Reflections (SM/GW)
By: Psyche
Email: psychemegami@yahoo.com
Website: http://www.angelfire.com/anime2/paradox/
http://gundamwinghq.trifocus.net/
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Dear Readers,
I hope you liked last chapter...the truth is out...Dimando is the new enemy...and
they are all together now...but what part does Usagi play, you ask? ...Things aren't
always what they seem... winks Ja ne!
Love you all!!
~~Psyche~~
PS: On with the fic!!
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Chapter 4
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"Who is SHE!?!!" Duo asked once Usagi left. He was still staring at her as she
walked away...His eyes were wide as he stared at her. After she left, he turned
towards Wufei, a big grin on his face. "So, who is she?"
Wufei just grunted in annoyance.
Then Duo gasped, and his voice could once again be heard filling the entire estate.
"WUFEI! WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR HAIR!!!!!!!!"
(AN: drools...I love Wufei's hair...I especially love the idea of it down...drools
...Ae-chan walks over and hands her kleenex to clean it up...thanx!)
Wufei sighed angrily. "Go away, baka." He grumbled and walked back inside.
Duo glanced around for a second, stunned by everything that had happened. Then
he too rushed in, dragging Trowa and Quatre with him.
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Usagi sighed. It had been a long day, and she was tired. The five pilots were
finally together, and she could help them all. Heero with his hidden humanity...pain...
loss...Duo with his painful past...Trowa with his hidden emotions...Quatre with the
pains of war...and Wufei...with love.
She had talked with them for hours upon hours. Well...to Duo and Quatre. Wufei
just glared when she talked to them. Heero didn't speek. And Trowa just nodded
every now and then.
But now it was over, the questions were answered...well...kinda. And she was
tired. Very tired...She sighed again. Sleep. How she longed for it. She wished for
a peaceful sleep where only the darkness claimed her. But that didn't exist.
Instead, she fought her tired eyes. She fought the nightmares that continued to
coax her towards them...she fought-
"-Usagi-chan?"A voice interupted her struggle, and she opened drooping blue eyes
towards the one who spoke.
She smiled slight and replied groggily. "Hai, Hee-chan?"
"Are you okay?" Heero whispered, his own eyes were covered in a slight tired glaze.
He, too, was fighting sleep...and nightmares.
"Hai, arigotou." She said, sitting up. "I'm just tired...that's all."
"You should sleep," He replied, walking over and pushing her back under the covers.
But she quickly stopped him. Sleep was the last thing she needed right then.
"Iie, Heero." She shook her head. Their eyes met. (AN: *NOT* a Usagi/Heero fic!
Don't worry! But as all of you know, I like to use OTHER characters as well! I mean,
what kind of FREAK would not TALK to the other pilots....or...blushes...NEthing
else to the other pilots...winks...) And she saw in them the pain and loneliness.
He, too, had spent many nights fighting the sleep...fighting the nightmares....and
fighting the memories. His eyes filled with understanding as he stared into her's,
and Usagi saw a reflection of herself in it...She saw the lost soul inside. The child
waiting to break free. The same child that was within her...And she knew, she could
take his nightmares away, free him from the pain. Even if only for tonight.
And Usagi hugged the Perfect Soldier, surprising him...holding him close. "Sleep,
Heero." She whispered...commanded in his ear as he stiffened.
Heero opened his mouth to reply, but a soft butterfly kiss cut it short. And the warm
feeling he remembered so vividly filled him again. "Tenshi." He murmered, and he
couldn't fight it...and sleep claimed him.
Usagi smiled slightly before sleep claimed her too.
But she didn't realize that their dreams would be nothing like one would expect.
Neither recieved the blissful darkness they longed for...for Usagi had claimed his
nightmare as her own, and Heero gladly exchanged one nightmare for another...
~~Usagi's Dream~~
Laughter filled the air. Laughter. A sound rarely heard from Heero's lips. And it
was the laughter of a child. A child who loved to play. Who loved to sit in the
grass, staring up at the sky as he was now.
It was the laughter of a girl who was rushing towards him with her puppy.
Usagi smiled at the scene, staring at it in awe. Rarely had she seen a scene full
of such life and joy? Rarely. And it was Heero, no less. Amazing! She too couldn't
help but laugh as the girl gave Heero a flower.
It was a sweet scene, full of love and friendship. Compassion.
"Are you lost?" The girl asked.
And Heero replied with an answer that she could completely understand. "I've been
lost all my life."
And Usagi could feel it. The sudden tension in the air. The fear of what would come
next. And she was filled with dread.
No.
No...
NO!
Usagi's eyes widened as she found herself watching Heero place explosives all over
an OZ base. He paused for a moment, staring down at his work.
No....no....no...
This couldn't be happening. It shouldn't be happening.
The future held pain and death and a loss of humanity so great...that it would leave
Heero a lonely shell...no hope. No past. No present. No future. Just missions...
And Usagi watched as he left the base, staring at it for another moment. Emotion
filled his eyes...and her heart.
"NOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" It was a scream. Loud and clear. But unheard by the soldier
in front of her. It was her scream. Painful. Filled with emotion. But it wasn't her
pain. It...it was his!
As he pressed the detonator. As the base collapsed....and the mobile suits fell out
of control and onto an apartment building...
No.
Tears coursed down her cheeks. Tears of pain. Regret. Sorrow.
And she reached down towards the puppy just as Heero did. And it burned. The
feeling of death coming from it. A feeling she had become familiar with.
And the tears. They continued. And the death. It was all around. As Heero picked
up the puppy. Unshed tears were in his eyes...
Usagi watched silently...quiet sobs forming within her as Heero was trained. Sent
through the most horrible of trainings...and as he lost his humanity, she felt the
pain of it's disappearance.
This was Heero's dream. Heero's nightmare. It was his ghost and his guardian angel.
It was what kept him sane as he slept. The memories of times when he could live
and feel and sleep in peace.
~~Heero's Dream~~
Heero stared before him. Such a strange place. A strange room. Full of bunnies and
pink. He cringed slightly. A girl's room and it was obviously that of Usagi. In fact...
He stared down at the bed. And at the girl tossing and turning in it. Tears coursed
down her cheeks....and it was apparent that she was havnig a nightmare...and...
He reached down. She had a fever. Suddenly, a beeping sound filled the air and she
shot up and awake. Dazed, she fumbled with a communicator of sorts...
"Hai...?" She mumbled.
And an angry face appeared on the screen. "Come on, Moon! Trouble at the park!!"
And the face dissappeared.
Usagi cringed. "Mars." She mumbled and slowly got up, catching herself as she
collapsed. She was sweating and her eyes were glazed over. "Ow...damn..." She
mumbled as she forced herself to stand again...."Moon Prism Power!" Her weak voice
yelled...and she managed a spectacular transformation. And with it came renewed
strength! But he still couldn't forget the rings under her eyes and her pale skin...
The next thing he knew, he was in the park, and there was Usagi fighting a youma
with four other girls. Usagi dodged an attack from the youma...then another.
But she was slowing down...her sickness catching up to her. And it was obvious
that she wouldn't be able to dodge them all...
Heero cringed again, as an attack nicked her leg, causing it to buckle underneath
her. And she stared in fear...
...Then it happened. A black and red blur appeared, pulling her out of the danger
just in time...
And setting her back down on the ground.
She turned to him with hopeful eyes. "Mamo-chan?" She whispered, but he just
glared at her.
"You should be more careful, Sailor Moon." He growled out angrily, turning and
leaving before another word could be spoken.
And the tears filled her eyes...and he felt the pain. The deep, heartrenching pain
she must have been feeling at that moment....
And another attack headed towards her, and her eyes widened in fear...and the
scene was replaced with another scene.
Usagi was standing there, terrified. Tears pouring from her eyes. A new fuku and
new companions. Two lay behind her, badly beaten and dying. One stood in front
of her...glaive in hand and pointed towards Usagi. And there in the middle of
everything was a dark ball of dark energy. It moved slightly, sizzled with energy and
power...and it was calling out it's message of Death.
The pain and sorrow increased with every passing second, and the girl with the
glaive jumped into a dark energy.
Usagi paniced. "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" And Heero couldn't help it,
his own voice mingled with hers as he felt the pain grow even more. It heart his
heart...his mind...his soul.
And Usagi tried to help her friend...until she finally succeeded, tears coursing down
her cheeks...she transformed once more and followed the girl into death. A few
moments passed by, and Heero saw the energy dissappear. Usagi floated there with
a young child in her arms. Her eyes were blank...lifeless. And it terrified him
suddenly....as she dissappeared and in her place...was himself.
He lay there...lifeless. Dead. Having just destoyed his Gundam. But he wasn't
alone. There she was. Kneeling beside him. Feeling his pain...taking it upon herself.
He found himself gasping in pain, falling to his knees as he felt the pain she felt...
heard the thoughts she thought...wished the wishes she wished. And felt the death
she felt as she took death away from him...
And he was alive.
~~End dreams~~
Heero gasped away. The pain. The death. The sorrow. The truth.
It was all so real. It was all so terrible. For her to go through this pain. And to
live through it for all eternity.
Usagi was awake as well...and she was sitting there, rocking herself back and forth...
the pain. The death. The sorrow. The memory.
Their eyes locked. And both saw something new there. In Usagi's eyes was a deep
understanding of pain and sorrow and death. In Heero's eyes...humanity.
Tears poured down from both pairs of eyes...and she hugged him. His nightmare
was over...and hers would forever remain.
She kissed his lips softly before whispering. "Go to her."
Heero needed no more encouragement. He was out of the door and gone before
she could utter another word.
...And in the corner, hidden deep in the shadows. Wufei frowned.
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Dimando stared at the holographic image....not of Neo-Queen Serenity as he had
so often...but of Usagi. A girl no more than 20 years old...and so much more
beautiful than the Neo-Queen. "Just wait my Princess....you'll be mine. I've
searched for millenia for you, and I've finally found you. You are weakening every
day...and every day I grow closer and closer to taking you within my grasp."
And Saffir sighed softly, turning away. Millenia. An obsession that spanned time
and space...and soon.
Soon it would all be over. He could feel it. He could feel that soon it would end,
but who would win. Dimando or the princess...
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Wufei was angry. He didn't know why. But he was angry. At Heero. At Usagi.
What was happening between them? What was this feeling? This...jealousy?
He closed his eyes, forcing the tears he knew would be there to go back where they
came from. He would not let them hurt him. He would not let this...this ONNA take
control of his life.
He waited for Usagi to go back to her nightmarish sleep, then strode out of the room
towards his own. Soon, his reflection stood before him, and he glared at it.
So unfamiliar. So strange. He quickly pulled it back into a tight ponytail. And there
before him, was himself. Or was it who he used to be?...he wasn't sure.
But he did know this. The person before him was a coward. A weak coward who
had no honor. This person was himself in a way. Yet it wasn't. He wasn't sure he
knew who he was anymore.
But one thing was certain. He was not going to let Usagi rule his life. He was not
going to let the jealousy he felt stear him away from his mission.
He would not let the love show through. He would hide it away so no one could see
it. Love. It scared him. And he wouldn't allow it to anymore.
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I hoped you liked this one. Any question? REVIEW! Any comments? REVIEW! In
other words...REVIEW this fan fic! lol...Email me at psychemegami@yahoo.com
...Thanx!
~~Psyche~~
By: Psyche
Email: psychemegami@yahoo.com
Website: http://www.angelfire.com/anime2/paradox/
http://gundamwinghq.trifocus.net/
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Dear Readers,
I hope you liked last chapter...the truth is out...Dimando is the new enemy...and
they are all together now...but what part does Usagi play, you ask? ...Things aren't
always what they seem... winks Ja ne!
Love you all!!
~~Psyche~~
PS: On with the fic!!
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Chapter 4
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"Who is SHE!?!!" Duo asked once Usagi left. He was still staring at her as she
walked away...His eyes were wide as he stared at her. After she left, he turned
towards Wufei, a big grin on his face. "So, who is she?"
Wufei just grunted in annoyance.
Then Duo gasped, and his voice could once again be heard filling the entire estate.
"WUFEI! WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR HAIR!!!!!!!!"
(AN: drools...I love Wufei's hair...I especially love the idea of it down...drools
...Ae-chan walks over and hands her kleenex to clean it up...thanx!)
Wufei sighed angrily. "Go away, baka." He grumbled and walked back inside.
Duo glanced around for a second, stunned by everything that had happened. Then
he too rushed in, dragging Trowa and Quatre with him.
~~~~
Usagi sighed. It had been a long day, and she was tired. The five pilots were
finally together, and she could help them all. Heero with his hidden humanity...pain...
loss...Duo with his painful past...Trowa with his hidden emotions...Quatre with the
pains of war...and Wufei...with love.
She had talked with them for hours upon hours. Well...to Duo and Quatre. Wufei
just glared when she talked to them. Heero didn't speek. And Trowa just nodded
every now and then.
But now it was over, the questions were answered...well...kinda. And she was
tired. Very tired...She sighed again. Sleep. How she longed for it. She wished for
a peaceful sleep where only the darkness claimed her. But that didn't exist.
Instead, she fought her tired eyes. She fought the nightmares that continued to
coax her towards them...she fought-
"-Usagi-chan?"A voice interupted her struggle, and she opened drooping blue eyes
towards the one who spoke.
She smiled slight and replied groggily. "Hai, Hee-chan?"
"Are you okay?" Heero whispered, his own eyes were covered in a slight tired glaze.
He, too, was fighting sleep...and nightmares.
"Hai, arigotou." She said, sitting up. "I'm just tired...that's all."
"You should sleep," He replied, walking over and pushing her back under the covers.
But she quickly stopped him. Sleep was the last thing she needed right then.
"Iie, Heero." She shook her head. Their eyes met. (AN: *NOT* a Usagi/Heero fic!
Don't worry! But as all of you know, I like to use OTHER characters as well! I mean,
what kind of FREAK would not TALK to the other pilots....or...blushes...NEthing
else to the other pilots...winks...) And she saw in them the pain and loneliness.
He, too, had spent many nights fighting the sleep...fighting the nightmares....and
fighting the memories. His eyes filled with understanding as he stared into her's,
and Usagi saw a reflection of herself in it...She saw the lost soul inside. The child
waiting to break free. The same child that was within her...And she knew, she could
take his nightmares away, free him from the pain. Even if only for tonight.
And Usagi hugged the Perfect Soldier, surprising him...holding him close. "Sleep,
Heero." She whispered...commanded in his ear as he stiffened.
Heero opened his mouth to reply, but a soft butterfly kiss cut it short. And the warm
feeling he remembered so vividly filled him again. "Tenshi." He murmered, and he
couldn't fight it...and sleep claimed him.
Usagi smiled slightly before sleep claimed her too.
But she didn't realize that their dreams would be nothing like one would expect.
Neither recieved the blissful darkness they longed for...for Usagi had claimed his
nightmare as her own, and Heero gladly exchanged one nightmare for another...
~~Usagi's Dream~~
Laughter filled the air. Laughter. A sound rarely heard from Heero's lips. And it
was the laughter of a child. A child who loved to play. Who loved to sit in the
grass, staring up at the sky as he was now.
It was the laughter of a girl who was rushing towards him with her puppy.
Usagi smiled at the scene, staring at it in awe. Rarely had she seen a scene full
of such life and joy? Rarely. And it was Heero, no less. Amazing! She too couldn't
help but laugh as the girl gave Heero a flower.
It was a sweet scene, full of love and friendship. Compassion.
"Are you lost?" The girl asked.
And Heero replied with an answer that she could completely understand. "I've been
lost all my life."
And Usagi could feel it. The sudden tension in the air. The fear of what would come
next. And she was filled with dread.
No.
No...
NO!
Usagi's eyes widened as she found herself watching Heero place explosives all over
an OZ base. He paused for a moment, staring down at his work.
No....no....no...
This couldn't be happening. It shouldn't be happening.
The future held pain and death and a loss of humanity so great...that it would leave
Heero a lonely shell...no hope. No past. No present. No future. Just missions...
And Usagi watched as he left the base, staring at it for another moment. Emotion
filled his eyes...and her heart.
"NOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" It was a scream. Loud and clear. But unheard by the soldier
in front of her. It was her scream. Painful. Filled with emotion. But it wasn't her
pain. It...it was his!
As he pressed the detonator. As the base collapsed....and the mobile suits fell out
of control and onto an apartment building...
No.
Tears coursed down her cheeks. Tears of pain. Regret. Sorrow.
And she reached down towards the puppy just as Heero did. And it burned. The
feeling of death coming from it. A feeling she had become familiar with.
And the tears. They continued. And the death. It was all around. As Heero picked
up the puppy. Unshed tears were in his eyes...
Usagi watched silently...quiet sobs forming within her as Heero was trained. Sent
through the most horrible of trainings...and as he lost his humanity, she felt the
pain of it's disappearance.
This was Heero's dream. Heero's nightmare. It was his ghost and his guardian angel.
It was what kept him sane as he slept. The memories of times when he could live
and feel and sleep in peace.
~~Heero's Dream~~
Heero stared before him. Such a strange place. A strange room. Full of bunnies and
pink. He cringed slightly. A girl's room and it was obviously that of Usagi. In fact...
He stared down at the bed. And at the girl tossing and turning in it. Tears coursed
down her cheeks....and it was apparent that she was havnig a nightmare...and...
He reached down. She had a fever. Suddenly, a beeping sound filled the air and she
shot up and awake. Dazed, she fumbled with a communicator of sorts...
"Hai...?" She mumbled.
And an angry face appeared on the screen. "Come on, Moon! Trouble at the park!!"
And the face dissappeared.
Usagi cringed. "Mars." She mumbled and slowly got up, catching herself as she
collapsed. She was sweating and her eyes were glazed over. "Ow...damn..." She
mumbled as she forced herself to stand again...."Moon Prism Power!" Her weak voice
yelled...and she managed a spectacular transformation. And with it came renewed
strength! But he still couldn't forget the rings under her eyes and her pale skin...
The next thing he knew, he was in the park, and there was Usagi fighting a youma
with four other girls. Usagi dodged an attack from the youma...then another.
But she was slowing down...her sickness catching up to her. And it was obvious
that she wouldn't be able to dodge them all...
Heero cringed again, as an attack nicked her leg, causing it to buckle underneath
her. And she stared in fear...
...Then it happened. A black and red blur appeared, pulling her out of the danger
just in time...
And setting her back down on the ground.
She turned to him with hopeful eyes. "Mamo-chan?" She whispered, but he just
glared at her.
"You should be more careful, Sailor Moon." He growled out angrily, turning and
leaving before another word could be spoken.
And the tears filled her eyes...and he felt the pain. The deep, heartrenching pain
she must have been feeling at that moment....
And another attack headed towards her, and her eyes widened in fear...and the
scene was replaced with another scene.
Usagi was standing there, terrified. Tears pouring from her eyes. A new fuku and
new companions. Two lay behind her, badly beaten and dying. One stood in front
of her...glaive in hand and pointed towards Usagi. And there in the middle of
everything was a dark ball of dark energy. It moved slightly, sizzled with energy and
power...and it was calling out it's message of Death.
The pain and sorrow increased with every passing second, and the girl with the
glaive jumped into a dark energy.
Usagi paniced. "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" And Heero couldn't help it,
his own voice mingled with hers as he felt the pain grow even more. It heart his
heart...his mind...his soul.
And Usagi tried to help her friend...until she finally succeeded, tears coursing down
her cheeks...she transformed once more and followed the girl into death. A few
moments passed by, and Heero saw the energy dissappear. Usagi floated there with
a young child in her arms. Her eyes were blank...lifeless. And it terrified him
suddenly....as she dissappeared and in her place...was himself.
He lay there...lifeless. Dead. Having just destoyed his Gundam. But he wasn't
alone. There she was. Kneeling beside him. Feeling his pain...taking it upon herself.
He found himself gasping in pain, falling to his knees as he felt the pain she felt...
heard the thoughts she thought...wished the wishes she wished. And felt the death
she felt as she took death away from him...
And he was alive.
~~End dreams~~
Heero gasped away. The pain. The death. The sorrow. The truth.
It was all so real. It was all so terrible. For her to go through this pain. And to
live through it for all eternity.
Usagi was awake as well...and she was sitting there, rocking herself back and forth...
the pain. The death. The sorrow. The memory.
Their eyes locked. And both saw something new there. In Usagi's eyes was a deep
understanding of pain and sorrow and death. In Heero's eyes...humanity.
Tears poured down from both pairs of eyes...and she hugged him. His nightmare
was over...and hers would forever remain.
She kissed his lips softly before whispering. "Go to her."
Heero needed no more encouragement. He was out of the door and gone before
she could utter another word.
...And in the corner, hidden deep in the shadows. Wufei frowned.
~~~~
Dimando stared at the holographic image....not of Neo-Queen Serenity as he had
so often...but of Usagi. A girl no more than 20 years old...and so much more
beautiful than the Neo-Queen. "Just wait my Princess....you'll be mine. I've
searched for millenia for you, and I've finally found you. You are weakening every
day...and every day I grow closer and closer to taking you within my grasp."
And Saffir sighed softly, turning away. Millenia. An obsession that spanned time
and space...and soon.
Soon it would all be over. He could feel it. He could feel that soon it would end,
but who would win. Dimando or the princess...
~~~~
Wufei was angry. He didn't know why. But he was angry. At Heero. At Usagi.
What was happening between them? What was this feeling? This...jealousy?
He closed his eyes, forcing the tears he knew would be there to go back where they
came from. He would not let them hurt him. He would not let this...this ONNA take
control of his life.
He waited for Usagi to go back to her nightmarish sleep, then strode out of the room
towards his own. Soon, his reflection stood before him, and he glared at it.
So unfamiliar. So strange. He quickly pulled it back into a tight ponytail. And there
before him, was himself. Or was it who he used to be?...he wasn't sure.
But he did know this. The person before him was a coward. A weak coward who
had no honor. This person was himself in a way. Yet it wasn't. He wasn't sure he
knew who he was anymore.
But one thing was certain. He was not going to let Usagi rule his life. He was not
going to let the jealousy he felt stear him away from his mission.
He would not let the love show through. He would hide it away so no one could see
it. Love. It scared him. And he wouldn't allow it to anymore.
~~~~
~~~~
I hoped you liked this one. Any question? REVIEW! Any comments? REVIEW! In
other words...REVIEW this fan fic! lol...Email me at psychemegami@yahoo.com
...Thanx!
~~Psyche~~
