Chapter 4: Mixed Feelings

Author's Note: This is basically Kari thinking about TK then Davis while trying to deal with her feelings.

Disclaimer: I don't own Digimon. If you've read the pervious chapters' Disclaimers, you'll know that I listed what would happen if I owned Digimon. Well, here's some other stuff: Gatomon would sound like Xena, Warrior Princess, complete with the battle cry, Wormon would be on two feet and be five times bigger, Veemon would be green instead of blue, Tokomon would be red instead of pink and I would create a character like me that would be a Digidestined and she'd have Terriermon as a partner Digimon.

Always Hope And Light
by: Miss Wings Of Love

Chapter 4: Mixed Feelings

I was in the Digiworld, on File Island, under the same tree Davis and I were sitting under yesterday. I was writing in my diary. Gatomon was sitting next to me, chillin' out.

"Dear Diary,

It's amazing how things can change in a matter of months…I thought TK would be around for good and I thought Davis was born a jerk and could never change. I was wrong about both of them. 0 for 2. What can I say??? That changes things now…and makes me so confused now! I seriously wish things were different. I don't know…possibilities, possibilities…ugh! Tai and Sora just tried to convince me to help plan a goodbye party for TK. I told 'em to leave without me. I wish I could just…tell TK the way I feel inside. But we're only best friends. That's the way he sees me. That's the way it's gotta be.

Kari"

I couldn't believe it! How could they expect me to accept that my best friend in the whole entire world is leaving me behind??? How could they expect me to help plan a party where everyone's gonna be saying goodbye to him??? NO FREAKIN' WAY I'm doing it. I refuse to have anything to do with it.

"Kari, you're not okay about TK moving away, are you?" Gatomon's voice broke through my thoughts.

I answered truthfully, "No, I'm not…"

"Well, why not?"

"Because he's my best friend…I want to share everything with him."

Gatomon gave me a Look.

"My best human friend, Gatomon. You'll always be my best Digimon friend."

"Okay…"

"Are you mad???"

"No! Now about TK, you still can share things with him if you e-mail him."

"There's more than that…"

"Tell me, 'coz I wanna understand…"

After a moment of silence, I looked at my watch and said, "I gotta go, Gato!"

Gatomon replied, "Okay, see ya later!"

I returned to the real world just in time to hear a knock on my door.

"Kari, you all right?" I heard Tai ask me.

As I hid my diary, I replied, "Yeah!"

"Sora's here with me. Can we talk to ya?"

Great! I betcha they're gonna drown me with questions about why I didn't wanna plan the party with them.

"Okay," I said as I unlocked the door. I don't know why, but I let them in.

Tai came into my room, followed by Sora. I plopped onto my bed while Tai took my desk chair and pulled it up close to my bed and Sora sat by my feet on my bed.

"Guess what? TK's leaving in five days. Right now, it's Monday. He'll busy packing for three days then we're having the party the day before he leaves, which is Thursday!" Tai told me excitedly.

"Great…" I said with any enthusiasm.

Sora gently said, "Kari, I know you'll miss TK, but you have accept the fact that he's leaving…"

I knew that was true but I stubbornly turned away, refusing to listen.

"Okay, so, we'll leave ya alone, okay?" Sora said as she put her right hand through my hair.

"We're going out to the park for a while…it's a beautiful day! Whenever you feel like it, come and join us!" Tai added.

Finally, they left my room. God, I can't stop thinking about TK…I'm gonna miss him so much.

A while later, a thought crept my mind…Davis. One memory in particular came to mind…it was he and I when we were in the schoolyard once. He was trying to teach me to play soccer once while TK had basketball practice.
[Author's Note: This moment was NOT on the TV show. I (Miss Wings Of Love) MADE IT UP!]

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"Oh, Davis, I was never really good at this…"

"Aw, don't say that! You're a natural!"

"Seriously, ask Tai!"

"Come on! Try one on me! Kari Kamiya shoots…and she scores!"

"You just let that by on purpose!"

"No I didn't! I play forward, not goalie…I couldn't get that!"

"Liar! Davis Motomiya, I'm gonna get you!"

~*~*~

I remembered chasing Davis for while. It was great…but how did my train of thought change from TK to Davis? Great! As if I couldn't be more confused. I guess…I like Davis too. Whoa! Too strange! Just then, the phone rang.

I grabbed it and answered, "Hello, Kamiya residence!"

"Hey, Kari, it's Davis!"

What was he, a mind reader? I was just thinking about him and then he calls? That was too freaky for me!

"Hey, what's up?" I said.

"Did you get a call from Matt about a surprise farewell party for TK?"

"Uh, no, but Tai told me about it. He helped Matt plan it with Sora."

"Are you showing up?"

I was surprised. I didn't expect Davis or anyone else asking me that.

"Well, Kari?"

"Why wouldn't I show up? It's gonna be the last time all of us Digidestined will be together…"

"I just kinda sensed you might not 'coz it would be too hard for you to say goodbye to TK."

"Davis, I wouldn't miss it for the world!" I lied to him.

"Good…you'll regret it if you don't say goodbye. I can see how hard it is for you but you just gotta accept his leaving…and don't worry about TK forgetting you 'coz no one can forget a girl like you. We're all gonna miss him but…that's the way it's gotta be."

"So, I'll catch ya later, Davis?"

"Sure! Later, Kari!"

"Bye, Davis."

I knew Davis was right. Strangely enough, he said the same things Tai and Sora tried to tell me. Why did I listen to him and not to Sora and Tai? Strange, huh? He…ugh, Davis! God, why make things complicated for me?

I changed into my black sweatpants and yellow tank top. I grabbed the matching sweatshirt that went with the pants and tied it around my waist. I grabbed my keys to the apartment, my D-Terminal and my D3 from my dresser, put 'em in my pink backpack, left my room, and left the apartment. I locked the door behind me and went on my way. I grabbed my pink bike outside the building and made my way to find Sora and Tai at the park. I figured there was no sense staying home and moping around.