AN:
Don't kill me until you've read the ENTIRE fic!!!!! Just trust me on this one,
'kay? I think I put an interesting twist on this one.***Please read it all
before getting mad***
The
song is in these ...
DISCLAIMERS:
I don't own Magic Knight Rayearth (CLAMP does) or the song "Smile"
(Lonestar does). I get absolutely no money for writing this stuff This is MY
plot line, though.
Smile
a
Rayearth songfic by
Sakuya
Hecila
I
still remember the night we met/You said you loved my smile
Fuu, trudging through the garden of
Cephiro's castle late one afternoon, sighed as she remembered her first meeting
with Ferio in the Forest of Silence. She conned him into acting as bodyguard in
exchange for showing him the exit--even though the Magic Knights were lost,
too. He saved her from a monster impervious to weapons. When she smiled, he told
her she looked cute.
He always loved her smile.
But
your love was like a summer breeze/Oh it lasted for a while
It had been four years since the path
between Earth and Cephiro formed. Four years, and Fuu still loved Ferio more
than anything. She used to think he felt the same way; but not anymore. Lately
he had grown-distant. He seemed to have trouble speaking with her. And now he wanted
to meet her here to say something important. Fuu thought she knew what he
wanted to tell her, and she didn't want to hear. Her heart ached to think about
it.
"He's found someone else," she
sighed.
I
could hold on a little tighter I know/But when you love someone you gotta let
'em go
She gazed into the pool at the bottom of a
fountain. This was where Ferio had asked her to meet him. Resolved welled up
inside her. If Ferio no longer wanted her, then so be it. She craved only for his
happiness, even if it destroyed her. She had to let him go.
So
I'm gonna smile 'cause I want to make you happy/Laugh so you can't see me
cry/I'm gonna let you go in stlye/And even if it kills me/I'm gonna smile
'Right!' Fuu thought. 'It's his life, and
he can do what he wants. I know he'll feel bad if he knows how much I'm hurt,
so I'll smile. I won't let him now. I promised him I'd always smile for him, and
I will-no matter what.'
Fuu watched sorrowfully as Ferio's sloping
shadow appeared. She wiped away the tears and looked into his golden eyes.
Kiss
me once for the good times baby/Kiss me twice for goodbye/You can't help how
you don't feel/And it dosen't matter why
He brushed his lips across her hand. Worry
was clear in his expression; nervousness clung to his being. His anxiety, she
felt, came from his wish not to hurt her. She didn't want to be hurt, either,
but if he no longer felt love for her-well, then, that was that. Her heart ached,
desiring an explanation. She needed to know why he had led her on!
No, he didn't lead her on, she knew that.
He just thought he'd felt something different than he did. That was why he'd
been so distant lately-he'd needed to sort out his real feelings. She found she
didn't really need a reason for his mistakes.
Give
me a chance to bow out gracefully/Because that's how I want you to remember
me
"Fuu, would you like to sit
down?"
She accepted, setting herself on the rim
of the fountain. She wouldn't let him see her cry. She would be perfectly
elegant and understanding. She wished him to remember her that way; not as a simpering,
brokenhearted little girl, but a strong young woman who controlled her
feelings.
I'm
gonna smile, 'cause I want to make you happy/Laugh, so you can't see me cry/I'm
gonna let you go in style/And even if it kills me/I'm gonna smile
"What was it you wanted to talk
about?" she asked, wondering if he noticed the quiver in her voice. She
hoped the smile plastered on her face didn't look as false as it felt.
"Well..."
Fuu braced herself.
I'm
gonna smile so you can find the courage/Laugh, so you won't see me hurtin'/I'm
gonna let you go in style/And even if it kills me
"Fuu, we've been...together for four
years now," began Ferio.
It really was happening. He wanted to end
it. She would keep her promise, and smile. After all, he had been so far away
lately, it wasn't as if the admittance would surprise her. She only wondered
what his new love was like. Did she know how wonderful Ferio was? She had to;
no one could miss his perfection.
"Yes, we have," she whispered,
the pain in her heart worse than after the death of Emeraude and Zagato.
I'm
gonna smile
The smile never left her face, although
inwardly she felt her heart being cut out. With a spoon.
"And, well-" continued Ferio.
Why couldn't he just spit it out?! Was it
that hard to say 'I don't love you?' The smile wouldn't stay on Fuu's face for
much longer.
"I-I really don't know how to say
this, but-here goes. I want to spend the rest of my life with you."
Fuu's face faulted, her eyes widening.
'How?!' she asked herself. 'I thought...oh, who cares what I thought! I thought
wrong.' The smile no longer hurt her face. It became a true grin, widening as she
murmured, "Ferio-"
He place a finger on her lips.
"Ssh. I'm not quite finished. I asked
Umi and Hikaru about the Earth custom for such bonds, and they told me what to
do. I-I got a ring from Earth. It took me so long to find the right one, I
haven't had much time to spend with you. And then I didn't know how to ask you.
But I am doing it now. Fuu, I love you. Will you join with me in the Cephiran
custom of solgond*, and in the Earth custom of marriage?"
Fuu's smile now reached her eyes. She had
been afraid to look up at him after sitting down-first because she didn't want
to acknowledge that he was leaving her, and then because she thought that if
she looked up, this would turn out to be a dream-but now she gazed into Ferio's
golden eyes. They weren't nervous because he was frightened of hurting her;
instead, he was scared she would tell him 'no.'
Fuu wrapped her arms in his forest green
hair and pulled herself up. She whispered into his ear, "What do you
think?"
Ferio grinned and, seeing her beam back,
answered, "I think I love it when you smile."
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* I
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my new word for the Cephiran celebration of the joining of hearts. The word
belongs to ME!!!! So don't steal it without asking (like anyone'd want to ^_~)
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