disclaimer...don't own inu yasha..wish i did..but i don't..*sigh..so
don't sue..i'm poor and couldn't give you a dime even if you were to sue
me..so there
She was tired of arguing with him..it only got her
upset..why was he always so cruel to her,why was he so blind to her feelings
for him ..didn't he know how much it hurt her for him to say the things
he did.Well, it didn't matter now,she was determined to leave this place,
to never look back..it would be better this way..she thought..the jewel
was almost complete,surely they could easily find the remaining few shards.All
she did was get in the way anyways,she was a mere burden to the group,only
good for finding shards..so she had been told so many times before.
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WHERE DID SHE RUN OFF TO NOW!!! She left you insensitive
jerk..why you little..come ere' and take yer' beating like a good little
demon...*Bonk*..ooww,why'd you do that for..it's your fault she left.ME!!what
did i say..you jack-ass your'e always calling her those names..she was
bound to leave sooner or later.Now, because of you she's gone!! Feh*Damn
where could she have gone to..how could i be so stupid...i didn't mean
to hurt her..she shouldn't run off like that,she might get hurt..doesn't
she know how much i..woah..where did that thought come from...i have
to find her..Hey dog-boy..what are you still standing there for..aren't
you gonna go find her,HEY are you listening!! Shut Up already im not deaf.Then
what are you waitng for..*bonk*..OUCH!!
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So tired..my whole body is aching..it feels like
i've been running for hours.When did it get so dark maybe i shouldv'e stayed
near the river..I don't know where I am now..it's getting so cold..shouldv'e
brought my bag,ha, look at me i'm an emotional wreck..all because i'm in
love with someone who so painfully obviously doesn't love me back..why
do i torture myself like this..oh kagome..when will you learn that he'll
never love a copy a fake ..some reincarnation of his real love..why am
I so blind..(her eyes starts to burn as tears go unchecked down her weary
face).I hear water, it sounds near ..maybe i can return to the camp from
there.What am i thinking,why would i go back, for what so he can tell me
what an ugly wretch of a girl I am..so he can tell me again that my only
usefullness is to help find his precious shards..NO!!! I won't go back,never
again,I refuse to let him hurt me anymore(her face is streaming with tears
of anger and hurt..her eyes glaze over with the intense feelings inside
her,as tears yet unshed threaten to fall). No, I won't go back..but maybe
the river can lead me somewhere else..maybe it will lead me somewhere where
I won't hurt anymore..a place where I can finally escape this torture..this
pain..it hurts so much. I always try to hide it with a smile,or ignore
his constant abuse of my emotions with a barrage of sits..but it doesn't
help anymore,I can't hid this pain anymore..i just want to get away..
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Her scent..a few hours old...kuso, it's growing
fainter. I have to hurry, it's getting dark. With her eye sight she might
walk into a tree or something..stupid girl..why did you have to run off
like that.(an icy chill runs up his spine causing him to momentarily lose
his footing on a tree limb). Somethings wrong..Kagome what trouble have
you gotten yourself into now..(heart begins to pound so hard he fears it
might burst through his chest)..girl don't do anything stupid..I don't
know what i'd do if you were to get hurt.Kagome hang on..Please hang on..I'm
coming just please.....
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(water rushing in foreground..kagome watches as a branch is smashed
violently against rocks leading downriver)
*shiver...It's so cold out here..Inu yasha would
have a fit if he saw me out here..your'e no use to me if your'e sick, he
would say..hehe..yea, that's exactly what he'd tell me.Well, he won't have
to worry about useless ol' me for much longer.After i'm gone he can become
a full blooded demon and forget he ever met me.Yea,i'm sure he'd
want that..well, no point in thinking about that anymore..it's time to
just ..let go..
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( looking closely one could swear seeing a pink blur swish through
the air diving into the stream..)
KAGOME..KAGOME..oh gods..please wake up...(he was
completely out of breath swimming against the current to get onto dry land
usually wouldv'e been easy, but his burden insisted on being pulled into
the river until finally it finally went limp beneath his hold)..stupoid
girl..why would you do something like that,what the hell were you thinking..oh
gods..shes turning blue..her hands are like ice..her skin..so cold..why
won't she wake up..damn you..I can't live without you DON"T LEAVE ME!!!!(he
begins breathing into her mouth not knowing why..only feeling he must in
order for her to survive..)*cough..cough*...(silence as her once lifeless
form begins to take in all that has happened..her eyes fill with surprise
then sadness ,then suddenly anger at being pulled out). WHY!!..why did
you rescue me.What the hell are you saying..what, you wanted to die..I
won't have it..I won't let you give up like that.Why do you care what happens
to me..oh, I forgot your precious shards right..WELL!!(a look of pain crosses
his face for an instant..one soon covered by anger) Is that what you think
..that I just have you around for those shards..the HELL with the shards
don't you know that if something were to happen to you that I...I....But
im nothing to you im just some useless shard finder, a copy of someone
I can never even hope to try and be..I'll never reach your expectations
of me..like youv'e pointed out before i'm just some weak senseless human
remember..does she know how wrong that is..does she have a clue as to how
much I..no of course not you baka because youv'e never told her..so tell
her now idiot..I can't..she doesn't feel the same for me..how would you
know..she just tried jumping off a cliff because of you..you always hurt
her yet you claim you..i never said i did ..but you do..no matter how much
you try to hide it..i know because i'm you..so tell her..
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(her piercing gray eyes look up at him with a look of such profound
sadness that at first he didn't recognize the normally cheerfull energetic
girl..did what he say truly hurt her so bad..)
Kagome..listen..i'm ..uuhh..i'm I...your'e what...(her
eyes were starting to glaze over again..sadness ebbed deeply within her
piercing gray orbs)..please don't cry..i'm sorry..ok..im sorry.You hurt
me so much..do you have any idea how much my heart is hurting right now..(the
tightness in her chest causes her to reveal the overwhelming emotions she
had been hiding for so long behind the mask of smiles she always wore..)
Please don't cry..i don't mean what i say your'e not just some shard finder
your'e more to me than that..and your'e not some copy..Kagome i'd die without
you don't you know that??Well it's hard to tell with all the nice things
you always have to say about me(smiles sarcastically between tears), I
don't mean them..you know i don't..maybe..but i need some time and space..i
need to go home Inu yasha..i need to think..those eyes..i get lost so easily
in those eyes..it's almost like she has some hold on me when she stares
at me with those eyes..when she's mad their like a raging storm..i wonder
if she knows that...you fool look at what youv'e done now...now she wants
to go home..she might leave and not come back..no, i can't let her..but
the look in her eyes tell me if i don't i'll surely lose her...do
something you moron..but what? Kagome..(her face was one of conflicting
emotions..she didn't know what to think..one minute he was cruel and heartless
the next ..he was...kind and comforting)..hop on..i'll take you to the
well..(it would take a couple of days beacause they had been traveling
so long but..maybe she would forgive him by then..maybe he could tell her
what he'd meant to tell her so many times before..maybe..just maybe). Your'e
taking me back?!(she was surprised normally he would go nuts..but he was
actually willing to take her back..did she miss something here)..that's
what you want isn't it..yes but..so come on besides your drenched and you
might get sick er' something..last thing i need is everyone telling me
how insensitive i am for letting you travel in this condition...besides
you look like you could use a rest till your ready to go back plus
shippo is worried about you..and the others should be back by now..(she
sighed inwardly..she was still mad at him..but he was right she was exhausted..and
maybe just maybe..
