This is a Yu Yu Hakusho fic. If you can't figure out who this is about,
you haven't been watching. *G* Kidding. It's Hiei and Yukina. This song is by Stabbing Westward (oh, a wonderful
band – particularly if you're in a mood)
I hope I didn't kill the thing... ^_~
C&C welcome, as always. ^_^ Please enjoy.
~Lady Karasu
'Spork no Miko'
Haunting Me
He perched on a concealed branch, shrouded in
darkness. Watching.
He had always preferred the shadows to the light. They
served his purpose well enough, letting him remain hidden while watching his prey. Or his ward.
He never let anyone get too close to him
but this one was held further than the rest. Because He shifted slightly with the wind, keeping the few
pale patches of moonlight from his form. I
would hurt her
[Everywhere I go I see your face
Every sound I hear is the sound of your voice
Why are you haunting me]
The object of his careful watch passed by the
window, stopping a moment to look out into the night.
He tensed as her gaze passed over where he hid.
Shrinking further back into the comforting shadows, he realized he had been holding
his breath.
[Why are you haunting me]
Its not as though he had to come here
to see her, she was always in his mind. Her
voice always in his ears. No, he didn't
need to come here for that but he did need to make sure she was safe. NO ONE would ever hurt her again.
He watched her peer out one last time, before
turning from the window.
He almost wished she hadn't
[Why can't I let you go?]
An aching pain settled in his chest. The longing was so strong it physically hurt. To hold her, tell her her search was over... His fist clenched as he pushed the thought away,
ignoring the pang in his chest. No, to
protect her from the shadows is enough. I
would taint her. I can't do that to one
so innocent
Briefly, a picture teased his minds eye. A caring family.
Acceptance. Love
He violently shook the thought away. Che'
Useless dreaming. He looked at his
right hand, covered in bandages. There was
fire in his veins, not ice. No, you can
never have that don't waste
you're time thinking about it.
[So everything about me is a lie
Or at least it seems that way
When I look into your eyes]
He thought back, to the first time he
met' her. It had been so hard to
lie then, and still was- but that seems to be all you can do with her. She doesn't even know the real you,
doesn't know that
[The truth scares the sh*t out of me]
The thought suddenly died as a memory overtook
him. Her eyes.
How sad her eyes are when they talked about her brother. She so wanted to find him. She had come all the way from home, through the
dangers and pain it cost her to get here; all for the search of her brother. And through all of this, he stood right before
her, hiding behind his mask of detachment.
Did she feel what he felt when he desperately
searched her out? Was she aching the way he
had, to find his blood, his lost family? The
person who may accept him without second thought?
He could stop it with a single word.
Sister...
[Whoever said love is blood and love is real
Has never felt the way I feel]
No. He
forced that thought away too. No,
she's not looking for you. She's
looking for a good man, not some murderer. Not
this freak of nature. The harsh thoughts
hurt, but he needed that to keep his distance. He
had to remain aloof, or it would all come crashing down.
At least now, she had an image to hold on to.
An ideal of what her brother was. Of
who he was.
If she knew it were really him, it would crush
her. Her precious image would be shattered
forever, leaving her with the painful knowledge that THIS was her family. That she was related to this poor excuse
[What does it matter
What's done is done and I should
Get on with my life]
He sighed.
Just let it go. Stop thinking about
it already, you've made you're decision.
[Why are you haunting me?]
He looked up to realize the lights had long
since burned down. How long had he been
locked in his thoughts? You're
useless. He berated himself. What if something had happened while you were
sitting here coddling yourself? You never would have reacted in time she could have
been hurt! He leaned further into the
tree as he forced his mind into one task. Watching.
[Well I don't know what it is
But I can't seem to make myself forget
was it something that you said
Or is it all the guilt inside my head]
After a few minutes, he found his thoughts
drifting back to their earlier cycle. Not
that she's not already hurting That
annoying little voice finally piped up. His
eyes narrowed, trying to will his mind to shut up. You
know why she came to this world You
remember how hard it is to make that trip, and she did it for YOU. He shook his head, beginning to wonder if he
had lost it. She doesn't want ME, she
wants ...came here looking
for my brother Her voice suddenly
rang through his mind. Do I know you? You seem familiar Those eyes, did she have any idea what they did to
him?
He closed his eyes tightly, trying to force the
image away; trying to stop the memories.
Suddenly he saw her smile. It was that smile that was only hers, the serenity
on her features reaching out to anyone who would let it touch them. He opened
his eyes with that image still firmly before him. The pang in his chest grew.
[Why are you haunting me?]
With the morning light, he was gone, but she
still weighted heavily on his mind.
~Owari~
Ok minna, I've started to wonder if I should take this out
of songfic mode, and just put the lyrics at the top... what do you think? Please
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