mt This is quite interesting... One of my favorite senshi ponders while waking up... Pretty short.

Morning Thoughts

I feel awake, yet asleep. And suddenly, when I think that thought, I think of my life. Really, I can't die. Basically, I've lived forever. But how can you have been living since who knows when, but only feel as if you've lived a mere twenty years? I can't remember anything before my "5th" birthday.

Sometimes, it makes you wonder. Did I really live in the Moon Kingdom at one time? Why is it that sometimes I'm born knowing my destiny, and sometimes I'm not? Is there really such thing as Crystal Tokyo? Well, more like, will there ever be?

When you have an outlook on life that you'll never die, does it make you stronger or weaker? Does knowing that if you die, you'll come back make you more foolish so that you don't stop to think of the outcome?

I'm like that a lot. Even before I knew I couldn't truly die, I never thought before running into battle. People who didn't truly know me would have said that it was an act of fearlessness. Little did they know that after almost every recent battle, I went to bed and cried. Cried from knowing I was weak. Cried because I was so confused.

Everybody thinks I'm strong. They think I'm tough. They don't think I cry. Heck, they don't think I even have the ability of crying. There's only two people that know I easily break down into tears, during certain situations. I'll cry like a small child in my lover's arms, only finding comfort there.

The other thing is... will I ever have kids? I kind of do already, but I don't. How confusing is that? I love the poor girl to death, even if few people know that.

I feel the body next to mine stir, and I open my eyes to meet her ocean blue ones.

I know the likelyhood of it is slim to none, but it'd be funny to have a little aqua-haired Ten'ou running around the house.