TITLE: I Have Nothing
AUTHOR: Goddess Isa
EMAIL: goddessisa@aol.com
SUMMARY: What if the Scooby Gang hadn't prevailed over the Ascension?
SPOILER: Graduation Day, but only up until the Mayor becomes the giant snake thing. This story ends the whole thing way different.
DISTRIBUTION: Sandee, of course - My site - http://planetslaythis.homestead.com - Crystal and Butterfly if they want it - A Soul's Redemption - Anyone else - sure, just email me & lmk where it's going - I like seeing my name in print =)
FEEDBACK: Please, I'd hate to have to Slay for it. =P
RATING: TV-14
DISCLAIMER: I don't own these characters, Joss Whedon does. If he ever decides to give them to me, that would be nice. =)



Funny thing about life:

It has a tendency to blow up in your face.

You're welcome to take that statement literally, because that's how I meant it.

Go ahead and call me a bitch or a cynic or even a psychopath. It's not like I care. I don't care about much of anything anymore. Losing everyone I love can do that to you.

My mother was the first to die, though I didn't know it. The Mayor was waiting and he kidnapped her on her way out of Sunnydale. They say he sliced her throat, but I know I know it must've been much worse. Then again, maybe not. The whole germ thing.

Then again, it doesn't much matter. I haven't had a chance to grieve over her yet. I'm still not done grieving over Oz and Cordelia and Xander and Willow and Giles. I lost them all that night. I lost everything that night.

All I have left is Angel, and I barely have that. He's not dead, but he's not here so he may as well be. He left for LA after the Ascension, before they dug me out of the rubble. He thought I was dead. I guess I can see why. How could they expect me to survive being in the school when it blew up? Even though I was in the basement, I still got thrown pretty hard and was stuck under half a wall for three days. I wouldn't have survived had I not been the Slayer, I can tell you that much. Truth be told, I was hiding in the basement on purpose when the whole thing went down. I had just watched the Mayor and his men butcher Xander and Giles, and I just couldn't handle watching anything else. I didn't want to think about what I'd just seen, either. I just wanted to be blown to bits and never have to think about anything again. Unfortunately, that didn't happen.

I remember lying there, starving, freezing, praying that I would just fall asleep and never wake up. I hated the world and everyone left in it because of what happened to me. They weren't just my friends, they were my family.

Angel's all the family I have left, and I don't even have him anymore.

I have nothing.