Disclaimer: Kaine and all related chara are properties of
Yuki Kaori et.al.
This fanfic is written by Silver Wind.


a Kaine fanfiction:
Equal
by Silver Wind
lain@suiko.net
Ginga - http://suiko.net/lain/ | log - http://sanzo.pitas.com/


I sit up on my bed abruptly. I feel sweats running down my
face and neck. That scary nightmare again... that hideous
creature pulling me down to its world, devouring me with
its claws and teeth...

I try to control my ragged breathing. But I couldn't suppress
this lump in my throat. Dammit! I begin to sob... Damn it all,
I hate this! I can only be calm when Die is with me. But it's
still midnight. Die wouldn't be here for the next few hours.
God, what happened to me? Shinogu, I wish you were here,
little brother. You would've made me smile with your genki
attitude.

You do know why I envy you, don't you, Shinogu? You seem so
peaceful with the world, with yourself... unlike me. Well, I
do have Die. He could make me sit back and be at ease.

Shinogu, do you want me to join you there? I suppose not.
You would kick me back right into the living world if I dare
to die now. And Die would drag me back too from the dead.

And Die... Die... the only person I love in this world,
well, beside you, Shinogu. Die... how I feel alive when I
sing his songs. He's the only one who can capture my essence
perfectly. Although he never shows it... he shines. He
shines with this beautiful somber light. A light which
drowns all my confusion and anger. That's Die for me. And
when he's with me... I'm at peace. I can sleep soundly,
knowing there's someone who would hold me when I'm afraid.

I'm so dramatic, aren't I? I'm not as insane as everyone
thinks. Well, everyone except Die, that is. Ha... Shinogu,
you know that, don't you? And he's getting impatient,
Shinogu. He wants me out of this damn cell.

What do you think, Shinogu? Shall I give this life another
shot? Shall I try to live again? To sing Die's songs? To
love Die? And to live with him?

I can almost see you smiling, little brother. You, who
admired me so much, even to your death. I can almost
hear you giving me your approval.

I guess I /would/ try. I'm bored with this hospital, and
this shitty hospital gown. I want my leather pants and
jacket back. I want my hair growing long again. I want
to be on stage again.

Die, wait for me, ne? Then we can be at each other's
throats again. After all, you're the only person in this
world who can be Kaine's equal!


~ owari ~


Notes:
So this one's from Kaine's POV.
Hmm... I don't know why I'm so determined to make
fanfics out of a one-tankoubon manga... ^^;
C&C, please?

Finished: 23 April 2001