Title: My Love

Author: Princess Leia Solo

Rating: PG

Summary: Angel reflects on the death of the one person he ever truely loved. Please R&R.

Distrubution: FF.net, DarkAngelArchives, My World Of Obsessions www.angelfire.com/realm/myworldofobsessions

Disclaimer: Angel or his pain do not belong to me... if they did, there would be no pain. Evil Joss decided that he wanted to kill off Buffy Summers and let everyone be in pain.... grrrrrrrrrrrr........... If I owned Buffy and Angel, there would be MAJOR crossovers at the begining of the season ::sniff:: feel my pain (and Angel's) :) ::sniff::

Author's Note: This is my second attempt at POV fic (my first being my Dark Angel fic "Til It Be Morrow") Please be kind and tell me what you think.... I'd really love your opinion! :) Peace out!

Death - adj. Lifeless; no longer active; lacking warmth; Abrupt

I replayed the definition of death, over and over, in my head. It was the only thing I could hear. No matter what the people outside my door wanted, I could only hear the definition of death. I had been around so much of it, yet this single death was more than I could stand. I felt pain when I heard about it. I still feel pain.

"Lifeless"

There's no more life. She was my life. There's a void in this world where she's supposed to be. There's a void in my heart that's been there since the day I left town 2 years ago. I shouldn't have left. I could have helped. I could have saved her.

"no longer active"

She had so much life. So much love. Now she's gone. Her lifeless body is buried deep in the earth. In a casket all her own. I'd hoped, when I heard she was killed, that she'd been turned. But then I cursed myself for being so selfish. Why would I want my love to live as a vampire in this hell that I've been living for the past 250 years?

"lacking warmth"

I'm lacking warmth, too, yet she and I are in different places. When her friends found her on the pile of ruble, they tried to save her; they wanted to save her. But she was gone. Cold. Still.

"Abrupt"

Her death was nothing but abrupt. No one saw it coming except her sister in those few moments before it happened. Everyone would say it shouldn't have happened, or that it was so sudden. But it did happen and it was very sudden.

Death and Buffy Summers do not belong in the same sentence. They are totally different.

They never should have met.

Death - adj. Lifeless; no longer active; lacking warmth; Abrupt

Buffy Summers - n. Full of Life; active; warm and loving; Kind......... My love

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Were the definitions dumb.... I mean was the whole thing stupid, or did you like it.... I love feedback, but I think you should know that any flames will be used to make s'mores (yum) or I'll give them to my Father to use with the grill :) hehehe peace out *Princess