Ok peoples Rose here. Umm hi. Ok well I dont own Gundam Wing, You all know that I hope. Well anyways I'm not making money off this and probably never will. Now on with the story.
"What is this emotion I feel. What is this overwhelming sensation I keep having." I asked myself.
I was in the local park near my apartment building, laying on a grassy hill-side with my hands behind my head. I was staring at the clouds but now I was just thinking.
I felt an emptiness inside. Almost like someone had gutted all meaning for life out. I had a weird longing inside for something I never realized I had within my grasp. This place held so many memories for me, that had always brought on happiness, but now it just reminded me of how alone I really was. I always had someone here with me on this base, my friends, my fellow cadets, and of course my sister. I also had Derek. I thought he was the true love of my life.
I guess I never realized that I was on the verge of true happiness when I turned him down. When I left him there thinking he had me forever, I was afraid of the commitment, the life-long goal I was facing.
I was so afraid of him. I was afraid of my life with him. Would my life with him bring sadness and constant problems? Or would I be happy? I don't even remember why I was so scared. I guess I will never know how it would of turned out.
Oh well, I'm somewhat happy now and, I guess that's all that matters.
