SPECIAL KIND OF SOMETHING

SPECIAL KIND OF SOMETHING

Disclaimer - All characters and occurrences mentioned in this song-fic are the fantastic creations of Tamora Pierce, don't sue me - I couldn't pay you.

The song, "Special kind of something" is the property of Kavana; I got it off his CD single 'Special kind of something' from Virgin music.

My first song-fic ever, infact my first fanfic ever too. be nice please This set at the beginning of 'Lioness Rampant' and is Alanna's reflections of her life so far and her meeting with Liam.

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I need a special kind of something

But what? I've won my shield, killed my greatest enemy, all I ever wanted. And yet I'm still drifting in the wind, without purpose after all I've achieved.

Somebody said I would make it big,

Coram, aye he knew I could be a great warrior, I was born to it.

Somebody said I could be the kid

To go all the way

The greatest?

To go all the way.

Maybe, he'd say.

My daddy said learn and you will go far,

Learn, he said, of books and maidenly duties, that was never for me. I never wanted it.

Gotta reach up for the highest star,

My shield was all I desired.

That's what he said, so that's what I did.

In a round about way. My shield became my quest.

And nobody said that I would feel this pain,

Coram told me all about the physical pain, but this, I'm unprepared for

Nobody said that I would feel this way

The feelings of loneliness and wanting

Now I need to explain

But to whom?

I got something to give,

Me, that's all.

I need someone to hold,

Someone to stop this empty feeling.

I need a special kind of something,

Still I don't know what I'm missing.

'Cause I don't wanna be alone,

Since I left George that's what I've been.

I wanna learn how to love,

As Jon tried to teach me.

I need to know how to care,

As George tried to teach me.

I got this special kind of something

Something that makes me unique,

That I just need to share

But with whom?

I didn't really think about the consequence

I wanted to be a knight so bad I didn't think ahead, to when I would have to settle down as other knights do.

I got a one-way ticket out of innocence

That choice changed my life, there's no changing it now,

But that was my dream

To be a knight.

And this is my dream

I finally made it.

I can't spend another night on my own

It's too much to bear

Never in my life felt so alone

My friends are so far away, too far.

Tell me can I explain

To them? I don't know.

I got something to give,

Me, that's all.

I need someone to hold,

Someone to stop this empty feeling.

I need a special kind of something,

Love? Caring?

'Cause I don't wanna be alone,

Since I left George that's what I've been.

I wanna learn how to love,

As Jon tried to teach me.

I need to know how to care,

Like only a woman can.

I got this special kind of something

Something that makes me unique,

That I just need to share…with you.

With him?

And if I keep pretending,

That I don't know what he's doing

How will you know

Can he see me well enough with those sea green eyes, to know?

The message I keep sending?

Can he see the pleading in mine?

I got this special kind of something,

But I don't know how to do this,

That I need to show

To you?

I got something to give,

Myself, always myself.

I need someone to hold,

Will you stop this empty feeling?

I need a special kind of something,

Your love? And caring?

'Cause I don't wanna be alone,

You can help me.

I wanna learn how to love,

Try to teach me, as Jon tried to teach me.

I need to know how to care,

Please?

I got this special kind of something

I'm sure you can see it,

That I just need to share

With you.

(Something to give)

My heart, my soul, if you'll take it.

(Someone to hold)

Will you be there for me?

(A special kind of something)

A lover, an equal.

(Don't wanna be alone)

But I won't if you're there with me.

I need a special kind of something

'Cause I don't wanna be alone

(Learn how to love)

Teach me how

(Know how to care)

Care for you? Or maybe even care for me?

(A special kind of something)

I'm special,

(I just need to share)

And willing to share.

I got a special kind of something

That I just need to share

With you.

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Well? Please review, flames welcomed with open arms as it proves someone's actually read it. There will be a sequel but it'll be from Liam's point of view.

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