Telling Faith
by AlienPred18
Disclaimer: I don't own anyone. They all belong to Joss.
Notes: From Faith's POV


I don't even know why she bothered to show up? I already knew. I knew the moment it happened. That night, that moment I woke up screaming. It came so sudden, the pain. I scared the shit out of my cellmate. Hell, I scared the entire block. I couldn't help it though. It felt like she was ripped out of me. They talked about me during breakfast. Well, that is until I nearly ripped a couple of their heads off. It's not very smart to tease a wounded animal. My little outburst got me a couple of fun days in solitary. Actually, I needed the time away from everyone. She was always there, deep inside. I realize that now. Funny, I didn't know she was there until she was ripped out. She's been there ever since I was called. Now, I have this hole where she used to be.

"Hey, Red," I say nonchalantly. I don't know why I even bother to keep up this act. I know why she's here and Red knows I know. Actually I just lied, I do know why I keep the act up. It's because it is Red. Maybe if it was somebody else, I would be just a pile of emotions, but not with Red. I'm jealous of her. I'm jealous because she was closer to B than I ever could be. I'm jealous because she was with her in her final hour. I should've been there, instead. If I was there none of this would've happened. Nothing could defeat the Chosen Two. But I wasn't there and Red was. I refuse to show any weakness in front of her. If she can be strong through all this, so could I.

"She's dead, Faith." And there it is. Who would've thought three little words could hurt so much? Especially when you already knew it. Stop it! My eyes are getting watery. I can't cry in front of Red. I can't. Then I see it. A single tear rolls down Red's cheek. I look into her eyes and I see pain and defiance. She doesn't want to cry in front of me as much as I don't want to cry in front of her. I can't stop them now. The tears come down like a waterfall. The funny thing is I don't want to stop them. This is the first time I cried for B and it seems right that I do it in front of Red. I don't even know how long I cried. When I stopped, I realized she cried with me. I guess I'm kinda glad the glass is between us or we would've held each other and neither one of us is ready for that. It's time to go. I have to say something.

"Thank you for telling me, Willow."