" Lesley are you alright?" Jessie asked carefully
" Honestly Jessie... I don't think I can ever be fully okay again... but I hope that I can try my best for my girls..." Lesley replied but fought hard to keep herself together
" You just take your time, and I am there whenever you need me." Jessie replied with a hug while helping Lesley get out of the car.
" I wish there was another way to get up to my office without going to the second floor. I mean I know that I have to face that floor at some point but every time I think about it, all I see is Rick's face and when he just looked up at me and then his eyes... Oh Jessie I don't think I can do this... I don't know if I can face it... "
" Don't push yourself Lesley if you aren't ready..." Jessie replied
" No I've been home long enough since everything... I need to get my life back to a low but stable point... I feel that I owe it to Rick and his memory" Lesley looked towards Jessie and added " But I do think I maybe should see Gail... professionally I mean... I think it would help me try to find even alittle bit of peace if I can work with her to work through it."
" I'll see about getting that set when Gail checks in. For now you have to just relax and stop trying to push yourself. I don't want to see you here in the hospital as a patient not right now." Jessie barked.
" I know Jessie and I'm sorry… I just… I don't know how I'm gonna deal with all of this." Lesley slightly turned away.
Steve and Audrey had stepped over to see that Lesley was okay given the circumstances and later Monica stopped by and did the same.
" Guys really… I'm gonna be okay and I appreciate that you have taken a moment to see if I'm alright… Truthfully I don't know that I am ever gonna have a normal day when working again after all that happened and what happened to Rick… but I do know that he would expect me to try to keep it going for the sake of the twins and myself so that's what I'm gonna do."
" Lesley we understand what you're going through, but we don't think you have to push yourself with everything you've been through" Steve laid a hand gently on Lesley's shoulder
" I know that Steve, thank you. I just don't think I should push off getting back to work more than I have already."
" Well I hope that you can find some peace Lesley... And I mean that.." Monica replied and laid a hand on Lesley's shoulder
" Thank you Monica I appreciate that" Lesley replied
" Steve, we have a meeting starting in a minute. We better get going." Monica looked towards Steve
" Yes we should... Lesley you take an easy... And let me know if you need anything" Steve turned towards Lesley and walked off with Monica
" Thanks Steve I will." Lesley stayed with Jessie until Gail had checked in but in the meantime started to feel alittle bit nauseous
" Lesley, are you feeling alright?"
" I feel like I'm gonna be sick... I don't know if that's a good thing or if it's something to be concerned about" Lesley replied
" Well, is this the first time?" Jessie asked
" Honestly Jessie it's been a good few weeks now but I've been able to hide especially when I've been with the girls and Rick, he knew but he didn't really catch on much about it I was gonna try to talk to Rick about it after we celebrated the girls' birthday, but I was never given the chance..." Lesley admitted
" Lesley you don't think maybe you could be..." Jessie started and paused when Lesley looked up at her
" No I couldn't be... How could I when there isn't any room for me to consider let alone open my heart for another man..."
" I'm not suggesting that you could've... Suppose if you and Rick had spent a particular time one evening, and you have before Rick was murdered like a few weeks before, it would be Rick's..." Jessie replied
" Jessie I don't know if I could be ready for another baby... Not without Rick… plus the dangers this time around because of my heart..." Lesley protested
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" We move them tonight, it's their only chance..." Rick barked
" Rick that's a big risk to take" Agent Derek replied
" It's a bigger risk if we don't. It's not like I'll be there anyway I'll be staying here locked up. Look I didn't risk losing my family just for show we move my wife and my daughters along with Jessie Brewer tonight" Rick shot back
" Dana, thank you for seeing Lesley on short notice..." Jessie said
" Of course Jess, I was hoping to schedule you for an appointment but all things considered I didn't want to bombard you with everything you've been through since Rick's passing"
" It's alright Dana... It's good to see friends.. but I want to know for sure if I have conceived and if then..." Lesley replied
" Alright I'll run a couple of tests for you" Dana replied and helped Lesley onto the examining table.
Lesley started to feel slightly dizzy but fought to tamp down the nausea
" It's alright Lesley..." Jessie stood next to Lesley while rubbing her arm
" Jessie I love Rick but I don't know if I can do this again and without him..." Lesley admitted
" Hey you won't be alone I won't let you do it alone" Jessie tried to comfort Lesley.
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" Are you sure that moving Lesley now is the right call?" Steve asked
" If we don't, she's gonna be in more danger especially with her medical situation" Rick said over the phone
" Well the problem Rick is she had to make an urgent appointment with Dana..."
" Why what happen Steve did something happen with Lesley?" Rick spoke up
" Calm down... It's nothing too serious... Jessie was just alittle concerned and made an appointment... Rick I know I agreed to this whole situation and the plan to finally stop Smith... I just pray to God that when you return, Lesley can cope with you actually being alive. " Steve answered
" I know Steve, so do I... I hope she will understand one day that I was only trying to keep the promise I vowed to keep when it comes to her..." Rick replied and had to get off
~~~
Jessie and Lesley waited in the cafeteria for Dana to get the results; praying that she was okay, Lesley started to feel sick again and this time hurried for the bathroom before Dana had joined them
" Dana thanks for putting a rush on her blood work... She's nervous about the results and whether or not she had conceived again." Jessie got out
" It was no problem... I do have her test results..." Dana replied
After about 20 minutes Lesley was able to get cleaned up so she could get back for Jessie while waiting for Dana.
" Dana thanks for meeting with us... Are those my results..." Lesley asked
" Lesley, how long before today have you had this nausea and dizziness?" Dana replied
" Just a few weeks before Rick was….. because he was..." Lesley paused for a moment to collect herself. " At first I thought I was just doing too much and I was pushing to keep it together while with Rick and the girls but the last couple of nights after I put them down for the night or rather after Jessie gets them to go down for the night... I've been really having a hard time with the vomiting and I've been more tired lately than before but I think the nausea is more in the mornings then at night but it comes and goes." Lesley explained
" Well Dr. Richards and I have ran these twice and it shows conclusively you don't have abdominal or cervical cancer…" Dana said
" That's a big relief..." Lesley started and Dana finished. " But I think it's a good time to congratulate you on the right aspects for you." Dana said
" What?... Are you saying?" Lesley asked
" I ran your blood work twice for confirmation, you are 10 weeks into your pregnancy..." Dana answered
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" Bobbi, are Lesley and Jessie still here with the girls or have they gone home?" Steve asked
" Dr. Webber is in the cafeteria with Jessie and Dana... Her tests had come back so they were going over then before Jessie was gonna take them home. The twins are up in pediatrics in the daycare" Bobbi answered
" Thank you Bobbi" Steve replied
Lesley took a moment to take in what Dana had just told her and what that would mean as a mother of 2 and as a single parent
" Dana, are you sure I can endure another pregnancy... I remember when I was pregnant with the girls I had real difficulty at times especially with my blood pressure… And this time wouldn't it be more difficult because of the transplant and my heart?" Lesley asked with concerned
" So far everything looks good your blood pressure is normal I don't think you would have alot of complications if any however it is still early and because of your heart and the transplant I do want to keep you monitored closely as you are closer to delivery.." Dana replied hoping to ease Lesley's fears
" I want to setup regular appointments within every couple of weeks starting from today." Lesley said
" Jessie is already ahead for you" Dana smiled and continued " You just take an easy, and if anything happens or you feel like something is wrong just have Jessie call me but remember what i've always told you about stress and things that can upset you. I want you to rest as much as you can and you have to stay hydrated." Dana pointed out then turned slightly towards Jessie " Jessie she's gonna need to have her blood pressure watched throughout the day every day from now until delivery."
" Dana I will make sure things are well and if anything comes up I'll be sure to call you immediately." Jessie assured
Over the next couple of months Lesley and the kids along with Jessie were moved into protective custody and Lesley was able to keep her appointments with Dana Hodgekiss but on the hand that Dana was to have special clearance for every appointment for the next two months until after the case was cleared and Lesley was to be safe again but that didn't change the mere shock that Jessie had gotten just before Lesley's appointment just 12 weeks later.
