USAGI
Dear diary,
I keep thinking about Mamoru. I miss him so much! I've written him tons of letters, and he hasn't replied to any of them. I mean, he can't be THAT busy at University, can he?
For some reason, I'm worried about him. I think there's something wrong. He wouldn't have gone this long without contacting me! I'm scared! I'm frightened that Galaxia may have gotten to him. I don't know what to do! My Mamo-chan! Please, come back!
I put down my pen, and close the diary. "Mamo-Chan… where are you?!" I whisper to the empty room.
I hear a small noise on my bed behind me, interrupting my thoughts. I look to see that Chibi-Chibi has changed positions. The little girl has been living with our family for the last few months. The other soldiers and I have no idea where she came from, but somehow my parents, and my brother, have been hypnotized into believing she's my little sister. Well! I think I would've remembered a little sister with bright red hair like that!
"Chibi…" the little girl mutters in her sleep, and sucks her thumb. She can't be much more then five! But who KNOWS where she came from! 'Chibi' is the only thing she says! Repeatedly! "Not much to go on, huh little one?" I say to the sleeping child.
I look around my room, and my eyes fall on my favourite picture. I go over to my dresser and pick it up. There I am, sitting beside Mamo-Chan. We're holding hands.
I sigh as I put the picture down, and a tear falls from my eye. So many things have happened in the last five years! I know I've changed. I used to be a crybaby… a klutz. Well… ok… so I'm STILL a klutz! But that's not the point! I have grown up faster in the last five years then ever before. I don't like it.
I clench my hands into fists. I just want to be a normal girl! I know, even if I HADN'T become Sailor Moon, that I would've still met up with Mamoru! That's all I want!! I just want to live in the present! Not the future… not the past! Just the present! Just like everyone else!
I look at the ring on my finger. Mamo-chan gave this to me before he left for University in America. My friends asked me if I knew what the ring meant. I didn't… at least not at first. But now I know. I know what this ring means. It means a pledge that Mamoru and I will be together.. forever. I smile at the thought. Mrs. Usagi Chiba! I like the sound of that!
I'm startled by the phone ringing beside my bed. I pick it up quickly, "Moshi moshi??" I say.
"Hey, odango atama!" The voice on the other line says. I'm annoyed that this person uses my nickname. The nickname was given to me by Mamo-chan after we had first met… though I don't mind Rei-chan using it once in a while.
I reflexively go to the two small buns on the top of my head. The small buns that hold two very long ponytails.
"Please, Seiya…" I say quietly over the phone, "don't call me that…"
"Why not..? I think it's cute," he replies.
I don't know why, but Seiya reminds me of Mamo-chan a little bit. He looks like him… and sometimes acts like him. But.. he's NOT my Mamo-chan -- though I know how he wishes he were. I'm more perceptive then people give me credit for. I know exactly how Seiya feels about me. But he knows that a broken heart is all he'll get from me. Of course, this hurts me too! I hate causing people pain! Especially a dear friend like Seiya. He has to understand though, I only have one love. And he's not here.
I sigh, "Never mind…" I say. No matter what I say, he's still going to call me odango atama. But I know he doesn't mean any insult by it.
"Chibi..?" a little voice says behind me. I turn around. Chibi-Chibi has woken up.
"Oh... Chibi-chibi! Go back to sleep… it's just Seiya…" I say to her. Even though she can only speak one word, I know she understands more. Much more then a child her age SHOULD understand. Chibi-Chibi tries to take the phone from me.. her grip strong for someone her age. I give her the phone.
"CHIBI!!" She yells happily into the phone, "Chibi, chibi, chibi!!"
I start to laugh. She's so cute!! For some reason, she's very much attached to Seiya… since the moment she met him. I don't know why. "Here.. give me the phone back!" I say, and take it gently from her. She lets out one more 'chibi' then curls up and goes back to sleep. "Sorry about that… she really likes you."
"No kidding!" Seiya replies. Suddenly, I hear the phone being taken from him.
"Sorry… Seiya has to go!!" This is Yaten's voice.
"Yaten! That's not nice!" I say.
Chibi-Chibi wakes up at my mentioning Yaten's name. "CHIBI!!" She shouts.
I smile. "Every time you guys call.. or come over, Chibi-Chibi gets all excited!" I say.
Yaten is silent for a moment… "Sometimes the princess is right under your nose…" he says quietly.
For a moment I hold my breath… does he know about my past life?? How could he know?? "Wh-what did you say…?" I ask nervously.
"Nothing… something stupid Minako said a few days ago…" Yaten replies.
It's then I realize it wasn't ME he meant when he made that Princess comment… but then who was it?? I look back at Chibi-Chibi… who's once again sleeping peacefully. Where DID she come from? I wonder again. "Is Seiya still there? Or did you tie him up somewhere?" I ask.
Yaten lets out a sharp laugh, "Maybe we SHOULD do that… what do you think, Taiki?! Think we should tie Seiya up?" He said. I could hear a muffled laugh in the background from Taiki… and Seiya asking for the phone back. "Sorry, Usagi… we have to get to work… good-bye," Yaten says, and hangs up the phone. I stare at the receiver for a moment, then finally cradle it.
I look once more at the picture on my dresser, "Mamo-chan… where ARE you!" I hear a small patter of padded feet enter my room, and look towards the doorway. There stands a small, black cat… with a crescent moon on her forehead. "Luna…" I begin, "What wrong?"
"Nothing," she begins. "I'm worried about YOU, though," she continues.
"Why?" I ask
"I know you miss Mamoru… but you have more important things to concern yourself with, Usagi. You have Galaxia to contend with. You cannot afford to be depressed!" She says. I have to admit, she's right. But Luna usually is! She's very wise… for a cat. And somehow I have a feeling that her -- and Artemis's -- current feline forms are just a disguise. I think there's more to them, but what, exactly? I don't know. I yawn loudly. "Go to sleep, Usagi-chan. Stop worrying about Mamoru… I'm sure he can take care of himself."
I nod. I AM very tired. I turn out the lights, and curl up beside Chibi-Chibi.
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