The
splash of cold water surrounded her senses and the memories flew around her,
suffocating her.
"Gomen nasai Misao."
Misao
looked around to find her in that same clearing she had been standing with
Hannya before. The field was filled with wildflowers and birds and other little
animals running around freely. This place was the picture of serenity…this was
what Misao had been looking for.
"Doushite?
Why are you sorry?
"Because
Misao, we knew that you would have to live through all your pain once more
before you could decide anything." Another voice intercepted.
"Otousan!!"
Misao threw her arms around her father, who held his angel closer.
"Misao,
you must decide whether you want to continue to live, or just let your physical
body die. Once dead, your spirit will then search for your lost soul."
"Ojiisan!
Hannya, Hyotokotto, Beshimi, Shikijou… you're all here."
"Of
course Misao-chan, we love you very much, and now we are here to help you make a
choice." Beshimi replied gently.
"A
choice… a choice to live- or to die?"
"Hai,
Misao. A choice." Her mother whispered.
"I
will be happy again? I won't feel tormented anymore?"
"Iie.
Misao, the reason you have the option to choose… is because your heart has
already died from this grief, but something is also pulling you back to life.
Can't you feel it?"
Suddenly
Misao felt something awaken inside of her, it was calling her back, luring her
to choose life over death. "Hai, okaasan what is it?"
"I
cannot say, demo… Misao if you die, it will not guarantee your happiness."
"Nani?"
"If
you die, there is a chance you may not make it to heaven to be with us. When you
died, your soul had already been lost. Despite what you may have thought, your
heart never truly healed and your soul never fully returned. You will wonder
between the land of death and living until you have finished all your business
on earth…then and only then would you be allowed to come into heaven and find
peace."
"Minna,
what should I do?" Misao asked, her heart torn between her choices.
"We
cannot tell you Misao. It is your choice."
"But
how? I don't know what to do anymore. Onegai help me!"
"Follow
your heart Misao, what does it say?"
"My
heart just wants to forget… I just want to forget, onegai…it hurts so much,
let me forget."
"Then you will be granted
your wish."
"Okaasan?"
"Follow
the light Misao."
"Okaasan?!"
At the end of the dark path, she suddenly saw a bright light standing there,
waiting for her.
"Enter
the light Misao."
She
ran towards it, and flung herself into it without so much as a thought.
I want to forget...it hurts
so much..,
Owari ~*tbc*~
Author's
Notes: Let me explain some things. This chapter takes place before chapter 12 a
& b. They had not yet found her body in this chapter yet, this was while
Aoshi, Sano, and Kenshin were taking hours to find her. I don't know why I
just didn't put this before chapter 12 *shrugs* I guess I didn't feel like
it. I know what you're thinking. How could there be more to this thing? Well,
you just have to wait and see. Oh yea ^_^;; Send comments, onegai!
Deep Within
Chapter 12b|Chapter 14