Disclaimer; I don't own Outlaw Star, but I do own Boutou Hoshi. You're welcome to use characters and ideas from my story but ONLY if you have my written permission. There, that just about sums it up. ((-^)
Notes; Wow, lookie, I'm back! ^-^ Anyway, I know I've been gone for a really long time and I'm sorry, really I am. I've been trying to figure out what to do w/ my next fic (please read and review To Sequel or Not To Sequel!!!!) and just let this fall to the wayside. (I'm also working on an FY twins fic or two) Anyway, this ch. is about Gene!! Yup, this one's going to be his view on Jim and all the trouble he got into b/c of him. I'm planning on doing another one of these for him (focusing on Riakie and his fight with her mainly) and two others. Well, you have to have read almost all of Boutou Hoshi to understand this, or else it won't make much sense. Okay, I'm done, thanks!
The Biggest Mistake of My Life:
The Boutou Hoshi Side Stories 3
By: Adakie
Honestly, what did I do to deserve all this?
I'm a pretty good guy, right? Well, sure, I've done some bad things before, but I'm not _that_ bad . . . so why is all this happening to me? Is this some all cruel trick? Are the gods up there laughing at me in my stupidity? Well it's not very funny! Come on, honestly!
But I guess it's not all bad . . . I mean, well, the kid's kinda nice when he's not trying to be tough. He might actually . . . na, what am I thinking! He's just a kid after all. But there's just something that draws me to him . . . oh I don't understand. I've never liked kids before.
Maybe it's just the situation. That's got to be it. I mean, he looked so pathetic the first time I saw him. Scrawny, dirty . . . ya he was a wreck. And he lived in an abandoned basement stealing food and robbing ambulances just to survive. Then add in the fact that he was living with a psychopath and anyone would feel sorry for him! I'm not that different, I just wound up in the wrong place at the wrong time. Didn't I? Anybody would have made the same mistake. But was it a mistake?
Ya, it was. It has to have been the biggest mistake I ever made, getting involved like that when I knew how dangerous this whole thing could be. The first rule of the bounty hunters; never get emotionally involved with your target. And that's what he is, he's my target . . . or at least he was. After all, I've never really resigned from this case. I should have turned him in and gotten his all over with as soon as possible. He is my target.
So why can't I let go? I could have just taken him to a welfare place somewhere. I _should_ have done that. It would have been safer for both of us. But if that's true, then why do I absolutely hate that idea? I can't stand the thought of letting him go. What the h*ll is wrong with me?! Why can't I think clearly about all this? I know the facts, but for some reason I can't bring myself to believe it. So maybe it wasn't a mistake, at least not a total one.
Would it really have all worked out if I'd dropped him off at a shelter? Or just never met him at all? Would things have been better if we'd never met? Well, if it was a mistake, then I'm not sorry I made it. In fact, I think that's the best mistake I ever made.
~Owarii~
Well, that's it. Please be a responsible reader and review!! (^-^))
