation he had with Sora just hours before.
"You're worried about her."
"She did a brave thing back there, standing up to MetalSeadramon like that. I've never seen anyone girl as brave as she was. Well…except for Kari. Any girl her age that can stand to be in place like this has got to be brave."
"They are both brave in their own way."
The way Sora was looking at me when she said that…I know she doesn't like me like that, she made that perfectly clear the first day we met. Yet is seemed like she was reading my thoughts or my expression at least. She knew that I was thinking about Janeene. I was just singing 'Is This Love?', and yet that's the same exact question I'm asking myself…
"Ha! Yeah right, Jon…" the boy muttered to himself, slightly surprised at the sound of his own voice amongst the subtle sounds of the night, "I like Janeene…sure, that's real probable…" he added sarcastically.
I barely know the girl for one thing, and besides that she's got an attitude worse than Matt! Like I could ever stand to be around a girl like that. Geez…what am I even thinking things like this for? I'm thirteen! I still have my whole teenage life ahead of me to think about girls…
Jon stared back at the direction he had wandered, wondering if the other kids were all right. He snorted at his own worry and went back to throwing rocks in to the lake.
They can take care of themselves, and so can I. Gabumon was right…
"…All we are trying to do is save the Digital World, and all you want to do is play Lone Wolf…"
Yeah, I am the Lone Wolf, but hell! That's the way I've always been. I knew it was a mistake to go to Tokyo and ask these kids about all of this, but I went. Now I regret it. If I stay with them I'm just gonna screw things up again, but if I don't go back then I may never find a way out of the Digital World…
Jon stared at his shimmery reflection in the dark waters, and suddenly his mind was flooded with images of the previous battle.
"T.K.!!!"
"I'm sorry Matt!!"
"JANEENE YOU CRAZY GIRL! NO!"
"What the…"
"Janeene?"
"Oh well, not the one I wanted but it's good enough. As for you-"
"BREATH OF FIRE!!!"
"Whoa…what do you suppose that was?"
"It's Janeene!"
"You've gone and messed with the wrong Pyro…"
Jon shook his head roughly and squeezed his eyes shut, if only to keep away the tears the threatened to fall.
I watched her run out and all I did was stand there screaming her name. Why didn't I do anything? God, what am I, stupid! A coward! Is that what I am? I must be…I could have saved her. At the rate she keeps going she's not going to live through this. I should have done something! ANYTHING! They are better off without me...I'm a loser, nothing more.
Jon gave in to his over flowing emotions and buried his face in his hands. All though he shook all over he never allowed himself to cry, not even in the sanctity of this little grotto. He had long since given up crying to the stars, because all it ever seemed to bring was more and more grief.
As the young boy sat on the edge of the pond, his head in his hands and his heart on his sleeve, he never noticed the pair of beady eyes watching his every move…
A/N: Crap! I'm so sorry these stupid chapters are getting so short! My episode guide had a bug in it so I have to go find a new one online. But I hope that will be up tonight! So keep reading!
