A Buffy & Spike fiction |

Title: Revelations
Synopsis: Spike fights to keep his sanity intact while Dawn had a mysterious vision about her sister. A post-'The Gift' BtVS episode fanfic.
Note: A continuation of Gifted. I considered writing this next chapter because I'm still in denial with what happened to Buffy. I'm pretty sure Joss have something special up on his sleeves, but at the moment I'm creating an alternate universe of my own :) Again, these are pure speculations, let me know what you think.
Rating: G
Date Written: Friday, 25 May, 2001 : 11:20:00 PM
Author: The Resident Web Vampyr © 2001.
Credits: Buffy the Vampire Slayer is a property of Joss Whedon and the powers that be. Partial script taken from 'The Gift' episode. Lyrics: Beautiful by Jennifer Paige.
Characters: Buffy Willow Dawn Doc Giles Spike




part four

Some days missing you has overwhelmed me
then it hits me, you're not coming back.
How do you prepare when you lost someone this way?
to let them go a little more each day.


Spike sat on the corner stool at Willy's Bar. He had been sitting there for a couple of hours now but only consumed a small amount of liquor for he can't seemed to get his mind off on what he witnessed at the cemetery--Buffy's headstone was missing.


***

He stood there staring to where Buffy was supposed to be buried and racked his mind off. Spike witnessed Buffy's death, he was there when they rushed her to the hospital, he was there when they buried her. But where was she now?

Spike closed his eyes and tried to think straight. He reckoned that it was probably his mind playing tricks on him, some strange denial stage or something. He drew a deep breath before he opened his eyes, and there it was...


***

"I know you'll never love me," Spike said quietly. He knew very well that what he told Buffy was true. For some strange reasons, he can feel what Buffy felt inside. She can never love him, and he accepted that fact.

"I know I'm a monster, but you treat me like a man," he continued, "and that..."

Spike paused. He wanted to say that, that alone was enough for him, but it was not the time nor place to get into that. What was important was that Buffy trusted him & let him inside her house, that she considered him as her ally, that she gave him the slightest crumb of hope, a far cry from what he expected. That what made Buffy special to him, she was no ordinary Slayer, she was a Slayer full of love and compassion.


***

"Do you want another round Spike?" asked Willy, noticing that his client was buried in his own thoughts, barely touching his drink.

Spike shook his head and continued with his blank stares.

"Is it about a girl?" Willy tried to spark a conversation with his dead customer. He'd known Spike for quiet some time now since his bar catered mostly to creatures of darkness, and this particular vampire often hanged around his place for a drink when he had problems, usually about a girl.

Willy had seen everything, knew everyone, considering his stay in Sunnydale for almost 5 years, not to mention occasional visits from non-demon customers, humans, military figures, etc. He knew how failed relationships can bring customers right on his front door. It was, by now, common for him to see a specie such as Spike drown himself in booze to help ease the pain. He remembered how Spike did the same thing a couple of years ago, when he lost his paramour to a slimy chaos demon. But this time, it was different. Spike seemed to be more depressed than ever.

"Did she dumped you or something?" Willy continued to ask. A good guess he thought, that's what always happened to these romantic creatures.

"She died," said Spike glumly.

"I'm so sorry to hear that bro," Willy said, saddened by his confession. "Death is a mug's game..."

"She's not supposed to die," said Spike, tears began to fill his eyes, "I'm supposed to..." his voice broke.

"Things happen Spike," said Willy trying to be supportive.

"No! You don't understand. She's the Slayer! She's not supposed to die!" he cried bitterly, overwhelmed with grief.

Willy noticed that Spike was beginning to get emotional, a cue for him to stay away before something goes wrong. But there's something about what Spike said that caught his attention. Willy finally spoke and asked him in a careful tone, "W-What's a Slayer?"

Spike slowly looked at him, eyes narrowed, a revelation beginning to unravel.



part five

Dawn slept earlier than usual for a couple of days now. She often found herself safe within her bedroom walls, lying in her bed, and thinking about Buffy. She kept having these dreams of her sister leaping towards the open portal, blood flowing everywhere, a sharp dagger slicing her and Buffy. She often woke up crying, covered with prespiration and gasping for air. One thing was sure though, as the night progressed, her dreams got more intense than ever.

Tonight, her dreams about Buffy was so vivid that she knew every details and every words spoken. The same emotions she felt exactly a week ago.


***

"Please help me... she's coming ..." Dawn cried to Doc who mysteriously appeared in front of her. Doc instead produced a knife. She felt instense pain from the cuts in her arms and ribs. Dawn jerked in her sleep, her head tossed from one side to the other.




part six

I'm looking for a way to feel you hold me
feel your heartbeat just one more time
.
And in my darkest hours, I have wondered
was it worth it, for the time we had.


A strong gust of wind swept Spike's duster. He stood on a platform jutted from a tower that Glory built for the ritual. The same tower where he was thrown off by Doc. The same tower where the bloodletting started which opened the portal. The same tower where Buffy leapt to close it.

He imagined what Buffy must have felt when she dived in the seemingly endless pit. Leaping into the air, trusting your heart to overcome all fears, and just letting go.

Spike contemplated on what happened that night. He could hardly see what was happening on the platform. All he knew was seeing Buffy in the air, a bolt of lighting had struck her followed by a bright light, devouring her into oblivion.

Spike listened to the wind. Then it suddenly dawned upon him. "Oh my God..." he whispered.


***

"Buffy, it's started," said Dawn in a terrified voice. A bolt of lighting striked randomly at the sky producing different kinds of hellish creatures.

"Buffy...no..." she pleaded.

"Dawnie... I have to -- "

"Nooooo...!"

Dawn sat up on her bed, crying. The nightmares doesn't stop, it just kept replaying in her dreams night after night. How she wished her mom were alive, how she wished her sister would be too. Despite having Giles, Willow, and her other friends, Dawn felt all alone for the first time.

A few moments had passed, when Dawn felt a cold air lightly touched her skin that made her opened her teary eyes. A few feet from her stood a white figure, suspended in air. It seemed to be saying something, but Dawn cannot hear, for it didn't make any sound.



part seven


"Dawn..." a distant voice spoke. "Dawn...Wake-up!" It was Willow.

She must have cried in her sleep, Dawn thought, as she regain conciousness.

"Are you okay?" Willow asked. "You were making these sounds l-like you're having a nightmare or something," she added hesistantly.


***

There was a knock on the door. Giles got up and opened it and saw that it was Spike. It was the middle of the night and he didn't expect any visitor at this hour, especially Spike.

"Spike, what are you doing here?" said Giles, clearly not taking his appearance at his doorstep lightly.

"I need to talk," he said, looking like he's worried over something.

"Can you just go back tomorrow? It's late and we terribly need some rest," he retorted.

"This is important," said Spike darkly.

Dawn, who was at the stairs listening to their conversation, asked, "It's about Buffy, isnt' it?" Her eyes met Spike's, who in turn nodded.

It was Buffy who came to her in her dreams. It was she, masked in a bright white light, who spoke to her in silence. Seeing Spike tonight made Dawn realized the meaning of her vision.

***






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