Once a chickenwuss

Once a chickenwuss

Declaimer: I don't own any Final fantasy 8 characters or any merchandise. I only borrow them from Squaresoft.

Author's note: Finally chapter 5. A few reviews. Great, better than nothing!!! I really have the gut to change my fic title, in order to change fate. But the title is originally dedicated to Bahamut, which its part won't be up until chapter 8 or 9. I just can't give up even in such situation. Anyway, here I thanks to those review my fics. Thanks for supporting.

This chapter again is Yaoi. So, for those who hate yaoi, please BE WARE. Lemon as well, as I tried hard.

Part 5 – Bleeding past

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Nida? Nida, were you dead? ……………..No, please, Nida; please don't. Irvine kept running in the direction of his dorm. He ran like hell. When he saw people blocked his pathway, he pushed them passed roughly, madly. Irvine lost his gentleman attitude, who couldn't care anything, but Nida.

Zell chased after Irvine, he did not have the chance to get anywhere near closer. The martial artist never realized the cowboy's pair of long legs really worked that well in extreme situation. Zell admired the speed of Irvine, but more above that, he worried about the Nida.

Shortly, they both arrived at Irvine and Nida's dormitory. Both were panting, tired to control their breath back and worked out the courage to step in.

Beyond another metallic door was Nida's sleeping room. Inside, desk was piled with files, clothes were folded on the bedside. Everything was neatly in shape, except a high chair, which was put oddly in the middle of the room. There was no sign of strangulation. With a thick strain around Nida's neck, his cold body laid steadily on the black duvet covered bed. All the area around his neck was busied with blue-violet color. After seeing this, Zell could not control his emotion anymore, he let the tears rushed down from his blue eyes. Nida?

"No. NOO. Nida." Irvine paced towards the dead body.

"Irvine…."Squall tried to grab Irvine's arm and calm him down.

"Oh, just fuck off, you, commander." Irvine shouted imperiously. Reaching to Nida, Irvine touched his cheek, feeling the cold skin. "No, please wake up." He choked. He felt sick. Once again, Irvine thought about Nida. He did feel responsible for Nida somehow, always had known that Nida gave him a strength he didn't seem to find anywhere else, not even Selphie. Without exchanging a word, they always found a stream of security they shared as they lived right next to each other. Now, Nida was dead, the cowboy couldn't help, but collapsed.

"Irvine." Zell ran up to the cowboy and picked up his limp body. "He's ….fainted."

Squall sighed. "Well, take him to Dr. Kadowaki."

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Everything was tensed. Nida wrote a will saying that he killed two cadets. Squall and few other co-leaders were discussing with Cid. Even Xu and Quistis were busy.

In the infirmary, Irvine was still unconscious. Selphie and Zell were sitting by the bedside.

Worry engulfed the whole room.

"Zell………" ~Ifrit.

Oh, shhh. Everyone is in a damn mood already. Just give me a moment of peace, okay?!"

"We just wanna remind you, it is worst being late on your first date." Bahamut said

"Oh my god!" Zell shouted.

Selphie was jumped, stared at him, "Shhhh. Would you mind? (sighed) What's wrong?"

"I got to go. I've got a date with Danii. Sorry, you look after Irvine. Okay?"

Selphie sighed again. Nodded. "Of course. A date…… Anyway, it won't help even you stay. Right?"

In the corridor.

Oh no, Oh no. What's the time? Zell looked around as he proceeded to the dormitory hall way..

"Ten to five." ~ Bahamut

"Hey, hey, Where are you going? You got to get change first, right?" ~Ifrit

What for?

"Don't tell me, you going to wear this to the theater?" Ifrit

What's wrong with my buggy jeans and the T-shirt.

"Nothing wrong. They just don't match at all. Besides, you should wear something more formal." Ifrit

Me – formal?? No way! You got to be kidding.

"Just do what we tell you. OK? You will be fine." ~ Ifrit

Inside Zell's room. Zell was trying to find a pair of trousers.

"The black one!! Cerberus

"No, the brown one!!" Ifrit

Shhh, I am thinking. I had already told you NOT ROW in my head ….……..Bahamut, why are you so quiet?

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Yee…You are weird. Sounds like Squall. Anyway, which one do you recommend?

"The denim jeans." ~ Bahamut

Hey, that's what I think as well. Cool. That's it then.

"No, that's not formal!! ~ Ifrit

"Quit it. He's gonna be late." ~ Bahamut

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Outside Danii's dorm.

"Am I looking *alright*?" Danni asked as she looked into the mirror again, and yet again. She is wearing a quirky designed one-piece creamy gown. Over her bare shoulder, a silky lemony scarf was around.

Putting her arms on Danii's shoulders, the roommate said, "Yeah. You are more than all right. You are absolutely stunning. Stop yawning, ok-girl? You've asked me five times already."

Danni smile sweetly, "I just want to make sure."

The roommate, "If I were you, I should worry more about if he is coming or not. He's been ten minutes late."

Looking at the digital clock above the dining glass table, Danii said,"That clock is fast!!" The roommate shook her head, sighed. Then, she giggled, "Looks like he's coming." As they heard a wind blown wildly outside the dorm. The bell rang.

Looking at the man with a T-board in hand. The roommate whispered, "He is Weird! With a T-board?!" Danii, "Shhh."

Zell nervously said, " Sorry. I am a bit late."

The roommate yelled, "Yeah, TEN MINUTES. That's A BIT LATE." (Danii, "Shh")

Zell, "Sorry, Danii."

Danii, "It's not a problem. I was busy with my dress too."

Zell, "You look great. Especially with make up."

Danii smiled, "Nana helped me a lot." She put her hand over her roommate's shoulders.

Zell, "Shall we get going. Otherwise, we will miss the play."

Nana, "Are you planning to go by the T-board?"

Danni smiled, "Sounds fun."

Zell frowned, "Yea, think so too. Amm…Nana, right? What's wrong with my T-board?"

Nana, "Oh god. Danni, are you sure he is really the man you want?"

Danii laughed, " Yap. That's what I like about him. Excitement." Zell blushed.

Nana, "Jesus."

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Two hours later, on the beach. Danii walked hand in hand with Zell along the quiet beach. With the warmth transferred pass their palms, they gained a moment of peace. Furthermore, the beach was nice with no one there.

"I am terribly sorry. (Sigh) I always screw up the plans….." Zell with his head forced downward, who was far too depressed about the fact in which he actually did not get the theater tickets from Irvine.

"Shh, that's all right."Danii. She put her index finger on Zell's lips, then grabbed his hand and pulled him to walk towards to the blue seawater. Taking out the sandal, she walked into the water, enjoying the cool gradually flowed up from her feet.

Zell, who was abandoned by Danii, standing still on the sand, looking at the girl. Danii's long black silky hair blew up by the wind, and her dress was waving with the same rhythm. Zell did not only see her beauty but also her gentle compare to the edgeless ocean. Danii looked back at Zell, smiled. This scene, Zell would never forget in his whole life.

"Look at the stars. Is this amazing?" Danii pointed at the dark dark sky.

Zell looked up to the sky. It was a starless night, Stars? Zell frowned. Then he pulled his head down again. At this time, as he didn't realize Danii had already stood in front of him. "Catch-ya."

Danii stood on tiptoe, kissed Zell. Zell was amazed.

"Well, I didn't return your kiss this morning. I didn't kiss back." Danii wrapped around Zell's hips. "Someone says if one person kisses you to show his love, if you don't return, which means you don't love him."

"Really? So…." Zell narrowed his oceanic eyes, moved his face towards Danii again. Danii turned her body around. "Wait." She held Zell's hands around her waist. "Just hold me tightly, can you?"

"What's wrong?" Zell added, "Honey."

"I have something to tell you. …..Thank you for everything." Zell frowned. Danii continued, "For accompany me even in this situation. I know you are stressed. You should have stayed beside Irvine." After a long pause, "I am scared."

Zell reassured her, "Don't. Even we only come along together for one and a half day, I want you to know. No matter what happens, you still come to my first place. All right?" Zell put his head on Danii's shoulder, "Besides it is not me that Irvine wants. But, I am the one you need. Right?"

Danii nodded. Felt safe with the power which Zell gave her. Danii adjusted her body in a more comfortable position. Enjoyed this moment between them, only.

Smelling the breeze of ocean mixed with Danii's flesh smell. Zell kissed on Danii's neck passionately. The unison shadow under the dim moonlight elonged on the sand beach.

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A particular Galbadia Garden bedroom, two pairs of boots rested next to the bed.

With a kiss, lips on lips; a wet and sweet sensation flew through all over the lovers' bodies. Nida who bent over before, now sat on a more convenience position, lips traced down Irvine's neck. Kissing aggressively on Kinneas's collar, Nida unbuttoned his purple tanky top. Irvine, on the other hand ran through Nida's thin brown hair. At the same time, Nida's hands already moved down to the cowboy's tight leather pants. To be a rather hot summer in Galbadia, even in the air-conditioned Garden dormitory, a boiling gesture still rolled through the whole tiny enclosed area.

After kissing and hugging for further few more moments. Nida started pushed his body forward, adjusting his hips, then emerged into the cowboy's. As doing so, they breathed more rapidly.

"Nida……" Irvine with a moan, he pressed himself to Nida's ears whispered deep down to his lover's fast beating heart.

" Amm….." Nida was pushing harder. They soon caught their rhythm. Irvine felt his need, the desperation for more.

"Nida….please… Nida?! ….. arrr." Irvine cried in climax.

"Are you all right?"

Irvine nodded. " Nida……Sorry, ……This is my first time."

Nida winked, "With a man, right? Shhh, just relax. I will lead you through it."

With the pain and also the pleasure they reached, they screamed together.

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Nida?! "Nida !" Irvine screamed out. The whole lean body was soaked with sweat. Where am I? Looking at his room, a particular Balamb-garden-cadet-room. He then remembered what happened. Nida died. And he fainted. Feeling his burning throat, he proceeded towards to the open kitchen. After drinking a glass of iced water, he realized his butterfly was resting on the sofa. He knew that she had been stayed with him for the whole day.

So, you worry about me? But how about Nida? Irvine picked up the blanket on the floor and replaced on the tiny body. Sighed. I am sorry. Then, he walked back to his room.

Lighting a cigarette. He wept. How can I handle this? On his will, Nida confined he killed two cadet and then committed suicide. No, this is not right. This just can't be happened. Irvine exhaled a stream of smoke.

Then he opened his bedside drawer, to take his long-time-no-see diary out. It was an inch thick brown leather covered book, with a huge black cross on the front cover. A book collected his past, his sin. He started reading from the beginning.

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In the Orphanage.

Seifie, "Wanna play?"

Irvy, "What are we playing?"

Seifie "War"

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Irvine winked. Irvine knew how much he loved the hyper kiddo Selphie influenced him. He loved her, even now. With the cigarette in one hand, the other turned to another page.

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In Galbadia Garden.

"Oh, you are a transferred student? Shall I show you around. I know this place better than knowing myself." I offered the new roommate.

"That would be nice. This place is quite different to our Garden." Said the new cadet.

"You come from Balamb, right? It sounds a cool place. By the way, I am Irvine Kinneas. The best sharpshooter in the garden." I said as I did my habit, tipped my cowboy hat.

"Nida."Said simply by the cadet.

Nida, a weird name was his first impression to the freaking quiet new cadet.

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Irvine shoot his head. Weird? Was his first impression to Nida? Exhaled another smoke.

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In the train to Deling.

"So, we meet again. Sounds we are destinated together."

"Yeah-yea."

"A sign of love."

"Noooooooo-noo."

Nope? But if I am?

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Irvine shoot his head again. Selphie……Did she ever know how deeply he in love with her?

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In Balamb

I rushed towards to the bridge after our garden crushed into Galbadia Garden. Seeing Nida fell on the floor. I rushed to him, put my hand on his bleeding head. "Nida?!"

Xu, who crawled near Nida. "He's fine. Just fainted. Shouldn't be a big deal. I will send him to the informatory. You should go."

Then I heard Squall's most annoying voice. "Irvine" With great reluctant, I moved away from Nida.

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Irvine's eyes were slightly covered with tear again. He deeply inhaled another mouth of smoke.

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In our last tenderous battle to Ultimacia.

I saw Selphie covered me, her HP dropped to 1 after the Judge of Hell. "Irvine. Take care." She fell on her kneels. She used her limit break the Wall. However, she got another Holy attack by Ultimacia straightly followed by. She laid on the endless space.

"No…Selphie." I cried. I was intended to use Revive immediately, however she had been absorbed in time.

I was blanked. Selfie.

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Irvine sneezed. Selphie had been protected him all the time. She may be weak, but strong enough to take care of the ones who she loved. Irvine sighed.

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In Balamb Garden. One lonely night.

So boring. Nida was not in the room as usual coz I am in. I couldn't help but walked out to kill the time. Don't really want to find Sefie. I headed to the Training center to do some midnight exercise. Then I saw the instructor.

"Quistis!!"

"Oh, it's you, Irvine. You scared me off. Can't imagine how quite Balamb Garden at night."

"Yea. Where are you heading? Training center?"

"Nop. Going to the 2nd floor classroom."

"Oh, yea. You are a seed. Sure have more privilege. Man, being a cadet is bloody boring."

Quistis giggled. "Wanna come with me? I show you something, see if you interest in."

It was then they walked into a classroom, full with students playing Triple Traid card.

"Whoo. A secret meeting?"

Quistis smiled, "Sort of. Wanna try? Beating the CC group will reward you some rare card."

"Why not?"

By luck or something, I won quite a lot of games. It was doing absolutely fine, until I met a particular hard contingency. It was Nida.

"I never thought you are quite good, Irvine." Quistis said as she stood beside us.

I just winked. We didn't say a word. When I knew I had to face him, I had already lost my confidence. Facing a no facial-expression former lover is hard, man. When came to the end, as I lost, Nida said, "Well played." Before he stood up and left.

Then I realized how he spent most of his night while I was in our dorm.

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Irvine sighed. He sobbed. It was now he knew that was the last thing Nida said to him before he died. That was nearly half a year ago. Guilt fulfilled the whole room.

"I should have talked to him. Then he might not……" Irvine whispered. He fed up reading the old stuff. Instead he flipped the pages without any intention. It was then he stopped at a particular page, a most recent page.

"What the hell?" Irvine shocked. What he saw in front of him was a few lines written from Nida. Irvine was sure that was Nida's hand writing.

With a neatly few lines:

Irvy, I need to talk to you, but you never here. It is urgent. I feel something awful is happening. It is a six-sense thing as a sniper. Last night, two cadets were killed. I was there. I somehow was there, I didn't know why. For god's sake. When I realized, I saw two corpses, your exeter, and a pair of gloves on my hand. I killed them. I knew. However, I sneaked away when I heard paces coming from far away. Then, you were being suspected. You were taken away before I got to you. I want to save you. I told Squall that I am the killer. No one believed me though. I decided to find out the truth on my own. However, I feel something is wrong. I….in any case what happen to me, just want you know, life still goes on. Take care.

Loves you. Nida (morning)

Irvine blanked. Oh my god!

Author's note: So, how was it? Please review. Thanks you for reading. Papagallo