****These chapters are about a year after Juliette's mom got remarried. Sorry I didn't say that before****


Thursday afternoon Juliette was beginning to feel a little depressed. Her mom's one year anniversary was coming up - in one week to be exact - and she hadn't even gotten an invitation to the party. How did she know there'd be a party? Well, Juliette's mom loved to throw them. They were all huge, extravagent parties. Her mom always made the biggest deal out of "milestone years," as she called them. Huge parties for big birthdays (and anniversaries) such as 1, 5, 10, 13... But at 16, those parties stopped, at least for Jules. She cut herself and was buliemic and taken to Horizon about a month before her 16th birthday. Her mom didn't even send her a birthday card. She didn't send one for her 17th birthday, either. It seemed as though Juliette ceased to exist to her mother. But she wanted so badly to be included in her mother's 1-year anniversary. But, no such luck. Going home - for even an anniversary party - required at least a 2 week-month notice. And here it was, seven days to go, and that meant she wouldn't be going.
She had changed so much over the year. She wanted to show her mom her "new self." Sure, she still had times when she had to fight back the urge to cut herself, or to throw up her food. But, she wasn't under weight nor over weight. She was healthy, and she was actually enjoying life. Her mom came to parent's night twice, and since then Juliette changed the most. But Juliette hadn't heard from her mom in over 2 months. That did nothing to make her feel better.
Jet, Shelby, and Daisy were playing basketball with the guys. Juliette had stayed to watch for a bit. For once, the teams were coed. It kind of creeped her out that Kurt barely paid attention to the game. When she left he was still watching. She needed some time alone to think.
She went to the bathroom and washed her face. She caught a glimpse of Daisy's razor and was extremely tempted to take it and cut herself. She needed some sort of outlet at the moment. But, she decided against it. She didn't want another shot, or a scar, or a phone home to her mother. Even though a cut could send her home, she didn't want to have to go home that way and ruin her mother's anniversary. Plus, Daisy wouldn't be too happy with a blood-stained razor. She decided that she would just write it all down in her journal. She had only written one sentence when the others came in. She shoved the notebook back in the little bookcase.
"Who won?"
"We did," Shelby said, refering to her, Kurt, and Scott. Auggie, Daisy, and Jet made up the other team, with Ezra the ref. "And you know what they have to do?"
"We have to take over their clean-up duty tomorrow night!" Daisy said. She didn't really mind. It was only for one night.
"So, what have you been doing?" Jet asked, sitting on her bed.
"Just thinking. I'm serious," Juliette said.
"We believe you. Aren't you glad its the weekend, though? I am. I overheard Sophie telling Peter that we're going to go on an "expedition" in a few weeks. Are they hard?" Jet asked.
"Well, its a lot of hiking, sleeping in tents, carrying everything on your back, and stuff like that. I'm not entirely fond of it, but you feel like you accomplish something when its over," Shelby explained.
Juliette was kind of hoping that one of them would mention something about Kurt staring at her, but they didn't. She would have said something, but she was afraid Shelby would say it was just because he liked her, or that she was paranoid, so she kept her thoughts to herself. Tomorrow, when we have quiet time, I'll go down that path I found and find some place to sit and write all this down in my journal, Juliette thought.


Sorry its been so long, but the rest is coming! Please review!