Notes and Disclaimers: Hotaru, Professor Tomoe, and other characters don't belong to me, hence the name "fanfic"

Notes and Disclaimers: Hotaru, Professor Tomoe, and other characters don't belong to me, hence the name "fanfic".  Any questions or concerns are best directed towards my e-mail address.

I'm Listening

Dear Diary,

I hate these

Fits,

And this body.

Can I ever

Escape

From my

Life?

Dear Diary,

Papa doesn't' seem to care

About

My illness.

No matter what I

Say,

He just pushes

Me away

And says,

"Don't bother me again,

I've got more

Important things to

Do.

You're not really

In pain,

It's all in your

Head."

Sometimes,

I wonder why

I

Stay.

Dear Diary,

I really want

To fly,

To kiss the sky,

To leave this awful

Shell

And body

Behind

For Papa to

Find.

He treats me like

I'm not there,

I swear

He doesn't care

About me,

And I'd just as

Soon change my

Name

To

"Nothing"

"Nobody"

"Shadow".

I never

See the sun.

Why,

Papa?

Dear Diary,

I just can't

Figure out

Why Papa has

Control over me

My feelings

My thoughts

Emotions.

I try

To talk to him,

To tell him how I feel

About his actions

And words

To me.

I tried to speak

I wanted to yell,

"I hate you,

Papa!

You don't

Even care for

Me!"

But then,

I couldn't.

Because I

Don't.

He does.

He used to love me

Used to

Maybe he still

Does

Maybe

And maybe he's got

His own side

To the story

That he hasn't told

Me, or I haven't

Bothered to listen

To.

Dear Papa,

By the time you

Read this,

I'll probably

Be at school

Already,

But I just wanted

To let

You know

That I know

You love me,

And did everything

You could to

Please me

But I was

Ungrateful

And unknowing

Unsatisfied

With the way things are

Now.

But Papa,

I love you,

For real

And if you'd like

To talk with me

About our lives,

School will be out

And I will be

Home

Soon,

So Papa, wait

For me,

And go ahead

And tell me.

I'm listening.