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What would you have done?
I'm not really saying you've been unfaithful, but there are some things that are hard to deny. You were the only person I ever really loved, and I know you felt the same way. You had protocols to uphold however far away their origins might be. You never let yourself say you loved me, you never even told yourself. You are Captain, I am Commander. I am a subordinate, us being together was against protocol. Why then did you fall for a hologram, even a traitor for crying out loud? They weren't your subordinates, they weren't your crew, I understand. But then, when Tom was made an ensign, he was B'Elanna's subordinate, that didn't stop them. I was never with anyone else, I saved myself for you. You didn't do the same for me. Then you met Jaffen on Quarra. You might have been brainwashed, not remembering anything of your life on Voyager. But you kissed him, you lived in the same house as him. While you were dating him, I was risking my life to get you and the rest of the crew back. When you were finally back on board, despite the gratefulness in your eyes, I could also see longing. Longing to stay with him, longing to have a relationship with him. That was when I knew I lost you, but I still understood. I can't say you played favorites, because you didn't offer him a position even though you wanted to be with him. I saw that you had given your heart to him and there was no where left for me in it. It hurt, but I moved on, with a lot of therapy from my spirit guide. I saw that all chances of us in a serious relationship were lost when we left New Earth, and I was just pursuing a fantasy. Then Seven asked me to dinner, with startling bluntness. In my craving to finally get close to someone again, I accepted. I don't regret it, or at least I didn't until I saw your face after the Admiral told you that we were going to get married eventually. When Seven thought we should end our relationship, I tried to hold on to it and not let her back out because of what could happen. Was I angry with you? No, but I finally found what I had been looking for my entire life, and wasn't about to give it up. It is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all. But why am I telling you that? You have lost more potential dates than I care to count. Gosh, am I glad that I didn't actually say that to you. Anyway, I waited for you, you pushed me away. I decided that I was hardly even your friend, just your advisor. Seven needed someone, what would you have done?
Computer, end log.
I'm not pro C/7 I swear, please don't eat me. Feedback please.
