DiaClaimer: I do not own Escaflowne or any of the people in it. Please
don't sue.:0)
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Chapter 11: Circles
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- If you want to get your soul to heaven. Trust in me, don't you
judge or question. You are broken, now what faith can't heal you. Just
do everything i tell you to do. Jesus Christ why don't you come save my
life now. Open my eyes, light me with your life now. -
- Tool, Opiate -
Zaibach late
-------------------
Atrea sat on the only chair in the room. She was wearing some of
her old clothes. The clothes she left in Zaibach when she was forced
to go to Fanelia the first time. She was a little surprised that he
kept them. It was late at night and she could not sleep. She was really
scared of old feelings coming back.
Dilandau walked in at the same moment. " What do you want now ?"
i said trying to sound annoyed. " I want to talk about what you have
been up to, since the last time we saw each other ?" he said sincere.
" what's the point ?" i stated under my breath. " Humor me " he said
smiling. " No " i yelled at him. I then turned around and faced the
window.I was not going to listen.Not to him or the nagging voices in my
head. He did not say anything. Several minutes passed by. If i hadn't
heard him get up from the chair, i would have thought he left. Instead
he came up behind me. He was touched my exposed back, tracing circles
on my tattoo. I could feel the hairs on my back raise. I got away from
him as fast as i could. I walked to the other side of the room. He
followed me. He touched my face and my arm. Very lightly stroking both
places. I again walked away from him. " You won't get away with this! "
i stated to him. I tried to stay one step ahead of him. The longer the
time passed, the harder it was to keep a clear head. I knew that. I
suspect he did too. He said nothing. That look in his eye pretty much
stated his intent. After all this time, he was still in love with me.He
cornered me and met my eyes with his. Lightly touching my skin and
face. He had not crossed the line. It was as though he was toying with
me. Trying to bait me. I loved all forms of challenges and he knew
that. He was trying to get me to break down and play his game. I just
closed my eyes and thought about Miguel. The thoughts faded quickly.
He pressed his lips softly on my cheek. Brushed them against my lips.
Pressed his body against mine and then he left. I heard the door close
behind him. If anything, he was a patient man when it came to getting
what he wanted.
The next morning he did not come into my room. A handmaid brought
me fresh towels and some food. I was surprised he did not bring the
items himself. Then again i can't predict anything he does anymore. I
waited all day for him to come back and try to bait me some more. He
didn't. Then night came, no sign of him. I layed down on the bed fully
intending to go to sleep. For a long time i tossed and turned, or so i
thought, to get to sleep. I was in fact sleeping i just didn't know it.
In my dream i was still in the room, which was brightly lit by a
blue color. There were swirls of white colors in the air. I sat up and
raised my fingers the swirls stopped. Everything stopped. When i put
my fingers down the white swirls continued, and everything else was
unfrozen. It was weird, but i think the blue color meant some kind of
freezing power. I tested the theory a few more times and sure enough i
proved right. I had the power to stop the swirls. I wonder if in the
real world i could do it too.
Dilandau was sitting over me when i woke up. " What time is it " i
asked half asleep? " Not sure " he replied. " How long have you been
here ?" i asked. " About an hour " he said. I layed back down and tired
to go back to sleep. I closed my eyes and pretended instead. There was
no way i could fall asleep with HIM watching me. I did end up falling
asleep eventually. I remember dreaming. It was about the beginning.
The beginning of my life on Gaea. I was sitting in my room on the
floating fortress and Miguel was telling me a story. The only weird
part was, he was telling me the end of the story over and over again.
The same ending. I sat up in my dream, he smiled and kept repeating the
same words over and over like a time loop. The floating fortress
changed somehow. It became a torture chamber. Miguel was still there,
but he kept repeating a different phrase over and over. I had no idea
what language it was, but it did not sound like happy words. Then many
men appeared in the room and they began chanting those words. I tried
to push my way out of the chamber but the ghost like people held me
back. I woke up with a scream caught in my thought. I did not see that
Dilandau was still there. I could feel beads of sweat on my face. I
got up and washed my face. I was still getting used to the idea that it
was only a nightmare not real life. I sat down on the floor and closed
my eyes. I said "oh god" in a whisper. Dilandau got up from the chair,
i only realized he was still there, when he picked me up and set me
down on my bed. I looked at him. He looked at me and held my hand. I
tried to snatch it away but couldn't. In that moment we were in tune.
Eventually i did let go of his hand. He pulled hte blanket up to my
neck and tucked me in. He sat back down on the chair which was now in
shadows and said " I noticed the scar on your hand. At first i did not
believe you when you said you married Miguel through blood pact. I
guess you can't see it, can you? I replied " See what? ". He said in a
calm voice " You cannot see that the love you feel for Miguel is not
real. When you are with him you feel that love and peace and no other
man can touch that. But when you are away.... Each day you love him
less and less. I was right all along. You are still in love with me but
are clouded by the blood that runs in your veins. I can say with most
certainty that in 2 months time, you will no longer feel that love for
him ". He was silent after that phrase. I secretly wondered if he was
right. The priest's words echoed in my head " Each couple is different,
no one can tell what the effects will be ". I wanted to believe that
Dilandau was wrong. I was confused. I sat up and proposed a challenge
for myself. " Kiss me now. Like i was the only woman for you. If i feel
nothing then you are wrong about my love for Miguel. If i feel
something, then i will make love to you right now. Marriage or not " i
stated confident that i would win.
He got up and sat down on the bed. He took his right hand and put
his fingers gently on the back on my neck. Then he leaned in and
brushed his lips on mine. He was teasing me. He finally put his tongue
in my mouth and he was kissing me as though it was his dream. I felt
a lot of things explode inside of me. I wanted to scream and cry. This
was not normal behavior. I would be that same girl again. I could not
be her nor could i hurt Miguel. He pulled back and said " Well?" I said
" Well what? I felt nothing " he started to grin really big. He leaned
in again and whispered in my ear " Liar ". That was it, i knew he had
me pegged but i would not give into temptation. He left the room and i
layed there trying to sleep.
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Ispano army
-----------------
meanwhile Ispano's army had other ideas. They were already in
Zaibach. They snuck in and launched an attack in stealth mode. They
knew they could not defeat Dilandau in an outright attack, so they were
taking out his men one by one until the perimeter was breached.
It much have been about 4am or so, i never heard the attack coming.
I was locked in this room alone and there was fighting outside. I
quickly got up and got dressed. I looked out my window and saw that
Ispano had used a sneak attack. Van and Hitomi were no where to be
seen. I figured they had no idea either, otherwise Van would have
shown himself. I had no weapon or means to escape. I heard more sword
fighting in the hallway outside mine. Someone broke down the door, i
turned around and saw who it was. King Ispano. By the look on his face
he knew who i was.... The girl who killed his daughter. He came at me
with his sword out. The look in his eye said it all. He meant to kill
me. I had not fought in a long time. I was not rusty at all. In fact i
felt like i was at the top of my game. We exchanged a few bad words.
I kicked his leg, causing him to fall hard. he quickly rebounded. We
were circling each other. I wanted him to die badly. I felt blood lust
again. I ached in my soul, to kill him and solve my current problem.
The girl i never wated to see again is back. A trained killer. He came
at me again. I was ready for him, i countered his move by sweeping his
leg and grabbing his dagger out of his belt. He never had a chance. I
killed him in one swift move. He had no time to think. His last words
were " You will pay for killing my country YOU BITCH " I snicked and
said " Not likely seeing as how i killed you without a second thought.
Make no mistake dear King i have a rage inside of me like no other, and
your family killed my dreams. Now that i have killed your family, i can
take back my life ". I don't know if he heard all of that. I didn't
care. I wanted to get as far away from Zaibach as possible. Not because
of Dilandau or the fighting, Not because of Miguel. But because i could
not stay here anymore. In this night, i changed the course of Gaea's
history once more. If i had never come to this planet all this blood
would not be on my hands. The pain i caused was great. And i broke
Miguel's heart he just didn't know it yet. Dilandau was right all
along. Better to think i am dead then to cause more trouble for this
world. No one will think i am alive, therefore no one will look for me.
I left my room and the dead body. I felt the urge to burn it. The
castle was buring anyway so no one would notice if this room was too.
They would think that the charred body is me. I was seeing red all
around. I took my hands up and placed them on wall outside the room and
in my mind i pictures it buring. Fire came out of my hands and spread
quickly. It seems i do have other abilities afterall. I did not feel
heat at all. I would have to explore this another time. i need to leave
without anyone suspecting. I crept throught the hallways and down to
the stables. I borrowed a horse and rode away very fast not looking
back. To the damage my presense caused............
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The next morning
-------------------
Van and Hitomi " Hitomi..... I have some news " Van said in a
low tone. " News about Atrea? " she inquired. " Yes and No. Last night
Ispano invaded Zaibach. Both sides took heavy casualties. Dilandau is
alive, King Ispano is missing and Atrea is believed to be dead " he
stated in one breath. " Does Miguel know?" she asked with tears in her
eyes. " Ya, he knows. He left after he heard the news. I think he is
going into priesthood. He couldn't take it the news well so he decided
rather than killing himself he would give back to the people what was
taken from him " he said sadly. " Oh god " was all she said.
Dilandau's thoughts He was looking in what remained of her room.
The body was taken away already, so there was only charred furniture
left. He started to whisper as he looked around the room. " Atrea, nice
try....... I know your not dead. I can feel it in my heart. You ran
away again so you wouldn't have to face the truth. You didn't want to
hurt Miguel and you thought it was all your fault. I will find you! And
you will face the truth. About everything.... I love you and you love
me. You can never escape that...... I am coming......
don't sue.:0)
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Chapter 11: Circles
-------------------
- If you want to get your soul to heaven. Trust in me, don't you
judge or question. You are broken, now what faith can't heal you. Just
do everything i tell you to do. Jesus Christ why don't you come save my
life now. Open my eyes, light me with your life now. -
- Tool, Opiate -
Zaibach late
-------------------
Atrea sat on the only chair in the room. She was wearing some of
her old clothes. The clothes she left in Zaibach when she was forced
to go to Fanelia the first time. She was a little surprised that he
kept them. It was late at night and she could not sleep. She was really
scared of old feelings coming back.
Dilandau walked in at the same moment. " What do you want now ?"
i said trying to sound annoyed. " I want to talk about what you have
been up to, since the last time we saw each other ?" he said sincere.
" what's the point ?" i stated under my breath. " Humor me " he said
smiling. " No " i yelled at him. I then turned around and faced the
window.I was not going to listen.Not to him or the nagging voices in my
head. He did not say anything. Several minutes passed by. If i hadn't
heard him get up from the chair, i would have thought he left. Instead
he came up behind me. He was touched my exposed back, tracing circles
on my tattoo. I could feel the hairs on my back raise. I got away from
him as fast as i could. I walked to the other side of the room. He
followed me. He touched my face and my arm. Very lightly stroking both
places. I again walked away from him. " You won't get away with this! "
i stated to him. I tried to stay one step ahead of him. The longer the
time passed, the harder it was to keep a clear head. I knew that. I
suspect he did too. He said nothing. That look in his eye pretty much
stated his intent. After all this time, he was still in love with me.He
cornered me and met my eyes with his. Lightly touching my skin and
face. He had not crossed the line. It was as though he was toying with
me. Trying to bait me. I loved all forms of challenges and he knew
that. He was trying to get me to break down and play his game. I just
closed my eyes and thought about Miguel. The thoughts faded quickly.
He pressed his lips softly on my cheek. Brushed them against my lips.
Pressed his body against mine and then he left. I heard the door close
behind him. If anything, he was a patient man when it came to getting
what he wanted.
The next morning he did not come into my room. A handmaid brought
me fresh towels and some food. I was surprised he did not bring the
items himself. Then again i can't predict anything he does anymore. I
waited all day for him to come back and try to bait me some more. He
didn't. Then night came, no sign of him. I layed down on the bed fully
intending to go to sleep. For a long time i tossed and turned, or so i
thought, to get to sleep. I was in fact sleeping i just didn't know it.
In my dream i was still in the room, which was brightly lit by a
blue color. There were swirls of white colors in the air. I sat up and
raised my fingers the swirls stopped. Everything stopped. When i put
my fingers down the white swirls continued, and everything else was
unfrozen. It was weird, but i think the blue color meant some kind of
freezing power. I tested the theory a few more times and sure enough i
proved right. I had the power to stop the swirls. I wonder if in the
real world i could do it too.
Dilandau was sitting over me when i woke up. " What time is it " i
asked half asleep? " Not sure " he replied. " How long have you been
here ?" i asked. " About an hour " he said. I layed back down and tired
to go back to sleep. I closed my eyes and pretended instead. There was
no way i could fall asleep with HIM watching me. I did end up falling
asleep eventually. I remember dreaming. It was about the beginning.
The beginning of my life on Gaea. I was sitting in my room on the
floating fortress and Miguel was telling me a story. The only weird
part was, he was telling me the end of the story over and over again.
The same ending. I sat up in my dream, he smiled and kept repeating the
same words over and over like a time loop. The floating fortress
changed somehow. It became a torture chamber. Miguel was still there,
but he kept repeating a different phrase over and over. I had no idea
what language it was, but it did not sound like happy words. Then many
men appeared in the room and they began chanting those words. I tried
to push my way out of the chamber but the ghost like people held me
back. I woke up with a scream caught in my thought. I did not see that
Dilandau was still there. I could feel beads of sweat on my face. I
got up and washed my face. I was still getting used to the idea that it
was only a nightmare not real life. I sat down on the floor and closed
my eyes. I said "oh god" in a whisper. Dilandau got up from the chair,
i only realized he was still there, when he picked me up and set me
down on my bed. I looked at him. He looked at me and held my hand. I
tried to snatch it away but couldn't. In that moment we were in tune.
Eventually i did let go of his hand. He pulled hte blanket up to my
neck and tucked me in. He sat back down on the chair which was now in
shadows and said " I noticed the scar on your hand. At first i did not
believe you when you said you married Miguel through blood pact. I
guess you can't see it, can you? I replied " See what? ". He said in a
calm voice " You cannot see that the love you feel for Miguel is not
real. When you are with him you feel that love and peace and no other
man can touch that. But when you are away.... Each day you love him
less and less. I was right all along. You are still in love with me but
are clouded by the blood that runs in your veins. I can say with most
certainty that in 2 months time, you will no longer feel that love for
him ". He was silent after that phrase. I secretly wondered if he was
right. The priest's words echoed in my head " Each couple is different,
no one can tell what the effects will be ". I wanted to believe that
Dilandau was wrong. I was confused. I sat up and proposed a challenge
for myself. " Kiss me now. Like i was the only woman for you. If i feel
nothing then you are wrong about my love for Miguel. If i feel
something, then i will make love to you right now. Marriage or not " i
stated confident that i would win.
He got up and sat down on the bed. He took his right hand and put
his fingers gently on the back on my neck. Then he leaned in and
brushed his lips on mine. He was teasing me. He finally put his tongue
in my mouth and he was kissing me as though it was his dream. I felt
a lot of things explode inside of me. I wanted to scream and cry. This
was not normal behavior. I would be that same girl again. I could not
be her nor could i hurt Miguel. He pulled back and said " Well?" I said
" Well what? I felt nothing " he started to grin really big. He leaned
in again and whispered in my ear " Liar ". That was it, i knew he had
me pegged but i would not give into temptation. He left the room and i
layed there trying to sleep.
-----------------
Ispano army
-----------------
meanwhile Ispano's army had other ideas. They were already in
Zaibach. They snuck in and launched an attack in stealth mode. They
knew they could not defeat Dilandau in an outright attack, so they were
taking out his men one by one until the perimeter was breached.
It much have been about 4am or so, i never heard the attack coming.
I was locked in this room alone and there was fighting outside. I
quickly got up and got dressed. I looked out my window and saw that
Ispano had used a sneak attack. Van and Hitomi were no where to be
seen. I figured they had no idea either, otherwise Van would have
shown himself. I had no weapon or means to escape. I heard more sword
fighting in the hallway outside mine. Someone broke down the door, i
turned around and saw who it was. King Ispano. By the look on his face
he knew who i was.... The girl who killed his daughter. He came at me
with his sword out. The look in his eye said it all. He meant to kill
me. I had not fought in a long time. I was not rusty at all. In fact i
felt like i was at the top of my game. We exchanged a few bad words.
I kicked his leg, causing him to fall hard. he quickly rebounded. We
were circling each other. I wanted him to die badly. I felt blood lust
again. I ached in my soul, to kill him and solve my current problem.
The girl i never wated to see again is back. A trained killer. He came
at me again. I was ready for him, i countered his move by sweeping his
leg and grabbing his dagger out of his belt. He never had a chance. I
killed him in one swift move. He had no time to think. His last words
were " You will pay for killing my country YOU BITCH " I snicked and
said " Not likely seeing as how i killed you without a second thought.
Make no mistake dear King i have a rage inside of me like no other, and
your family killed my dreams. Now that i have killed your family, i can
take back my life ". I don't know if he heard all of that. I didn't
care. I wanted to get as far away from Zaibach as possible. Not because
of Dilandau or the fighting, Not because of Miguel. But because i could
not stay here anymore. In this night, i changed the course of Gaea's
history once more. If i had never come to this planet all this blood
would not be on my hands. The pain i caused was great. And i broke
Miguel's heart he just didn't know it yet. Dilandau was right all
along. Better to think i am dead then to cause more trouble for this
world. No one will think i am alive, therefore no one will look for me.
I left my room and the dead body. I felt the urge to burn it. The
castle was buring anyway so no one would notice if this room was too.
They would think that the charred body is me. I was seeing red all
around. I took my hands up and placed them on wall outside the room and
in my mind i pictures it buring. Fire came out of my hands and spread
quickly. It seems i do have other abilities afterall. I did not feel
heat at all. I would have to explore this another time. i need to leave
without anyone suspecting. I crept throught the hallways and down to
the stables. I borrowed a horse and rode away very fast not looking
back. To the damage my presense caused............
-------------------
The next morning
-------------------
Van and Hitomi " Hitomi..... I have some news " Van said in a
low tone. " News about Atrea? " she inquired. " Yes and No. Last night
Ispano invaded Zaibach. Both sides took heavy casualties. Dilandau is
alive, King Ispano is missing and Atrea is believed to be dead " he
stated in one breath. " Does Miguel know?" she asked with tears in her
eyes. " Ya, he knows. He left after he heard the news. I think he is
going into priesthood. He couldn't take it the news well so he decided
rather than killing himself he would give back to the people what was
taken from him " he said sadly. " Oh god " was all she said.
Dilandau's thoughts He was looking in what remained of her room.
The body was taken away already, so there was only charred furniture
left. He started to whisper as he looked around the room. " Atrea, nice
try....... I know your not dead. I can feel it in my heart. You ran
away again so you wouldn't have to face the truth. You didn't want to
hurt Miguel and you thought it was all your fault. I will find you! And
you will face the truth. About everything.... I love you and you love
me. You can never escape that...... I am coming......
