Chapter one: It's over?
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Silently, Heero leaned back in his chair, a vague expression of disappointment searing his face.
"What do you mean, you don't love me?"
Exasperated, Relena threw up her arms. "Heero! HELLO? Nande kuso! What do you expect me to say?" Heero stared at her, blankly. Expect her to say? Hmph! What do you usually expect people to say when you confess love to them? Heero gazed at the floor, then started roughing up the dank blue carpet with the tip of his loafers.
Heero suddenly looked up at Relena, his eyes confused, and his body…nervous? "Relena, I…I'm sorry, ok? I know I'm not exactly…the most expressive person---"
"THAT'S an understatement!"
"—but listen to me, please." Steadily, Heero looked at Relena, but she wasn't responding like he had hoped, had expected, she would. Her usual chipper self was cold, sort of resentful. He almost felt like she hated him. How could this have happened? And so quickly? Something was obviously wrong….but Heero couldn't think of what it could be. Here he was, FINALLY coming out of his shell about he feels about her, expecting this excited warm welcome from her, but no. She has to be like this. Queen of the World gone PMS. Would his misery ever end? "I love you Relena." Standing up, Heero reached out to touch her, looking her in the eye hoping for an intense, critical moment, but instead she backed away slowly, defensively, like he was going to hurt her. Why is she acting like this? What is wrong with her?
"Look, Heero…." Relena turned her head to face him, her eyes a little red and puffy, her voice….. distant? "It's just that .. over the past few days, or rather, month, I've been thinking, you know, about my life? And well I..I just don't see it….us…happening." Tears started to stream down her cheeks.
A pain exploded inside of Heero's heart that sent him stumbling backwards, into his chair, clutching his chest. It hurt…so much..those words…they cut like a saber.
"Relena?…" Heeros voice quivered, scaring him, "Relena, what are you saying? Please..God..no…" The pain was deepening, slicing his heart. This couldn't be true? She was playing games..she had to be. But Relena? Play mind games? That..that wasn't like her…at all.
"Look Heero! I'm SORRY! Ok? I'm sorry…it's just that.. I'm Queen of the World, right? The most powerful politician existing, right? And I…I don't think this relationship is healthy…for me. For the world." Her visage suddenly became hard. "You're not exactly the most stable person, you know. You never let me know what's going on inside your head! You always leave me confused, hanging on a limb, concerned about you. I never know where you are, what you're doing! For all I know, I'll wake up tomorrow morning and hear on the news that you've blown yourself up in your freaking gundam!" She glared at him. "And frankly, I'm sick of it!"
Pow. She hit him right where it hurt the most. Was it really his fault he was so secretive, so sly about his emotions? That was how he was brought up. Dr. J had taught him to be this way. Damn him! This is all his fault…right?
Heero searched Relena's face. It was cold, next to emotionless. The tears and puffy eyes from earlier had vanished; it was almost like that array of emotions had never even surfaced.
Now she was pacing, like a cat, circling him. "You know Heero, I loved you the moment I found on the beach. Remember that day, Heero? When I pulled your helmet off, tried to help you? And you ran away. But I…" Did he see pain? "..I didn't care. I knew I would see you again, I knew you'd find me." She laughed darkly, and something…ugly..flashed in her eyes, "And you did. You found me. And I found you. And you know what Heero? It's been two years since we've met. And it took you two years to tell me you loved me?!"
That was it. That was what was bothering her. Heero stared at her, blankly.
"WELL? Aren't you going to say something? Or neko got your tongue?"
"I…I….I'm…sorry?"
"You're sorry, are you?!" Relena glared at him, burning holes,"Well you know what? I'm NOT. I'm over you Heero, I'm moving ON." Relena then started to pace around the room frantically, as if she was searching for something. "Where….is...it..? " She mumbled under her breath.
"What is it? What are you looking for?" Heero rose from his seat, reaching out to help her.
"STOP IT! Don't TOUCH me!" Relena pulled back, her eyes crazy for a moment. "I've got to..get out of here…so many….memories…"
As she left, Heero could've swore he saw tears in her eyes. But even if there were tears in those precious blue eyes of hers, he doubted they could ever match the ones flowing out of his.
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It was later that night, while lying on his back on his bed, staring at the ceiling, Heero realized what had really happened earlier. It was over. He and Relena were done. Finished. Never to be resurrected.
"Grooaaann…." Heero turned over in his bed, pain shooting from his chest like a lightning bolt, obviously left over from his unfortunate encounter earlier that day.
A braided head shot up from a bed across the room. "Heero? Is that you?"
Heero didn't reply.
"Heero?"
Silence.
A pair of feet quietly skipped across the room over to Heero's bed.
"HEERO?" Duo whispered urgently into Heero's ear.
"WHAAAAT?!?!" Heero whispered back loudly, angrily. It took all the might he had to refrain himself from tackling the annoying American idiot right then and there. He always did this…. and at the MOST inconvenient times!
Satisfied with getting an answer, Duo plopped himself down on Heero's bed.
"Whatcha thinkin'??"
"Go away."
"Nawwww….you couldn't have been thinking that!"
Heero sat up, and looked at Duo. Duo's hair was slightly messy, with it's random pieces of soft, brown hair peeking out from his typical every day braid. His eyes were wide and cheerful, like they usually were. And he was…naked?
"Oh! GOD Duo! Where are your friggin clothes?"
"Over there!" He pointed at a small dark pile next to his bed.
"And you're not wearing them because….?"
Duo looked at Heero uncomfortably. "Well I…I like to sleep in the nude. It makes me feel free. Why? Is there something wrong with that?" Heero rolled his eyes.
"BESIDES! We're getting beyond the point here! The point IS, is that YOU groaned. LOUDLY. Now tell me, physcotherapist Duo Maxwell, what's bothering you?"
Heero looked at him, a sullen expression taking over his disgusted look. He slowly let his head droop. "You really want to know?"
All of a sudden, it hit Duo how serious this really was. Heero really WAS in pain. And to think that Duo was doing this only because he was bored and it seemed like Heero was the only one of the other boys that was awake! What luck! But seriously….Heero….open up to …HIM? It was unheard of. But definitely something he should use to his advantage!!
Duo put a comforting hand on Heero's shoulder. "Man, what happened?"
Heero scrunched up his face, forcing himself to relive earlier that morning..to hear her words echo inside his mind..
"You're sorry, are you? Well you know what? I'm NOT. I'm over you Heero, I'm moving ON."
"Relena…dumped…me."
Quizzically, Duo searched Heero's face. "Dumped you? You mean you guys were going out??"
"Maxwell…….."
"Ok! Ok! Sorry! What do you mean, exactly….dumped you? What happened?"
Heero rubbed his eyes, once again, forcing himself to remember. "It was almost like..she had enough of it..enough of me. I don't know exactly. She wasn't very clear…but she was very clear that we were through. I think that maybe she thought I wasn't fit for her? Like, she couldn't be the proper queen with me as her..err…boyfriend? I don't know, Duo. I really don't know."
Duo leaned back against the post of Heero's bed, soaking in this critical information. Who would have knew that Relena, Heero's…erm..stalker, would dump him? Amazing.
"Soo…" Heero said, "what do you…think?"
"I don't know, Heero." Duo looked at his friend with some genuine concern on his face. "I really never ever saw THIS coming. I mean…man! I thought you guys were gonna like, get hitched or somethin'! I mean, DANG! I saw KIDS!" A sudden pain filled Duo's gut.
Heero laid back onto his bed, and pulled his blanket over his head. "Good night, Duo."
"Good..night…Heero." Duo gasped for breath as he carried himself back to his bed, clutching his stomach where Heero had unmercifully let him have it.
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authors notes
Ame kotori- ::she is sitting at her computer typing, occasionally sipping her glass of overly sweetened tang::
Heero- ::bursts into the room, wavering his trademark (you guessed it!) gun above his head:: OMAE O KOROSU!!
Kotori- Eek!! ::throws her spinach pie at his head::
Heero- ::the pie smacks him square in the face:: Ooof.. ::the pie plops onto the ground, leaving his face speckled with bits of strained spinach and olives::
::Gives her a glare:: -_-
Kotori- O.O what do you want?
Heero- ::pauses:: WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO ME?!
Kotori- Sumimasen? ::gets a fake oblivious look::
Heero- Don't you play games with me, you little…you little…..
Kotori- ::leans back in her computer chair, and starts to twirl her long hair around her finger suggestively:: You'll just have to WAIT and SEE!! ::hehehe:: How does it feel to not be in control of anything, Heero, eh?
Heero- ::sulks:: It sucks. -.-;
Yeah well…that's chapter one…r&r, k minna-san? I'm really not to sure where I'm going with this o.O;; I originally started it intent on a Gundam Wing / Sailor Moon crossover…but I'm still not sure WHAT I want to do! Tell me what you guys think should maybe happen? I'd like to see what you guys would predict. I have a somewhat vague idea..but..you know how it goes. Another chapter should be posted tomorrow!
Arigato for reading, minna-san! Very much appreciated!
