DisClaimer: I do not own Escaflowne or any of the people in it. Please
don't sue.:0) I want to thank everyone who likes my story so far. I
hope you'll continue to read. Sorry about the whole paragragh thing. I
swear they were there when i submitted the story.:0)
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Chapter 7: Intense Emotions
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-Beginnings are scary. Endings are usually sad.
It's the middle that counts the most-
- Hope Floats -
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Dilandau
-------------------
Dilandau has heard about the war and raced back to Zaibach He was
angry that he left for a little vacation and everything fell apart. If
it was a war Ispano wanted, a war they would get. He met with his 4
generals to discuss plans. Now all he could do was wait. And think of
other plans on his own.
Allen is out of the way. Now for Van and his new little wife. I am
sure Fanelia will side with Ispano against me. That means that Austuria
would be against them. With Freid being nuetral..... There really is no
threat at all. This war will end as quickly as it has started. I am
sure Ispano will make a move soon... I will be ready with a plan B.
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Fanelia
-------------------
Hitomi and Van are lying together in a bed. " Van, what are you
going to do about the oncoming war?" she asked him. " I am not sure
yet. If we side with Ispano then Austuria will be our enemies. If we
side with Austuria then Zaibach would be our allies. I need to figure
this out. Right now it seems like a no win situation " he said sadly.
" What about Atrea? I know i keep asking about her. I just feel
something in my gut about her. She is here on Gaea for a purpose. I
may not believe in pre-determined destiny anymore, but she is not here
at random " she said thinking aloud. " I wonder if she knows why she
is here? " Van asked looking over at her. " Probably not, i sense she
is lost. I am starting to see my visions again. Most of the time they
are fuzzy, but the images are getting a little clearer. The more time i
spend here, the clearer it gets " she said. " That's wonderful Hitomi "
he stated excited. " Ya, maybe i will be able to see the purpose that
drives this war " she stated. They kissed and went back to their
honeymoon.
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The Mountains
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" What's this place called Miguel ?" i asked him admiring the
beauty. " Kodeso. There are villages in these valleys " he stated not
really emotional. " Are we going to stay in that one " i pointed to
a lush green valley with a small town. " This is fine, we can stay
here " he said monotone.
We came upon this village called levarios. We both checked into
a small inn, in the farthest part of levorios. He got his own room. I
got a separate room. He walked away from me without saying a word. In
his room he went and closed it. I just stood there confused. I suppose
if i was not so caught in my feelings and issues i would have really
noticed the change in him. Ever since we got married he had been quiet
and nonresponsive. I thought maybe he was having second thoughts. After
all he did get married to me, to save me from Dilandau. I don't know
why i asked him for a life long spiritual connection though. I think
that if we pretended to be married that way, Dilandau would have
believed it. So why did i do it? Why did i ask Miguel to be bound to
me forever? I was unfair, i should have not let him to do it. I can't
change anything now. What's done is done. I think i will go for a walk.
It must be past midnight on earth right now. I still never want to
go back there. I do like it here, but what am i going to do with the
rest of my life. That is if i don't die here first. I have not really
thought about it. I kept thinking short term. What my obsession was at
the time. Will Miguel want to part of it? What am i thinking? Of course
he would not want to be stuck with my head case self forever. The stars
sure are beautiful......
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Miguel's thoughts
-------------------
What is my problem? She was trying to make me feel better back
there. It took everything i had inside me to refrain from holding her
and taking her into my arms. I just couldn't talk to her. I don't want
to be mean but i just can't get any real words out. What am i supposed
to say. Hey i love you and i know you don't love me but lets live happy
together never touching and being friends. I know i can't live like
that for much longer. I am going to explode. I am going to go and
apologize to her right now. I have to try to make this work until she
is at least safe.
He walked to her room and knocked. No answer. Maybe she is asleep.
He opened the door and she wasn't in there. Her bags were unpacked but
no sign of her. He panicked. I have to find her. What if Dilandau took
her? What if she wanted to go? Oh Gods please let her be ok. He ran
out of the Inn searching like a maniac who lost his mind. No sign of
her. He was stressed and worried.
Atrea was walking along a small river I love the way the
moonlight reflects on the water. It is like a billion stars shining.
Quiet and peaceful. I am so confused. Confused and scared. What is it
that i really feel? Did i feel this way all along? I can't do that to
him. What if i don't feel anything but rebound or lonliness? I could
not do that to him. I should stay away from him, so he does not become
involved in my failures.
Miguel spots her after 20 minutes of looking He runs up to her.
By the look on her face he surprised the hell out of her. He threw he
arms around her and hugged her tightly. " Are you ok, i was worried "
he said still not letting her go. " i was just taking a walk " she said
very confused. " I saw you were not in your room and i panicked " he
said still not letting her go. " ok, you found me. Are you gonna let
me go?" she asked smiling. " oh um ya. Sorry " he said blushing and
stepping away. " no it is ok. It is my fault. I should have told you
that i went for a walk " she said apologetic. " Well i see your ok, so
i need to go now " he said and started to walk away. " No wait " she
yelled out. " Really, i can't stay. i have to ummmm unpack " he said
and started walking again.
I grabbed his arm. I was not going to let whatever just happened
go. I mean he came here like a tornado, then is leaving as fast. Oh no
he doesn't. I am going to get him to open up to me if it is the last
thing i do tonight. He resisted and tried to run away. " please let me
go back to the room " he said quietly. " No i won't! We've got to talk
sometime it might as well be now " i said softly. " I can't " he said
and tried to get free again. " Did i make you mad " i asked feeling
really sad. I thought i was going to cry. I could not take it if he was
mad at me. After everything i put him through. " If you don't let me
go back to the room now, i cannot be responsible for my actions " he
said turning around and looking into my eyes. " I can't let you go just
yet " i said. I was afraid that he was sick of me that he was going to
leave for good. I was really scared. I have never seen him like this.
He wanted to get away from me as fast as possible. I felt my heart sink
into the ground. I was more scared of losing him and him hating me that
death with feel better. " please Trea " ( Nickname he gave her on the
floating fortress ) he said standing there pleading. The look in his
eyes. He was begging me to let him go. " What if i can't let you go?"
i asked him not exactly sure where those words were coming from. " you
have to trea, we can't go on like this " he said resolved. I knew what
he was saying but i didn't know at the same time. My eyes were stinging
tears began falling. I felt a pain in my chest. At that moment i did
not want to let him go. These new feelings now emerging from somewhere.
I let go of his arm. He looked at me and started walking. I lost
control. I started really crying. My vision blurry. I turned away from
where i was standing and started walking back toward the river. I
kneeled down, getting my pants wet. I hung my head and let the silent
tears flow into the water. My heart was breaking and i didn't know why.
I felt as though he walked away just then, forever. That i would never
see him again. I layed down next to the river and cried. I didn't hear
the footsteps behind me. I was lost and in pain. I didn't know why. I
have never felt like this before. Even when i was without Dilandau, i
felt like i couldn't live. But i never felt such pain in my body like
this. I felt a hand on my shoulder. The hand touched my cheek. The
person knelt down and now had their hands in my hair. I looked up and
Miguel was there. I reached up with both my hands and he helped me up
to a sitting postion. I hugged him like it was our last day on earth.
We didn't speak. I let go and sat there a couple of inches from his
face. I had such a longing for him at this moment. A couple hours ago,
i didn't feel it this intense. The thought of losing him forever pushed
my feelings to the surface. I wanted him in my life. I wanted him as my
husband. I wanted him period. He touched my face. Then he touched my
lips with his fingers. Then he came close to my face, looking into my
eyes. Into my soul. I lost control. I kissed him. I could not help
myself. It is not like he stopped me. He was kissing me back. I wanted
this moment to last forever. It did for a few minutes anyway. Then we
stood up. As if some soft music was playing. We looked at each other
and starting walking. He grabbed my hand and we starting running back
to the inn. He opened the door to my room and we began kissing again.
We moved onto the bed and made love until well past dawn.
We lay there looking at each other. It was as if we didn't need to
talk anymore, we were so in tune with each other. I was content in
being in his arms.
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Fanelia
-------------------
hitomi wakes up in a sweat, Van still sleeping Oh i get it now.
I saw it. Atrea and Miguel. I felt her heartache in my dream. I saw it
all. My visions are clear now. The purpose of the war. How it all
started and how it will end. It began with her, before the great war.
She was there. When she left it started. Then she came back, and it all
changed. Now another war is here. If she stays, this time. She will end
this war, and bring peace to Gaea forever.
But she is unaware of all of it. Unaware of the effect she has on
people. Unaware of a special power that is brewing inside her. I have
to wake Van, We need to find her now. Before it is too late.
" Van, wake up now! We have to talk. I had a vision......."
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Zaibach
-------------------
Plan B. I have it now. Ispano will not attck Zaibach directly. They
will most likely try to take out my allies first. If i destroy Fanelia
before they attack Austuria, then all my problems will be solved. No
more Van. No more Fanelia. No more war. Then i can pursue more
important matters. Atrea.
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Fanelia
-------------------
" Ok Hitomi, i see what your saying, so how will she bring Gaea
peace? " Van inquired. " I am not sure yet Van, but i know that we have
to go now. We have to find her and make her see why she is really here.
If we don't and she does nothing, then there will be a lot of
bloodshed " Hitomi stated. " What if we find her and she still does
nothing. Or what if we find her and it makes everything worse?" Van
asked bluntly. " I am sure that if we find her, we can explain it to
her. She will help. She has too " Hitomi said. " So when do we leave?"
Van said smiling. " Right now, we have no time to lose " Hitomi said
getting up and dressed. " How will we know where to look for her?" Van
said getting up himself. " They are heading east " Hitomi said. " East?
Isn't that toward the mystic valley?" Van said pondering. " I guess it
is Van, maybe she is being guided somehow " Hitomi stated. " Well let's
go. My cousin Samuel will take care of Fanelia in our absense. Should
Zaibach attack, he is the best man for the job " Van said as he
followed Hitomi out of the room.
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don't sue.:0) I want to thank everyone who likes my story so far. I
hope you'll continue to read. Sorry about the whole paragragh thing. I
swear they were there when i submitted the story.:0)
-------------------
Chapter 7: Intense Emotions
-------------------
-Beginnings are scary. Endings are usually sad.
It's the middle that counts the most-
- Hope Floats -
-------------------
Dilandau
-------------------
Dilandau has heard about the war and raced back to Zaibach He was
angry that he left for a little vacation and everything fell apart. If
it was a war Ispano wanted, a war they would get. He met with his 4
generals to discuss plans. Now all he could do was wait. And think of
other plans on his own.
Allen is out of the way. Now for Van and his new little wife. I am
sure Fanelia will side with Ispano against me. That means that Austuria
would be against them. With Freid being nuetral..... There really is no
threat at all. This war will end as quickly as it has started. I am
sure Ispano will make a move soon... I will be ready with a plan B.
-------------------
Fanelia
-------------------
Hitomi and Van are lying together in a bed. " Van, what are you
going to do about the oncoming war?" she asked him. " I am not sure
yet. If we side with Ispano then Austuria will be our enemies. If we
side with Austuria then Zaibach would be our allies. I need to figure
this out. Right now it seems like a no win situation " he said sadly.
" What about Atrea? I know i keep asking about her. I just feel
something in my gut about her. She is here on Gaea for a purpose. I
may not believe in pre-determined destiny anymore, but she is not here
at random " she said thinking aloud. " I wonder if she knows why she
is here? " Van asked looking over at her. " Probably not, i sense she
is lost. I am starting to see my visions again. Most of the time they
are fuzzy, but the images are getting a little clearer. The more time i
spend here, the clearer it gets " she said. " That's wonderful Hitomi "
he stated excited. " Ya, maybe i will be able to see the purpose that
drives this war " she stated. They kissed and went back to their
honeymoon.
------------------
The Mountains
------------------
" What's this place called Miguel ?" i asked him admiring the
beauty. " Kodeso. There are villages in these valleys " he stated not
really emotional. " Are we going to stay in that one " i pointed to
a lush green valley with a small town. " This is fine, we can stay
here " he said monotone.
We came upon this village called levarios. We both checked into
a small inn, in the farthest part of levorios. He got his own room. I
got a separate room. He walked away from me without saying a word. In
his room he went and closed it. I just stood there confused. I suppose
if i was not so caught in my feelings and issues i would have really
noticed the change in him. Ever since we got married he had been quiet
and nonresponsive. I thought maybe he was having second thoughts. After
all he did get married to me, to save me from Dilandau. I don't know
why i asked him for a life long spiritual connection though. I think
that if we pretended to be married that way, Dilandau would have
believed it. So why did i do it? Why did i ask Miguel to be bound to
me forever? I was unfair, i should have not let him to do it. I can't
change anything now. What's done is done. I think i will go for a walk.
It must be past midnight on earth right now. I still never want to
go back there. I do like it here, but what am i going to do with the
rest of my life. That is if i don't die here first. I have not really
thought about it. I kept thinking short term. What my obsession was at
the time. Will Miguel want to part of it? What am i thinking? Of course
he would not want to be stuck with my head case self forever. The stars
sure are beautiful......
-------------------
Miguel's thoughts
-------------------
What is my problem? She was trying to make me feel better back
there. It took everything i had inside me to refrain from holding her
and taking her into my arms. I just couldn't talk to her. I don't want
to be mean but i just can't get any real words out. What am i supposed
to say. Hey i love you and i know you don't love me but lets live happy
together never touching and being friends. I know i can't live like
that for much longer. I am going to explode. I am going to go and
apologize to her right now. I have to try to make this work until she
is at least safe.
He walked to her room and knocked. No answer. Maybe she is asleep.
He opened the door and she wasn't in there. Her bags were unpacked but
no sign of her. He panicked. I have to find her. What if Dilandau took
her? What if she wanted to go? Oh Gods please let her be ok. He ran
out of the Inn searching like a maniac who lost his mind. No sign of
her. He was stressed and worried.
Atrea was walking along a small river I love the way the
moonlight reflects on the water. It is like a billion stars shining.
Quiet and peaceful. I am so confused. Confused and scared. What is it
that i really feel? Did i feel this way all along? I can't do that to
him. What if i don't feel anything but rebound or lonliness? I could
not do that to him. I should stay away from him, so he does not become
involved in my failures.
Miguel spots her after 20 minutes of looking He runs up to her.
By the look on her face he surprised the hell out of her. He threw he
arms around her and hugged her tightly. " Are you ok, i was worried "
he said still not letting her go. " i was just taking a walk " she said
very confused. " I saw you were not in your room and i panicked " he
said still not letting her go. " ok, you found me. Are you gonna let
me go?" she asked smiling. " oh um ya. Sorry " he said blushing and
stepping away. " no it is ok. It is my fault. I should have told you
that i went for a walk " she said apologetic. " Well i see your ok, so
i need to go now " he said and started to walk away. " No wait " she
yelled out. " Really, i can't stay. i have to ummmm unpack " he said
and started walking again.
I grabbed his arm. I was not going to let whatever just happened
go. I mean he came here like a tornado, then is leaving as fast. Oh no
he doesn't. I am going to get him to open up to me if it is the last
thing i do tonight. He resisted and tried to run away. " please let me
go back to the room " he said quietly. " No i won't! We've got to talk
sometime it might as well be now " i said softly. " I can't " he said
and tried to get free again. " Did i make you mad " i asked feeling
really sad. I thought i was going to cry. I could not take it if he was
mad at me. After everything i put him through. " If you don't let me
go back to the room now, i cannot be responsible for my actions " he
said turning around and looking into my eyes. " I can't let you go just
yet " i said. I was afraid that he was sick of me that he was going to
leave for good. I was really scared. I have never seen him like this.
He wanted to get away from me as fast as possible. I felt my heart sink
into the ground. I was more scared of losing him and him hating me that
death with feel better. " please Trea " ( Nickname he gave her on the
floating fortress ) he said standing there pleading. The look in his
eyes. He was begging me to let him go. " What if i can't let you go?"
i asked him not exactly sure where those words were coming from. " you
have to trea, we can't go on like this " he said resolved. I knew what
he was saying but i didn't know at the same time. My eyes were stinging
tears began falling. I felt a pain in my chest. At that moment i did
not want to let him go. These new feelings now emerging from somewhere.
I let go of his arm. He looked at me and started walking. I lost
control. I started really crying. My vision blurry. I turned away from
where i was standing and started walking back toward the river. I
kneeled down, getting my pants wet. I hung my head and let the silent
tears flow into the water. My heart was breaking and i didn't know why.
I felt as though he walked away just then, forever. That i would never
see him again. I layed down next to the river and cried. I didn't hear
the footsteps behind me. I was lost and in pain. I didn't know why. I
have never felt like this before. Even when i was without Dilandau, i
felt like i couldn't live. But i never felt such pain in my body like
this. I felt a hand on my shoulder. The hand touched my cheek. The
person knelt down and now had their hands in my hair. I looked up and
Miguel was there. I reached up with both my hands and he helped me up
to a sitting postion. I hugged him like it was our last day on earth.
We didn't speak. I let go and sat there a couple of inches from his
face. I had such a longing for him at this moment. A couple hours ago,
i didn't feel it this intense. The thought of losing him forever pushed
my feelings to the surface. I wanted him in my life. I wanted him as my
husband. I wanted him period. He touched my face. Then he touched my
lips with his fingers. Then he came close to my face, looking into my
eyes. Into my soul. I lost control. I kissed him. I could not help
myself. It is not like he stopped me. He was kissing me back. I wanted
this moment to last forever. It did for a few minutes anyway. Then we
stood up. As if some soft music was playing. We looked at each other
and starting walking. He grabbed my hand and we starting running back
to the inn. He opened the door to my room and we began kissing again.
We moved onto the bed and made love until well past dawn.
We lay there looking at each other. It was as if we didn't need to
talk anymore, we were so in tune with each other. I was content in
being in his arms.
-------------------
Fanelia
-------------------
hitomi wakes up in a sweat, Van still sleeping Oh i get it now.
I saw it. Atrea and Miguel. I felt her heartache in my dream. I saw it
all. My visions are clear now. The purpose of the war. How it all
started and how it will end. It began with her, before the great war.
She was there. When she left it started. Then she came back, and it all
changed. Now another war is here. If she stays, this time. She will end
this war, and bring peace to Gaea forever.
But she is unaware of all of it. Unaware of the effect she has on
people. Unaware of a special power that is brewing inside her. I have
to wake Van, We need to find her now. Before it is too late.
" Van, wake up now! We have to talk. I had a vision......."
-------------------
Zaibach
-------------------
Plan B. I have it now. Ispano will not attck Zaibach directly. They
will most likely try to take out my allies first. If i destroy Fanelia
before they attack Austuria, then all my problems will be solved. No
more Van. No more Fanelia. No more war. Then i can pursue more
important matters. Atrea.
-------------------
Fanelia
-------------------
" Ok Hitomi, i see what your saying, so how will she bring Gaea
peace? " Van inquired. " I am not sure yet Van, but i know that we have
to go now. We have to find her and make her see why she is really here.
If we don't and she does nothing, then there will be a lot of
bloodshed " Hitomi stated. " What if we find her and she still does
nothing. Or what if we find her and it makes everything worse?" Van
asked bluntly. " I am sure that if we find her, we can explain it to
her. She will help. She has too " Hitomi said. " So when do we leave?"
Van said smiling. " Right now, we have no time to lose " Hitomi said
getting up and dressed. " How will we know where to look for her?" Van
said getting up himself. " They are heading east " Hitomi said. " East?
Isn't that toward the mystic valley?" Van said pondering. " I guess it
is Van, maybe she is being guided somehow " Hitomi stated. " Well let's
go. My cousin Samuel will take care of Fanelia in our absense. Should
Zaibach attack, he is the best man for the job " Van said as he
followed Hitomi out of the room.
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