This chapter is dedicated to Crazy One, who gave me the idea I needed to continue the story

This chapter is dedicated to Crazy One, who gave me the idea I needed to continue the story!

Chapter 4

Heero carefully set down the small leather bound book as if it was about to disintegrate in his hands as he just held it. He was amazed that something so small and so seemingly insignificant could hold so many secrets and mean so much to someone. He never truly understood the power of words until now.

He never knew Duo had such feelings for him either. He just sat there on the edge of the bed, trembling. He shakily ran his hands through his hair. He slowly stood up, still quivering. He took a deep breath, still trying take everything in.

He stood there wondering if he had done the right thing, when suddenly he heard the soft thumping of footsteps on the stairs. He quickly walked out of the door, accidentally striking his arm on the doorway as he stalked out.

He ignored the pain shooting through his arm as he walked past Duo. He showed no emotion as usual. He couldn't bring himself to look at Duo. He knew if he looked, he might not ever be able to tear his eyes away from him.

Duo watched sorely as Heero ignored him, yet again. He wouldn't even look at him. He didn't even acknowledge Duo's presence as he passed him on the stairs. Duo sighed. He walked into the room and lied down on the bed.

Duo breathed in deeply. He wondered what would happen next. He picked up his journal, which was laying on his beside table. He opened it up.

*Wait a second . . .* he thought as he sat up with a start. *This wasn't in here before . . .* He began reading the entry:

Dearest Journal,

I guess I'm left here with you. You alone are the only one I can truly confide in. I can't express my feelings to anyone else. No one else could understand me. They wouldn't be able to understand. They couldn't understand.

I am so confused right now. I am lost and don't know what to do. I must confess to you that I am in love. I am in love with the most wonderful person in the universe. I know that I cannot express my love, not only because of the intense fear I have of rejection, but because of what might happen if they knew I loved them.

I know that if they found out, they probably wouldn't want me anymore. They would probably shun me as if I were some kind of a freak.

This does not stop my love. Even though I have to be the Perfect soldier, that cannot stand in my way.

Ai shiteru, Duo.

With all my heart,

Heero

Duo gasped.

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To be continued. . .