To My Dearest... part 2
To my Dearest Tai:
I never expected to hear from you, not now, not like this. I suppose in way I wanted to hear from you, it is nice.
Tk was right when he told you I was traveling the world with Matt. We're in Ireland right now. We've been so many places already, to Canada, to the United States, to France, To South America, and to England. We have so many things to see Tai, each one better then the last yet still leaving just as precious a memory. Ireland is so beautiful Tai, and in a way so sorrowful. The way the heavy mist sets in, blanketing everything in a drearyness. But then it leaves and with it, it takes the sorrow of it's people. It's fitting for when I recieved your letter. The day you left me at the alter I wanted to die, and for so long after that as well. But like the fog of Ireland I pushed myself from that state of mind and heart and moved on with my life. You weren't there and I had to stand on my own two feet, an experience that I will never forget.
When I did get your letter Matt had to open it for me, but he wouldn't read it, he said it was meant for my eyes only and so I read it myself. he trusted me with what you had written, he knew I would make the right choice and I believe I did. Your letter shocked me to my core. The way you spilled everything out to me like that in that letter. I cried Tai. I cried for myself, for what happened, I even cried for you. I don't know what it is you do to me to make me feel that way and I suppose that I never will, but I want you to know what's going on in my life, I want you to know how I feel.
I am with Matt now, and he is more to me then I could have ever dreamed he would be. He's truly wonderful, he's everything you were not Tai. I'm sorry to say that, but it's true. He's there when I go to sleep and he's there when I wake up and he's there every second in between. He has shown me the world in a new light, in a new way, and I love it. I love everything about it, nothing seems to big, too dark, too scary. I want to see more, learn more, do more, and I know that Matt will be there with me, to do that with me.
He's always there for me Tai, and I know he won't run from me like you did. I don't really blame you for what you did any more, some people just can't handle those situations. But I am sorry for what you did, what happened. Who knows what we could have been together if you had only shown up for your wedding, our wedding. Who knows where we'd be now. We could have been so happy Tai, we could have made it work. But I'm happy now, I'm happy with my life and I'm happy with who I'm spanding my life with.
I still love you Tai, I always will, but I can't go on hoping you'll return to me, because I know it's never going to happen. I don't want it to happen anymore, I won't put myself into that possition agian, I won't let myself be hurt like that again. You should have known what I'd say, you always knew exactly what I was thinking Tai, exactly how I felt.
I'd love to hear from you again, I really would. Perhaps we could salvage the friendship we left behind?
Yours truly,
Mimi Tachikawa
To my Dearest Tai:
I never expected to hear from you, not now, not like this. I suppose in way I wanted to hear from you, it is nice.
Tk was right when he told you I was traveling the world with Matt. We're in Ireland right now. We've been so many places already, to Canada, to the United States, to France, To South America, and to England. We have so many things to see Tai, each one better then the last yet still leaving just as precious a memory. Ireland is so beautiful Tai, and in a way so sorrowful. The way the heavy mist sets in, blanketing everything in a drearyness. But then it leaves and with it, it takes the sorrow of it's people. It's fitting for when I recieved your letter. The day you left me at the alter I wanted to die, and for so long after that as well. But like the fog of Ireland I pushed myself from that state of mind and heart and moved on with my life. You weren't there and I had to stand on my own two feet, an experience that I will never forget.
When I did get your letter Matt had to open it for me, but he wouldn't read it, he said it was meant for my eyes only and so I read it myself. he trusted me with what you had written, he knew I would make the right choice and I believe I did. Your letter shocked me to my core. The way you spilled everything out to me like that in that letter. I cried Tai. I cried for myself, for what happened, I even cried for you. I don't know what it is you do to me to make me feel that way and I suppose that I never will, but I want you to know what's going on in my life, I want you to know how I feel.
I am with Matt now, and he is more to me then I could have ever dreamed he would be. He's truly wonderful, he's everything you were not Tai. I'm sorry to say that, but it's true. He's there when I go to sleep and he's there when I wake up and he's there every second in between. He has shown me the world in a new light, in a new way, and I love it. I love everything about it, nothing seems to big, too dark, too scary. I want to see more, learn more, do more, and I know that Matt will be there with me, to do that with me.
He's always there for me Tai, and I know he won't run from me like you did. I don't really blame you for what you did any more, some people just can't handle those situations. But I am sorry for what you did, what happened. Who knows what we could have been together if you had only shown up for your wedding, our wedding. Who knows where we'd be now. We could have been so happy Tai, we could have made it work. But I'm happy now, I'm happy with my life and I'm happy with who I'm spanding my life with.
I still love you Tai, I always will, but I can't go on hoping you'll return to me, because I know it's never going to happen. I don't want it to happen anymore, I won't put myself into that possition agian, I won't let myself be hurt like that again. You should have known what I'd say, you always knew exactly what I was thinking Tai, exactly how I felt.
I'd love to hear from you again, I really would. Perhaps we could salvage the friendship we left behind?
Yours truly,
Mimi Tachikawa
