CHAPTER 3
~Kari~
The darkness....
All around me is darkness. I can't
see anything.
Tears fill my eyes.
That's the most frightening thing
I can imagine – being surrounded by darkness.
My crest is light.
Light and Darkness can't exist together.
When there is light, there can't
be darkness.
But here is the Darkness, and I am
the Light...
I bury my head in my arms.
I wish Tai would be here. He is always
so strong.
The others believe that I am strong,
but I am not.
It is only that I can't show my feelings
like Yolei.
Right now, I wish that I could jump
up like her, crying and panicking.
I don't know why, but yelling with
all your power can help.
But I can't yell, not now.
It is my personal fear. And I have
to find my own way to fight it.
But I am happy that Gatomon is here.
She is so strong.
She is my best friend.
I remember the day when I met her
the first time.
I wasn't a Digidestined at this point.
But my meeting with her changed my whole life.
I have made so many fantastic friends...
The darkness is killing me!
"Kari?", it's Gatomon. "Are you okay?"
I wipe my eyes and try to control
my trembling voice.
"Y-Yes, I'm okay, Gatomon, don't
worry."
She touches my knee. "You are trembling."
My answer is nearly a whisper. "It's
just that....it is so dark. You know how the darkness frightens me - it
brings back so many painful memories..."
"Kari, you don't have to cry.", another
voice interrupts our conversation. Yolei.
"Remember what Cass told me? They
will find us! I am sure that they will find us. You don't have to be frightened.
We all support you."
"That's right."
TK!
"We know that the darkness is your
biggest fear. And we all accept that. Don't forget that we are here for
you."
Their words make me smiling a little.
There fear hasn't gone away, but
I can live with it.
The darkness won't hurt me when
my friends are there.
But time is so long. And the air
becomes thicker and thicker.
What if they don't find us?
What if they don't know that we are
here?
Will we die of hunger of thirst?
Or will we die of fear?
Maybe someone panics and kills the
others....
It is so silly...When you have a
normal life – when you go to school or watch tv or talk with your friends
– then you don't think of the future.
But here, I have to think of it.
I have to think that maybe there
won't be any future for me...
So many things I wanted to do. My
wish was to become a kindergartener!
I am so sorry for Tai and my parents.
They are worried right now, I know that.
I can't stand the fact that someone
is worried and it is my fault.
Mom, Dad – you are so wonderful parents.
I am happy that you gave me such a great childhood. Really...I miss you
And Tai - my friends of say
that their big sisters or brothers are horrible to them, but you have never
acted like this.
I thank you for this.
Gatomon – what a luck that you are
with me. I feel a little bit ashamed because I think that this is luck
(I should wish that you are outside in safety), but you are my best friend
and it helps a lot that you are here.
And when I am supposed to die, I
wanna die with you.
It is strange, but you get used to
the darkness. It isn't as horrible as in the beginning.
Gatomon's body on my knees gives
me a warm feeling, and listening to the others who talk to their digimon
makes me feel easier.
The little conversations are pretty
senseless, but they give this frightening situation a touch of normal.
Yolei is talking with Cass – about
digimon.
Cass is really cool. She asks a lot
of questions, and Yolei, who is always very talkative, tells and tells
and tells...I think that helps her not to flip out again.
I wonder how Cass can stay this cool...I
mean, she must be as frightened as we are, and it is the first time she
sees some digimon. But she talks to us as if she would be in a shop or
somewhere else...
When she started singing, I thought
that she had got mad.
But then I realised that she did
that to make it easier for us. She wanted to took our minds off our worries.
I shouldn't forget to thank her when
we get out of here!
*
Pain is coming nearer and nearer....
I am trembling.
I don't want to go this way back.
I am frightened of that what I might see there.
Do I want to go back?
I don't know.
I don't want to feel the pain.
But when I go back, when I go
away from this beautiful river, the pain will come.
I feel that there is something
back there which makes it worth for me to be there...
Even when it hurts.
But what?
I forgot it.....
*
Ishida Residence:
The sound of his sons' guitar playing
goes through Mr.Ishida's mind.
It is the first peaceful day for
weeks. Work, too much work.
With only a half ear, he listens
to the News. The reporter is speaking from a bomb attack in the inner city.
"How stupid", he mumbles, nipping
his coffee, "Always bad News..." And he switches the TV off.
In this moment, the telephone is
ringing.
"Yeah, Ishida here."
While he listens to the voice of
his ex-wife, his face gets paler and paler. The peace has faded away. Finally,
he puts the phone down.
"My God!", are his only words, as
he watches the black TV screen in front of him.
The he jumps up and runs toward his
son's room.
"MATT!" The blond boy looks up.
"What? I told you not to come in
my room while I'm..."
His father interrupts him immediately:
"Matt, it is something with TK!"
A worried expression appears on Matt's
face. "What happened??"
Mr.Ishida takes a deep breath and
says slowly: "A bomb attack in the inner city...the whole building crashed."
"No...", whispers Matt.
"TK and his friends are buried under
this building."
Silence.
Then they both jump up, grab their
shoes and run to the car.
*
~Kari~
I feel worried. About Davis. What
if he won't make it?
I really like this guy. Of course,
he is loud and nerving, but he is a good friend. And he helps everyone.
In fact, I haven't met any other
person which such a big heart.
But maybe it is good for him that
he is unconscious. So doesn't have to feel the pain, and he doesn't have
to sit in the darkness.
Davis, please survive. We all need
you!
"OH NOOOOOOO!!!", the loud scream
makes my heart beating faster.
"What happened?", I ask worried,
hoping that maybe someone found us.
"I forgot something!!", it's Cass.
"What?"
"My saxophone!!! I let it somewhere
in this cellar because this evening is orchestra practise. I hope it isn't
damaged!"
"How can think of your saxophone
in this situation?? There are much more important things!" Yolei sounds
disbelieving.
"But it was very expensive!"
"I think our life is much more expensive
than a stupid instrument!"
"My saxophone isn't stupid!! Don't
forget that! And it costed over 1700 $!! I had to work hard for it!"
(a/n: I don't know what a saxophone costs in the USA; my saxophone was
3000,-DM, they are really expensive)
"My god, your parents will sure buy
a new one when you survive this!"
"But I wanna my old saxophone. There
are many memories with it!"
"Argh..."
I have to start giggling, then laughing.
With trembling voice – trembling of laughter – I say to them: "That's really
cool! We are in such a frightening situation and you start fighting over
banal things...that makes me feel much better, I don't know why."
There is silence for a moment, then
we all start giggling like mad. It is a nervous laughter, but it is a laughter.
For me it seems year than I laughed the last!
Maybe we aren't supposed to die....
*
Laughter?
Who is laughing?
What's so funny? I wanna laugh,
too.
It is pretty lonely here.
But I don't know which way
I shall take.
Shall I take the way back, where
I have to feel the pain?
Shall I go along the river, where
I don't know what's waiting for me?
Or Shall I stay here? But something
tells me that my time here is running away.
This isn't a place where you can
stay for all time!
If I only could see clearer...
END OF CHAPTER 3
Again pretty short....*sweatdrop*
But better short than boring...I
hope it isn't boring*biggest fear*
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Kaeera