BPOV

"I really don't have the strength to stay away from you anymore," he said.

And what did that mean?

"You asked me if I regretted what happened between us," he said, "And I said I did."

Yes, but I didn't want to hear that again!

"Yes, I regretted it," he said, "Because it shouldn't have happened like that."

"What does that mean?" I asked.

"Bella..." he sighed, "There were times I wanted to ask you out."

Ummm... what?

Was I dreaming?

"But I didn't," he said, "Because I was scared that I'd somehow mess it up, and I thought you deserved better."

I didn't think I was able to process anything he was saying!

"And I've indeed messed up in the worst possible way," he said with frustration.

"Tanya and I were supposed to get divorced," he continued, "If I had asked you after getting the divorce... Or actually, if I hadn't got married to her at all and if I had asked you out before that, everything might have been just... perfect! But now it's nothing but a mess!" he buried his head in his hands.

My head was spinning.

What the hell was he talking about?