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Should we start again? - Part 3

I do not love thee! - no! I do not love thee!
And yet when thou art absent I am sad;
And evy even the bright blue sky above thee,
Whose quiet stars may see thee and be glad.

I do not love thee! - yet, I know not why,
Whate'er thou dost seems still well done, to me:
And often in my siltude I sigh
That those I do love are not more like thee!

I do not love thee! - yet, when thou art gone,
I hate the sound (though those who speak be dear)
Wich breaks the lingering echo of the tone
Thy voice of music leaves upon my ear.

I do not love thee! - yet, thy speaking eyes,
With their deep, bright, and most expressive blue,
Between me and the midnight heaven arise,
Ofterner than any eyes I ever knew.

I know I do not love thee! - yet, alas!
Others will scarcely trust my candid heart;
And often I catch them smiling as they pass,
Because they see me gazing where thou art.


"I do not love thee"
Caroline Elizabeth Sarah Norton (1808 - 1877)
English Writer




Lily sighed.
She really should have chosen another guy. Kevin, lying next to her had
just lighted the famous cigarette and was grinning happily. The only thing
missing was...

"And?" he interrupted her thoughts, "How did you like it?"
Oh great! So this was what she had left her dorm for. And she had
nearly been caught by one of the teachers, who wasn't as nice as Sirius and
James.
Lily got up and started to dress slowly.
"Where are you going?"
She could imagine perfectly well Kevin letting go of his stupid
cigarette, staring at her, trying to get his little brain to work so he could
understand why she was doing this.
She fastened the last button of her shirt and turned around.
"I'm sorry Kevin, but I really don't think we should be together. It
just doesn't work."
He stared at her in disbelief.
"You're not serious, are you?"
She shrugged.
"Well, I think I am. Face it, you don't fit in my world and I don't fit
into yours. I'm going to be an auror; you going to be lucky to survive this
course. You need a girl who will look up to you, and always be hanging
on your side. I can't give you that because I'm not like that."
Kevin put out his cigarette and looked at her so seriously that it made
her uncomfortable.
"It's because of James, isn't it?"
She looked at him, her eyes open wide. Did he knew her better than she
had thought?
"No, what makes you think that?"
He smiled.
"Oh come on, it's obvious. The way you look at each other...you know.
But it's your decision. Probably it's better this way. Most likely we won't
see each other again after this week."
He shrugged his shoulders, got up and embraced her clumsily for the
last time. She smiled at him and then left without looking back.

"Who's there?"
Polly dully lifted her head and tried to recognize the person who was
standing in the doorway.
"It's only me" said Lily's voice.
"What are you doing here? Didn't you want to be with Kevin?"
"I broke up with him."
Immediately the black haired witch was wide awake.
"How come? Because of James? Tell me!"
Lily sighed, closed the door and went to her bed where she began
changing clothes.
"No, not because of James... it is only... I understood that we don't
fit together. That's all. He understood."
Polly looked disappointed.
"That's all? He didn't even got angry or something like this?"
Lily laughed but immediately put a hand in front of her mouth, because
one of the other witches in the room turned over and muttered something she
couldn't understand.
"No, he showed some intelligence and understood, like I said already.
And now I want to sleep, good night!"
With that she had lay down in her bed and fell asleep.
Polly stared in space grinned, thinking about what Lily had just told
her.

When the two girls entered the hall the next morning Polly immediately
ran to Sirius and dragged him away from Lily and James, who stared after
them astonished.
James looked at Lily with a puzzled look.
Is she pregnant?" he asked.
Lily, who was pouring some tea into a glass, nearly knocked it over
when she started to laugh hysterically.
"No, I don't think so," she said when she finally had calmed down.
"But I dunno what's up with her."
James frowned.
"Well... I think we will know it soon enough."
Lily nodded and turned to her toast. James stood looking at her
thoughtfully.

Sirius looked at Polly with very big eyes, then looked at James and
Lily and than at his girlfriend again.
"Do you know that's the best thing that could happen?"
Polly nodded with eyes sparkling.
"Yes, now there's nothing standing in their way any more..."
Sirius shook his head.
"Well, except for the fact that they both don't want to admit that they
are still in love with each other. But I think that could be changed..."
He grinned meanly and Polly began to laugh.
"Poor Lily and James..."

Lily bent over next to Polly. Polly had finally given up staring
dreamily at Sirius during the lessons. She knew that she didn't learn anything if
she was always dreaming about Sirius.
"Do you know where Kevin is?" Lily asked
Polly looked at her questioningly.
"Why do you want to know? You aren't a couple anymore."
"Well, but I'm still allowed to want to know where he is, am I ?"
Polly shrugged.
"If you say so... He went away yesterday afternoon. After you two broke
up, there was nothing holding him here anymore. At least that is what he
told Sirius.
"So...Lily....now, that Kevin is gone, which guy are you interested
in?"
Lily looked at her with a puzzled look..
"How do you want to know that I'm still interested in a relationship?"
Giggling said her friend: "Well, at the beginning of the course it
seemed that you were more interested in the boys here than in the stuff we're
here to learn..."
An angry look from Lily let her continue quickly.
"Well, what I wanted to say, you and James look like..."
She couldn't say more because the look Lily gave her was even more
angry than the one before.
"Hey, what do you think of me? That I'm going start a new relationship
as soon as the last one ended? And, why does everybody think James and I
feel more than friendship for each other? He has already betrayed me one
time, I couldn't start anything with him again, even if I wanted!"
"It's OK. It is only that you two look like you are in love again.
Perhaps he has changed?"
Lily didn't seem to be able to think of a good reply; she turned to the
board again, on which now a few notes were written and quickly began
copying these.

At the end of the lesson Sirius waved the two girls goodbye and then
dragged James, who wanted to follow them outside, back into the classroom.
He placed himself in front of James and looked at him with a fatherly
expression on his face.
"Well, we have to talk boy..."
James looked at him confused.
"Sirius, what's this for? And since when do you call me ‚boy? I'm older
than you, did you forget that?"
Sirius grinned.
"Well, I noticed that you were very absent this lesson..."
James raised an eyebrow questioningly.
"... because you were staring at a girl the whole time"
"If you are talking of Lily..."
"Well, do you have a plan of how to make her yours?"
James seemed to get more angry with every word.
"I don't have one, because I don't want to 'make her mine'. She broke
up with Kevin just one and a half days ago. She and I have been through
this together before. We know from experience that we don't fit together."
Sirius grin widened (if this was possible).
"Well, perhaps I'm wrong, but I've observed the looks you two exchange.
I don't think it is impossible as you make it seem."
James only shrugged and turned to the door again.
"Ok, Padfoot, if you want to think the wrong way, I won't stand in your
way. But please don't pull Lily in that. I don't want her to be hurt again."
With that he went away.
Sirius looked after him and then also went to his next class, happily
humming. If James hadn't said the last sentence Sirius would have
nearly had believed him.

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OK, this is the next part. I hope you like it and please please please review!!!!

And I need my English to get better, because I will go to the USA for one year in July or August, would some of you like to become my mail friend (is this the right word?)? Mail me : sonnchen_de@yahoo.de

Thanks to Habile Gal for correcting the major mistakes again.

@Steffi Silberstreif: Ups, ich hab nicht gewusst, dass Petunia das gesagt hat

(*grummel* ich hab den ersten Band nicht, sondern meine

Schwester und sie gibt mir den nie,

d.h. ich hab ihn erst einmal gelesen... *seufz*)

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