I can't remember how this started. Maybe if I could I might be able to back down from this terrible commitment. Don't think it's because I'm scared, no that's not it at all. No, there's something else.
I can't stop thinking about it, his silence, yet it meant so much. Or it could mean so much. His unbreaking stare, his eyes....his eyes... They made me seem like nothing, nothing more than another to crush under his power. Yet I still fought him.
The world became nothing as we fought. My mind swirled with this strange emotion as we touched, but it was not of love nor passion but hate. Hate at the threat of defeat. Yet when I lay, darkness swarming my mind, defeated at his feet, hate was not the poison in my heart. The feeling was strong and consuming but it was not hate.
I know why I lost, but does he? Will he just consider me weak? Even this thought does not make me hate. What will become of my quest to see him lie at my feet, unable to think or breath for the choking emotion that will consume him?
I chose my course in life that day I challenged him, and now I must follow that course.
Yet the sound of his voice will never leave me.
This was not the place for me, and I know it too well.
Only he can decide the place for me,
as the master of my heart.
I can't stop thinking about it, his silence, yet it meant so much. Or it could mean so much. His unbreaking stare, his eyes....his eyes... They made me seem like nothing, nothing more than another to crush under his power. Yet I still fought him.
The world became nothing as we fought. My mind swirled with this strange emotion as we touched, but it was not of love nor passion but hate. Hate at the threat of defeat. Yet when I lay, darkness swarming my mind, defeated at his feet, hate was not the poison in my heart. The feeling was strong and consuming but it was not hate.
I know why I lost, but does he? Will he just consider me weak? Even this thought does not make me hate. What will become of my quest to see him lie at my feet, unable to think or breath for the choking emotion that will consume him?
I chose my course in life that day I challenged him, and now I must follow that course.
Yet the sound of his voice will never leave me.
This was not the place for me, and I know it too well.
Only he can decide the place for me,
as the master of my heart.
