Sesshou-maru's Heart
This fanfiction is based on Rumiko Takahashi's Inu Yasha series, using my character from the Inu Yasha RPG group I am in, and the situations she and the player-controlled Sesshou-maru gets into. Yes, someone plays him. Others play the rest of the 'original' characters. It is ran by Hono. Sorry this chapter's shorter. ^_^ The next one should be long. ^_^ I own Eira, btw. ^_^
Chapter Two-Strange Word:Desire
Eira couldn't understand her life anymore. She grew more and more estranged with her mother, who didn't seem to care at all for her any more. She longed to see Sesshou-maru, yet still had not admitted to herself why. Why did she feel so despairing without him? Why did her life seem meaningless without being able to look into his golden-amber eyes? Was it something he had done, or had she chosen this feeling without understanding what she was doing? She sighed, and began to twist a long strand of wavy crimson hair, trying to decide what to do next. Though she had been away from the Palace of the Great Demon for about a year now, she still felt the rip of separation as though it had been yesterday. She longed to see him again, to hear his voice, so soft and silky, even when he was teasing. She did not understand it, but she knew she lived in this world merely to feel this way towards him. But...why?
In the Palace of the Great Demon, a change had already begun to take over the Great Demon's heir apparent. Sesshou-maru had become increasingly moody, developing a short temper and an eerie calmness that betrayed none of his emotions, even when he battled, which he did more and more these days. Inu Yasha was now completely adoring of Sesshou-maru, irritating him to an immense extent, though none could say why. In his room, the Great Demon thought softly to himself, 'If only my good friend Yamin had not died last year...you, my son, would probably be expecting pups of your own, and no ill will would be borne towards your half-human little brother...Pain of the heart shouldn't be taken out on the innocent...But you shall never see that, my headstrong son...Oh, how I wish things could have been different...' Sighing, the Great Demon shook his head and lay back, falling into an easy sleep, beside his human mate.
Sleep, however, did not come easily to Sesshou-maru...it had not...not since SHE was gone. Ever since that fateful day last year, Sesshou-maru had done nothing but toss and turn in an uneasy sleep that granted him no rest. He didn't fully comprehend why. All he knew was that he needed Eira back. But he would never let it be known, of course, and swore to push the feeling deep down inside, somewhere no one would ever look to find a weakness, somewhere no one would KNOW to look...
Several years go by...About three, to be precise.
Eira returned to the little encampment her mother and she lived at, to find a rather calm scene, but a morbid one despite the lack of grisly or bloody images. Her mother was sitting in a small pile of silks and furs, huddled, legs drawn up and arms wrapped around them, tears upon her elegant and delicate face. No blood was anywhere, yet she was most certainly dead. Beside her body was a carefully, painstakingly scrawled note. It read:
Eiralya...my daughter. Know that this is the way of a youkai like you and I. Those of us based on love and desire go insane and eventually die when we are deprived of those we love. I pray that your father's blood in you shall keep from this fate long enough to find that one whom you love once again. Keep well, and begin your search immediately. Don't play games, tell yourself the truth, or you will die the same way I am...
Taikiri
Oh, mother...Eira thought to herself, tears streaming from her slanted emerald eyes, sparkling as they coursed down her face. 'tell yourself the truth' Taikiri had told her daughter. Fine, then. Eira threw her head back and cried, then, as the tears began to stop flowing, she cried out, as loudly as she could, "I DO love Sesshou-maru, and from this day onwards I shall search for him, until my breath stops cold and my heart ceases its beat! And when I find him, even if he loves another, even if he is the most heartless of youkai, I shall still love him. Even if it kills me, I will love him. That is why I LIVE!" She fell to her knees, sobbing again, as she suddenly understood why she felt so very alone...
So she began a journey. She would find Sesshou-maru. She had sworn to do so, and would NOT fail at her sworn word. The question was-how to find him? Would anyone but another youkai even listen to her long enough for her to ask, without running in fear? She did not know, but she would find out...
Several years pass. It is not obvious as to how many...The Great Palace is in turmoil. It has lost a Lord and a Lady all in one year, and no one is happy about that. Only one face is calm. The one face whom should be most distraught of all holds no emotion of any sort, no tears or emotions of any kind. Sesshou-maru's face. The heir apparent...
"Sesshou-maru! Where's your feelings? Father is DEAD! Don't you even CARE?" A fierce young youkai stands behind his brother, clawed hands in angry fists, fanged teeth clenched together, dog-like ears lying nearly flat at his head, the hairs sticking up like an angry wolf's.
Sesshou-maru gave a half-smirk. "Care? I stopped caring long ago. You may hold a funeral if you wish, but do not expect me to attend. I shall make no appearance...None at all." He turned to leave quietly, but his half-brother gripped his shoulder.
Seething, Inu Yasha whispered in a growl, "Sesshou-maru...long ago, I looked up to you... Now, I would not stay in this place with you if life itself depended on it. You won't see me around again..." He turned and stalked to the entrance of the room, then turned and whispered somewhat wistfully, "You've changed Sesshou-maru. You aren't half the man you used to be, and regardless of how worthless you find my life...you'll never live up to the expectations father wanted you to. If only you'd find your heart again...but, you've...changed. And it isn't for the better." With that said, Inu Yasha stalked out of the Palace, wishing nothing else to do with his elder half-brother again.
"You've changed?" whispered Sesshou-maru, turning away from the direction Inu Yasha had gone. Yes...he thought to himself, I have...changed. But the innocence I once held is gone, and I shall not be able to go back...An image of a smiling, flame-haired youkai came to mind, and he collapsed on his sleeping mat, clutching his head, trying to banish the memory. Unable to do so, he fell into a fitful sleep full of memories-turned-dreams...and nightmares.
Eira was determined to find him. She knew his scent, knew his habits...could feel that she would find him someday. Looking into the sunset, she decided it must be her destiny...She curled upon a large limb of a huge tree, and fell into a deep sleep full of hopes...dreams...and Sesshou-maru.
End of Chapter Two. To be continued in Chapter Three: What has Become of You?
