Never See my Face

Author: Hex

Rating: G

Disclaimer: Me no own Gundam Wing. Duh!

Note: I was kinda depressed and listening to sad songs so I wrote an inner monologue about Duo's 'inner mask' as our Drama Teacher puts it. It is very angsty and I think kind of poetic. Let me know what you think!

Note: Very mild Shonin Ai. 1+2

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Your eyes are closed and you do not even know it. All you see is this mask of mine, floating above my face as though riding on the waves of the sea. Sometimes it dips beneath the surface and you see some of me, but you never notice.

You try to open your heart to me but I pull away. I can never let you see my face, I can never let you see beyond the facade before you. If you saw me...

I will not stand to see pity in those eyes of yours. I will not stand for you to see anything but joy on my skin. I will not stand by and let you see my hurt. I will not stand back and be hurt. You are the only one who could ever hurt me my darling, but you do it through love.

I will not let you love me. I shall drive you back from me, force insecurities upon you to keep you away.

It hurts to smile. The muscles pulling tight in my face, pulling at the strings of my heart as I long for night to come so the mask may slip and I may be free.

Were you to love me my darling, you would die. I am cursed to lose all I adore. I cannot love you. I will it not to happen but I cannot help it and I scream in agony inside as I feel myself falling ever deep into passion for you.

I cannot let you see this worship in my eyes.

Eyes.

Are these violet windows into my very soul? Yes. Windows obscured by heavy curtains of past pains.

So my mask floats above my face, and shadows the real me from your view. I wonder, if I will ever break down your walls, my Perfect Soldier.

And ever allow you to collapse my own...

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Arg! Angst! I need to stop writing angst! But I have writers block and revision is making my head swim so I needed to write this. I hope you liked it.#

R&R please

Laters

Hex.