inner revelations Disclaimer: I refuse to say it again! You guys know I don't own them! Why do I have to put these in as a constant reminder of that fact! Ok, I'm done now. Sigh* they aren't mine.

A/N: Another one I wrote a LONG time ago, but I kind of like this one so it stays ^_^. It's a poem in the beginning intended to show the inner battles she's faced with everyday. Then the following is a short fic taken place the day she witnessed Kikyou and Inu Yasha together.

Oh yea, here's a few notes: when Kagome speaks using this '' notation. It is because at those times she and Kikyou are speaking as one.


Inner Revelations

Who am I?
I don't know anymore.

Am I her?
Everyone seems to think so.

How can that be?
Look at the reflection below.

Am I not different from her?
As different as the moon and the sun

So how am I the same as her?
Your thoughts her thoughts are the same and one.

So whom does he see when he stares at me?
He sees you then sees her and then two become one.

He loves her still I see it everyday.
He embraces you both like the night embraces day.

Who will he choose when the choice must be made?
You're asking him to choose between one and the same.

I am different I am unique I will NEVER be her!
No, you will never be her, and I'll tell you why because unlike her you are free and alive.




Everyday. Everyday I am faced with herself and myself. I stare into the pool of water below, and what I see frightens me. I see her, but I see me. She is like my opposite. So cold and calm, was she always this way? No, I know she wasn't. How do I know this? It's like I can see her past as my present. Her everyday trials become my own. It's like I'm reliving the life she was denied so brutally. The life she alone should have been able to live. It's as if my life is really her continuation. Or as everyone loves to think, her reincarnation, her life lived on.

I remember the day I first saw her. I wasn't surprised to see her. I had known all along whom she was. As I stared into those icy depths I remember a voice so calm and clear. 'When you look at me who do you see?'

I saw death. I saw pain and despair. I was living and free. I was what she desired. In her seeing Inu Yasha I understood her grief. She thought they would have been together in death as they could never be in life, and here she sees me living the life she was never destined to have.

I hide these little thoughts from everyone else. What would they think if they knew I could see the inner battles of my soul, its struggle to understand where it was supposed to go and who I really am.

Are they my thoughts? Or maybe they're hers. I am divided between the truth and myself. Truth, what a laugh, I am a walking lie and she is proof of that. I lie to myself by denying who I truly am. I lie to him simply by masking my feelings.

'I' asked myself who I see when I look at me. 'I' see myself nothing else, no soul of my own. Just her mirror reflection of earth dust and bones..



A/N: I'm thinking of making this into a little "thought" series. Each character and what they think. I'll probably revise this later, but that's what I have in mind ^_-.