REVISED 13/01/03
WRITTEN 2001

Author: Kurisutaru
email: kurisutaru_faithful@lunap.com
Title: I've Gotta Find You
Chapter: 5
Disclaimer:.....darn my currently really living in the house imouto-chan for
constantly reminding me how I CAN NOT spell disclaimer...ARGH.......I
HOPE
YOUR HAPPY!! Ano...if I post at Sailor Fanfiction sites....doesn't that
just....SAY it's fanfiction??!??........bakas....lol..^^;;
thanks: Many thanks to my supporting friends....and their, errr...LOVELY
ways
of convincing me to continue....
Just to name a few, my imouto-chans and onee-chans. ^_^

Yes this is the end!! YEAH!!! I *finally* finished it! aren'tcha proud of
me?...^^;; sure....I took......awhile...to...err...complete it...

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~~Usagi~~

I woke to the light streaming through my apartment. I shuffled my fluffy pink
blanket as I turned over to see Luna curled up beside me. I turned back to the
ceiling and fan thoughts through my head. I feel weird this morning, like I
missed something. I groaned and turned my head to the clock.

"Oh CRAP!!! I'm late for my shift!!!"

I practically threw Luna off the bed, luckily cats and on their feet, other wise
Luna would be long dead. Screaming "Gomen" at Luna as she huffed away. I
just barley got out of the house with my blouse buttoned, the hair pins in my
hair, and my lab coat on. I dashed out the building as if death was on my tail
and
collided into a poor unsuspecting someone.

It was a man, around my age, he had black hair, and the most amazing,
familiar
blue eyes. I didn't have time to dwell on the fact that the man seemed
familiar, I
merely wailed, "I'm sorry sir, but I'm late" and dash away.
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~~Ano...~~

If Usagi had looked back, she would have seen the man smirk, with a sad,
and
distant smile, as she dashed around the corner. The man picked up his fallen
belongings and walked in the same direction.

When Usagi arrived at the Hospital, she spoke with the Receptionist. The
lady
informed her that her teacher was in fact not in yet, and told her to sit and
wait.
Usagi fumed, dashed all this way, and the Doctor wasn't even here yet. She
took out her pink scribbled book, and started to write feelings on nonsense
and
strangeness.

"Doctor Chiba!!!" The bubbly receptionist squealed, among other doctors,
which happened to be all female, as well greeted this, Dr. Chiba. Murmurs
were
exchanged among the receptionist and the Dr. Chiba.

Usagi, utterly clueless to the commotion, was interrupted from her thought
planning,
by the same man that she ran over this morning!

He was a sly one, grin and all. His blue eyes childishly sparkled as he
informed
poor embarrassed Usagi of the fact that he was her supervising Doctor.

"Hello, I'm Doctor Mamoru Chiba. I will be your supervising doctor during
your
intern here."

They shook hands, all looked professional, from afar. Mamoru continued,
"First
I'll show you around the hospital, and give you a general idea of the rules
applied
while here." He started walking away, leaving Usagi to follow blindly. He
turned
once more around, before leaving the main hall. Grinning evilly Mamoru
winked
and said, "By the way, I do not applaud tardiness."
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~~Usagi~~

I have never been so embarrassed. It's true, I've been known for my tardiness,
but
this takes the cake! I made my supervising doctor late! At first, I just hoped
he
did not recognize me, but when we left the main hall, ::ERRR:: then I knew
he
knew!

"Usagi-san, please pay attention!"

I snapped my gaze back at Dr. Chiba...

"Dr. Chiba, how did you know my name? You didn't ask yet."

He childishly raised an eyebrow and rolled his eyes, as he switched the
clipboard
between hands,
"Elementary my dear Bunny, your name is on the contact information that
came in."

I blushed violently. Darn him.

Smiling again, he looked me in the eye, dazzling me, I assure you only for a
few short
moments with his incredible blue eyes.

"Let's start your shift Odango Atama."

Wide eyed, and seeing perfectly red. The NERVE of that man,
Odango?!...ATAMA?!..I've never been so insulted. Sure a few students in
high
school had a few words about her strange hairstyle but this was by far the
most
insulting.

Alas, I could not say a word. With *him* as my supervising Doctor, I am
doomed.

I followed obediently, but stuck out my tongue at the inferior man as his back
faced me.
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It was a very long and tiring day I noted to myself as I rubbed my aching
Shoulder, and popped open the door. That Dr. Chiba, such a slave driver! All
my jobs consist of changing
diapers, blankets, the only good part of my job was talking to the younger
patients. I was never permitted to touch a thing during Dr. Chiba's shift, I was
said to
only observe. Even after my shift, with my back aching, and my sides
groaning. I sadly, was not permitted to return home, because of my other job
at the
ice-cream parlor. Who knew serving kids ice cream could be so painful?!

I collapsed on the couch, and closed my eyes to relax carefully, What I
needed was a bath,
now.

It was going to be one of those weeks. I felt hot and sticky, gross, and used.

I was going to get to the bottom of this Dr. Chiba character though, there was
something about him.

Dr. Mamoru Chiba, I don't know why, but his name certainly rings
something.
Around his colleges he was certainly admired, women of all ages gaped and
fawned at him, secretly or openly. He acted mysterious, serious, and intense.
Around
me, he was like a 15-year-old boy with puberty! Running around, and
and...and...calling me.....AGH!!!!

Kicking the closest thing to me, I yelp in pain, darn that stupid wall. Luna
looked
over, and seemed to shake her kawaii head as I cursed and hopped around on
one
foot.

I am in the major need of Hot Chocolate.
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After hours of soaking, I trudged my overly heavy body that screamed for
chocolate, towards the kitchen. Dressed in my fluffy Sailor V pajamas, I
dried
my long hair with the pink towel, and patted Luna as I walked over to the
small
kitchen. The towel slipped from my hands...

I was out of Hot Chocolate!

I gripped the counter, I needed a fix, and now! Suppressing the sudden urge
to
take out my hammer and just smash things. I devised the most efficient plan,
without having to look for a 24-hour store, when the only means of
transportation
is walking. I'll just ask my neighbor for chocolate!

I dashed back to my tiny room and grabbed my pink robe and bunny slippers.
On
my way out, I picked up the funny-looking jar that once held the precious
chocolate and waltzed over to the next door. I rang the doorbell and waited
patiently.

Tapping my foot, I glance at my wristwatch, it was ONLY twelve am. After
watching the second hand journey every so slowly clockwise, I rang the door
bell
again, more impatiently this time.

The door swung open to a tired looking, Doctor Chiba.
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~~Ano...~~

Mamoru watched her stutter embarrassed and absolutely adorably. A evil
smile
crept across his face, "Odango Atama, your shift is over, what are you doing
here?"

"Doc....Doctor Chiba!"

Mamoru's sly grin widened, "Mamoru, please."

Usagi's face blanched, "Mamoru..." she said quietly to herself. Mamoru's
hope
sprang loose, did she remember? did she know?....did she recognize him? All
these swirling thoughts were ended, when Usagi's spunk kicked in.

"Well, Mamo-baka I was wondering, do you by chance have any hot
chocolate?"
Confidently she held her head high, no way was she about to let this man
win.

Waves of the memories of last week hit Mamoru painfully, and ironically.
She came over for
chocolate, it was the same thing that brought them back together. Mamoru
didn't
respond to Usagi at first, he just plowed into his apartment, and dragged up
the
hot chocolate he was going to give Usagi any ways.

Usagi was confused. She didn't understand this guy, yet felt him fully. She
saw
him return with a smile on his face, not once noticing the sadness the hung in
his
tired eyes.

"Here you go Odango, hot chocolate, just the way you like it with the
marshmallows and all." Stupefied, Usagi merely grabbed the hot cocoa from
Mamoru's hands, muttered a 'thank you' and shuffled back next door.

Mamoru sighed, leaning against the doorframe. How long, how much would
it
take, for Usagi to remember him?
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~~Usagi~~

After the strange incident with Mamoru. I just, blocked it out, I felt strange,
separated. But from what? Who? I shook my head. A beeping sounded
through
my entire apartment. I followed the sound to the familiar communicator, I
flipped
it opened, to see Ami's face in the screen.

"Usagi-chan! What happened? The scouts and I were called for an emergency
the other night... Are you alright? Luna was babbling in the message, it was
faint
and static blocked mostly everything she said. Is Mamoru-san alright as well?
Usagi? Usagi-chan?"

I blinked several times at the screen. When did Luna report something?
Static?
Strange, everything seemed fine...What did Mamoru have to do with this?

"Usagi?--" I snapped out of the strange trance.

"Ami-chan, I'm calling an emergency meeting now. Get over here, I have
some
things to ask you about."

Ami looked worried, "I'll be there in as soon as I can Usagi. Is everything
okay?"

Non-coherently I nodded and turned off the communicator.

Now to talk to Mamoru.
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~~Ano...~~

A hideously loud pounding sounded though the halls, as a very pissed off
looking
bunny attempts to knock over her neighbor's door. Mamoru answered it
quickly,
not the least surprised to see her at the door. He quietly signaled her to come
in.

Usagi entered the fairly larger apartment, waves of memories floated into her
head. She placed a hand to her head as they flooded through, confusing and
random she couldn't make any sense out of them. Shots and scenes of her and
him... Usagi's eyes flashed wide, and confidant.

"Mamo-baka! You better have a very good explanation to what exactly is
going
on."

Mamoru's gloomy look, stopped Usagi from harassing him further. She was
overcome with the urge to walk out and take him into her arms, and make the
pain in his blue blue eyes disappear. Usagi fought the strange feeling, and
waited
for an answer.

"Get Luna" He simply said as he walked over to the kitchen, and started up
the
kettle.

Usagi did not argue, he was too serious. She stocked back over and grabbed a
rather mad kitty, and placed her on the couch.

"Usagi! What is the meaning of this?! What time do you think it is?!" Luna
lectured, only to freeze as Mamoru walked back to the couch with two cups
of
hot chocolate in his hands.

"Luna, you have some discussing to do too." Usagi calmingly stated, "What
happened to me?"

Luna looked over, a little shocked, and silent her face turned downward, and
focused on the chair in which she sat in.

Usagi was mad now, fist in balls, and face bright red. "Luna, I can guess
fairly
well that you know Mamo-baka. I'm pretty sure he knows you too. Now stop
playing the silly cat you are and answer my question!"

Luna sadly looked at Mamoru, he glanced back in return and he cleared his
throat.

"Alright Usagi, we'll tell you."

Usagi blinked at Mamoru, and released her fists, and became calm again.

Taking a breath Mamoru started his story.
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Mamoru wrung his hands, and curled them, swept his hand through
his hair. Usagi sat, waiting. She was dead still, waiting.

"You remember Beryl, don't you?" he asked quietly. She nodded,
slowly.
"Do you remember, Metallica?" Once again, she nodded.

Mamoru once again, swept a shaky hand through his black hair. And looked
Usagi in the eye, "Do you remember. How she was destroyed?"

Tears welled and escaped from Usagi's swelling blue eyes. She didn't
understand, why she was crying, welling, weeping in a pain, that she didn't
know. Mamoru's eyes soften, and looked to leak as well. He pulled Usagi into
a warm comforting embrace, trying to sooth her soul from a pain she couldn't
remember.

With in his welcoming arms, Usagi remember this feeling of being in his
arms, longing for eternity just in his arms. "Why?" she kept asking as she
wept in his arms. Mamoru could do nothing more, then crease an eyebrow
painfully, and attempt to comfort her from this pain. He glanced at Luna, who
held the same disturbance in her eyes.

"You, destroyed her with the silver crystal. Bright light claimed everything,
Luna and I woke up, like nothing had happened. I didn't know..." He
hesitated, "That you would still be asleep, you were out for many days. I
knew that you had forgotten, the stress emotionally, physically, spiritually,
was too much for your body, your soul...so, you involuntarily wiped away
any memories of the past few days, and specifically the memory of me..."

Usagi looked carefully at his sincere eyes, sorrow filled them, and she
instinctively hugged him close, trying to comfort him. "I'm sorry, that I don't
remember you, or anything..." She trailed thinking.

She abruptly rose, and staggered out, "I...I need to go. Thank you for telling
me Mamoru. I'll see you tomorrow." And with the soft click of the door, she
was gone. Mamoru bowed his head grasping the pain that flooded him. She,
just left...He knew, she knew...There must have been some kind of
relationship between them...but what is it she's afraid of? Him? Duty?
Destiny? Or, herself?
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Usagi staggered to her apartment, in anguish. What was she to do? How
could she possibly tell him? She remembered. She remembered him, now.
After being in his arms. She knew. Usagi broke down crying against her
door. She didn't want to remember. Not at all.
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Usagi had painfully managed to cry herself to sleep, dragging her worn body
to her bed. Luna had stayed with Mamoru that night, sensing that she needed
time alone. Usagi had strange vivid dreams, that seem to explain everything,
yet, explained nothing. She abruptly awoke to the sound of her door
mercilessly being pounded on.

She shuffled herself to the door, still wiping away the tears that lingered on
her lashes. She grabbed the handle, and in one brave motion opened the door.
She knew it was him.
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~~Usagi~~

I gasped a little, even though I knew it was him. His intense eyes focused
only on me, we both hesitated to speak.

"Usagi…" He trailed gently. Silence engulfed the room again. Suddenly, I
felt this was the time, time to ask, time to be brave… Perhaps time to be
heartbroken.

Clearing my throat, and summoning my courage. I stated, "Mamoru. I want-I
want to ask you something, and I want you to honestly answer me."

With his eyes still attentively focused on me, he nodded.

"Do you-Do, do you love me?" I hesitated to finish my sentence,
unknowingly, tears dripped down my face again. I watched his face change
before me, in surprise.

Before and single tear fell from my face to touch the ground, he reached it,
and wiped it away. His eyebrow creased. "How could you ask such a thing,
of course… Of course I do. You enchanted me since the first time I met you,
but only when I stumbled into you here, in New York, did I really figure it
out. Too busy searching for a princess, I was sidetracked by you. Usako, I
can't, not love you and it's certainly too late to turn back, because I'm just too
in love with you now. I've found my princess, I'm not talking about the moon
princess. I'm talking about MY princess, the one, of my dreams." He pulled
me close in his warm, warm arms. Feeling safe and warm, I knew, he meant
every single last word of it.

"Why did you ask Usagi?" He asked.

I looked into his beautiful eyes, and answered truthfully, no longer hiding.

"I was afraid."
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~~Mamoru~~

My grip around her tightened, why, why was she afraid?

She seemed to have heard him ask, "I was afraid, because, I didn't think you
could really love, me. At least, not the part that is truly me, the Usagi
Tsukino part of me. I'm sure you know why, after all you used to tease me
everyday, just about this part of me." Tears glittered in her opal-blue eyes,
"But, now I know… I love you Mamo-chan."

My heart was going to soar, however it was sadly interrupted. For Usako had
pulled me down for a kiss, a most wonderful kiss…

And we are together.
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The End.