It was the afternoon, as Julia tried to hold in her tears and told William she would be back, as she grabbed her coat, headed out the door and took a walk. She was so upset and angry she didn't realize she stopped at her and William's spot in the park.

As she touched their tree with their initials carved into it, she fell onto her knees and sobbed, "why God why! Why are you punishing me like this? I had to deliver our friend's baby, now we find out William is a father to a boy. All it took was one time. ONE TIME! It took us months to get pregnant and we lost her." She leaned against the tree, as she took deep breaths, "is this my punishment, because of my abortion years ago and because I almost strained with Dr. Dixon?"

She continued crying as she searched her coat pockets for a hanky and found one, and it was a special one, that William had given her for their last anniversary and wipes her tears.

"Please God, I'll do anything…anything to give William a child. I learned from my mistake last year, and he forgave me, can't you? Please…I feel like I'm not living a life of my own"

She continued crying for awhile longer and headed home.

It was a year later, as she came back to their spot, but this time 7 months pregnant, as she smiled against the tree, "thank you, God." Is all she said as she caressed her belly, "I don't know how it happened…William and I are trying to figure out what we did differently, but we don't care as our miracle its on its way soon. But I did get fired from the hospital, but helping out a women's clinic now and been a loving and supporting wife to William and also have finally bonded with my stepson Harry."

As she leaned against the tree, and breathing in the fall air, she looked up to the sky, "William says he doesn't care if the baby is a boy or girl…but I hope it's a girl."

She decides to head home, before she says, "now I am living a life of my own. Thank you, again"