Planting The Seed The Story of Malcolm
Author : K. Sepsey
Email : fadedrosepetals@yahoo.com
Websites : faded rose petals | The Doll House : VC Andrews
Intro : This is a VC Andrews fanfic, all characters are copyright to her and her trust.
I make no claims on them. I was just inspired to write and this is what came about.
Many Spoilers for the Dollanganger series!!!



Chapter Six My Sins

By this time I had two sons, Mal and Joel. But I never paid them any mind. I wanted Olivia to take care of all that. But in the end I realized that this was a mistake. She spoiled them and they grew up soft and more feminine than masculine. But I didn't want any part of their upbringing. It would remind me of what could have been.
Then Alicia became pregnant. My father was overjoyed and I was threatened. This new baby would threaten my fortune and I would have to share it with a little baby. I was furious, but said nothing. Alicia glowed when she was pregnant. She was even lovelier, which I couldn't believe. How could this raving beauty be even more so?
And whenever I caught a chance to gaze at Alicia, I would see Lauren. Her beautiful eyes and the way her face shone when she was happy. I imagined she was my bride and we were having a child. I was so caught up in these fantasies that I almost called her Lauren, but I always caught myself. My heart ached so much and I hated God for doing this to me.
Alicia was opposite of what Olivia had looked like during her two pregnancies. I thought Olivia noticed that as well and was jealous. She was jealous of everything Alicia had: a man who loved her and wanted to make love to her, beauty and charm. Olivia's last pregnancy had been very difficult and though I tried for a girl, she didn't become pregnant again. We saw doctors and they told us that Olivia wouldn't be able to have any more children. I was extremely upset. And I blamed Olivia. So I stopped coming into her room and barely spoke to her, only when I wanted an update on the household needs.
But Alicia gave birth to a beautiful baby boy. They named him Christopher Garland Foxworth. Right away my father doted on him and gave him all the love and attention he denied me. I had always craved that adoration from my father but he had never given it to me. He ignored me and only had harsh words for me. I was jealous and angry with this little baby. I was positive that this baby was my father's favorite and would inherit more than I would. But most of all I was saddened that my father couldn't love me the way he loved Christopher.
Soon after the balcony was closed off, Alicia and my father moved into the swan bedroom, I began to spy on her which only gave way to lust and sin. I wanted her, so help me, I wanted her to love me and to be with me. My father was much too old for her and I always wondered why bother staying with him? In the end I assumed it was for the money. Why couldn't he see that? I often wondered. But soon I would do something that would change everyone's lives forever, a sin that I wish I never committed. A sin that would rock the lives of all my descendants.
I had tried and tried to get Alicia to willingly go to bed but soon I grew impatient and I tired of waiting for her consent. And I came upon her and had my way with her. She protested the whole time, which only made me want her more. I kept my hand over her mouth for as long as I could but when it was over and I relaxed my grip she let out the most terrifying scream I had ever heard from a woman. My father came pounding in and tried to fight with me, I fought back and he collapsed in pain. Chaos echoed throughout the house and people were rushing in and out. Alicia was escorted from the room and all I remember is that cold hard look in Olivia's eyes. She glared at me like I was some foul creature. I hid my face in my hands and ran from the room.
My father died, and it turned out Alicia was pregnant, with my child. Olivia was furious and attempted to lay down some rules and prepared the plan to hide my shameful act. I let her think she would succeed in taking charge but I never obeyed her wishes. Olivia's plan involved Alicia being hidden away in a room in the north wing that connected to the attic. She would pretend to leave and then return late at night, and be hidden away. My half brother Christopher would stay with us until Alicia gave birth, then they would be sent away, with money to tide them over. But she would leave behind my child to be raised by Olivia and myself.
At first I thought this was a ridiculous plan, but then I realized what I could do. I would still have Alicia in the house, and even though Olivia warned me to stay away from her, she really couldn't do anything. I would let her have her day in the sun, and after the baby was born I would dote on it the way I would have doted on any child Lauren gave birth to. I would love that child and give it the life I had wanted for Lauren and I. I would visit Lauren's grave and tell her about the new little baby in my life and to please forgive me for my weakness and sins. I would make it up to her with the love I would give this unborn child. Yes, everything would work out wonderfully...
During the time Alicia was in the attic, Olivia stuffed pillows under her dresses to keep up the facade of her being pregnant. I thought it silly at first but then realized if anyone was to know this to be our child, Olivia would have to play the part of the pregnant woman.
I made visits to Alicia in the attic. She thought I was her Garland but I didn't try to tell her who I really was. I didn't obey Olivia's command to stay away from Alicia. I went up to that northern room and I made love to Alicia as my father. Olivia suspected something after Alicia mentioned Garland coming to take her out. But I denied it all and Olivia stopped pestering me about it.
I grew a little worried for Alicia. She was slipping into madness in that horrid room. Her fragile state was growing more so. How could one person tolerate so much pain without becoming mad? I tried to make her life in that room as comfortable as possible. And I knew that Olivia just wanted to punish poor, sweet Alicia. But I tried to make it better, I did. I didn't want her to be so alone up there. But most of all, I wanted to make it up to Lauren. I didn't want her to hate me. I wanted her to look down from Heaven and know that I was everything she fell in love with. I could never disappoint her. I just wanted her so badly, why was life so cruel!

Soon Alicia gave birth and I looked down on the most beautiful baby I had ever seen. Right away I wanted to name her Lauren, but that would only remind me of my painful secret. So I named her Corrine, after my mother. To remind me of the deception a beautiful woman can accomplish. But I soon forgot why I named her that and I spoiled her. I was more involved in her life than Olivia was and she hated that. She didn't like me ignoring the boys. But I was too in love with this little girl. I made all the decisions concerning her life and I gave her everything her heart desired. But I gave her too much and I realized my mistake when she left me.

[rest of the chapters and the epilogue are separate]


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