Title: Healing

Title: Healing

Part: 1

Author: starlight032000@yahoo.com

Feedback: please!

Pairings: 5+3

Spoilers: none

Warnings: umm....Tro getting hurt, Fei being a lil angsty

Rating: PG

Disclaimer: I don't own the GW boys or anything related to the show!!! (although I wish I did!)

Healing: Part 1

Starlight

I finally got to go in to see Trowa. I had been prepared for his appearance, but I was still quite shocked. He looked so small and weak lying in the hospital bed hooked up to the various machines that were helping him stay alive and keep track of his vital signs. The doctor had told me to talk to him since it could greatly increase his chances of pulling through the coma. I gently placed a kiss on his forehead before I pulled a chair up and began talking to him.

"Hey Tro, I don't know if you can really hear me, but it's Fei. I'm so sorry that this happened to you. I almost fell like this is my fault because if I had been there for you sooner you wouldn't have gotten hurt. I just hope that you will be alright. We promised each other we would make it through this war alive and you hate breaking your promises, especially to me. I don't know what I would do without you so please don't leave me. I love you so much."

I really didn't know what else to say. Sure, there were millions of thoughts running through my head, but I couldn't figure out how to voice them. All I know is that I want my angel back; I don't know if I could face life without him by my side. After all, we did promise each other to live through this damned war so we could have a life together.

Flashback

I was lying on Tro's head after a session of our lovemaking. I felt most relaxed at times like these when it was just us two and we forgot about the war and everyone else. We so rarely got to have time together like this and we both treasured moments like this.

"Fei, I love you."

"I love you too Tro."

"I have a question for you."

"What is it?"

"Have you thought about what you want out of life after the war ends?"

"No, not too much. I never wanted to because I wasn't sure if I would live to see the end of it."

"I have a little, but I'm like you. I'm surprised that I'm still alive today. Do you think we will stay together after the war."

"Of course we will, why do you ask?"

"I was just curious. I was hoping you would say yes. I have another question to ask you."

"Go ahead."

"Will you promise to try your best to live through the war so we will have a life together?"

"Yes Tro, but you must promise me the same thing."

"I promise you that I will never leave you Fei."

Tro kissed the top of my head as he ran his fingers through my hair. I sighed contentedly and fell asleep safe in his arms.

end flashback

I wished I could go back to that time and place. Life just wasn't fair! Why in the hell did this have to happen to Tro instead of me? He had never done a thing to deserve this whereas I deserved to be the one lying in that hospital bed. I walked into the bathroom and punched the wall. It stung my knuckles, but I didn't care. My angel was suffering more than my hand ever would. I still believe it's all my fault; if I would have noticed sooner I could've helped and totally prevented this! I was furious with myself, furious at Oz, and the whole damned world. I walked back to Tro's bedside. He looked so peaceful when he slept; I loved watching him sleep, but hated it under these circumstances. I heard someone enter the room and looked up.

"Duo?"

"Hey Wufei, are you alright?"

"I'm as good as I can feel with Tro lying here beside me. How did you find me?"

"Well, me and the guys were getting worried about you. Heero hacked his way through to find any information that would lead us to you two, you know how he is. I was sent to make sure you guys were alright."

"I'll be better once Tro gets better."

"How bad is he?"

"He lost a lot of blood from a head injury, a few broken and bruised ribs, and a coma."

"Trowa is in a coma?!?"

"Yes. I just hope that he pulls out of it."

"What happened?"

"Someone had the calculations wrong and we got slammed. Tro was worse off and I didn't reach him in time. I could've prevented this from happening."

"Wufei, it's not your fault. You cannot blame yourself for something that happened in battle. People get hurt and it would have happened sooner or later to one of us, I'm just sorry that it had to happen to Trowa. I'm not trying to just brush this off, I just don't want you to get sick with guilt. Please go to the safehouse. If anything happens or he wakes up I'll call, I promise. Here, this is the address where we are at."

I had to think about this. Duo did have a good point; Trowa wouldn't be too happy if I got sick because I neglected my needs. I was just reluctant to leave, but Duo did say he would call immediately.

"Okay, I'll let you stay here with him. Try to talk to him; the doctor said it will increase his chances of pulling out of the coma. I'll be back as soon as I rest up. Just remember to call me if anything happens."

"Sure thing."

"Thank you Duo."

"It's no problem. I know you would do the same thing for me if I was in this situation."