Then next morning the alarm when off, and JD turn to his side and groaned. He was still a bit hung-over as the effects made everything, louder, brighter and more unbearable. He slapped his alarm and wished death for who ever invented it, and got up out of bed with a grudge against humanity. He looked at the time on the cable box above his TV, school started in half an hour. "Shit, Don't even have time for a shower." He thought as he got up to change his clothes, and get his stuff together. He walked downstairs, his dad already left for work and left him some eggs on the grill, the smell and sight of it just made him nauseous as he threw them away. He took some aspirin and then got his bag and headed towards school.
He walked in, down the hall, past the endless corridor of lockers. He hardly looked up; just put all his focus on keeping everything down, the voices swirled in his head making it pound and he could feel the beating of his heart in the veins in his temple. It was almost as if he could hear his own heartbeat over the voices the people around him supplied.
He reached his locker; he set his bag by his feet, and leaned on his locker. He shut his eyes to try and block everything out, every voice, every step, every locker slam or other deifying noise. Then he felt a tiny tap on his shoulder, he opened his eyes and turned his head, this alone was a great task to him, he just hoped the person wouldn't have him do more then that.
He looked, Lynn was standing there, she looked at him and shook her head, and she seemed to know he was hung over. She looked around, and then reached into her pocket and pulled something that fit into her palm of her hand out and out stretched it to JD. "Take these," She said, it was barley above a whisper and JD appreciated that. She opened her hand and lifted JDs arm and placed them into his hand. He looked at the pills she gave him, "I knew you'd be a little hung over. Take those, they do wonders." He was about to pop them into his mouth when he noticed writing on them, MIDOL; He raised an eyebrow to Lynn. "Trust me, it works on this, just make sure you take it with water or it won't work, that and its also aspirin free, so take Tylenol or something as well. " JD was a little skeptical about it, but what could it hurt, he was so dizzy and sick.
*Just then a girl walked by with a yogurt and dropped it, she got mad, till someone gave her a banana, then she walked on again.*
JD swallowed hard, those pills are pretty big for gel caps. He looked at Lynn, "How long does it take to work?" He asked, rubbing his hands against his face, then down to his neck.
"About 1/2 an hour, it really depends." She sighed, "Don't worry, the more you get smashed like this the less worse the feeling gets. Did you sleep well last night?" She continued to talk softly to JD, just until the meds kicked in. JD nodded he didn't feel like talking right now. "Hey, I'll let you rest here for a while okay? If you are feeling better at lunch come out to the football field, that's where Shane and his friends meet. I sometimes go out there, I'll be out there this lunch time though." She checked her watch, "Shit, I gotta go meet up with Shane before class, See yas." Then she walked away. JD watched her walk away, he wanted her again, but he knew it was only physical; he had no desire to talk or learn about her, just lust.
Then the question rose in JD's mind, is that all Shane wanted in her too? Her body, maybe that's why they are together, there want and need for each other, then JD pushed the question out of his head, if that's the only reason they were together then Shane wouldn't know all about her, and she about him as well. But, he still couldn't help wonder.
Then, over all his thoughts, all the voices, all his feelings of lust, dizziness, sleepiness, and sickness, he heard the bell ring for the next class. "Humph," he groaned as he got up for class, got his books, and walked to his seat where he sat down, put his head in his arms, and waited for the drugs to kick in.
Sure enough, a while later he stopped feeling like he was going to throw up and everything got turned down a notch, he was still a bit hung over, but now he could handle it. It, to him, was now a minor annoyance. He took down notes as the teacher yapped and wrote on the board, but he couldn't get his mind off them. Not just Lynn, but also Shane, Fairy, and everyone else there. What he thought about most though, was what Lynn said; he was only an audience member in the world of actors. That's what he'd been for so long, a watcher, a critic on life he never went out to experience, but when he did, he was just the Phantom. No one knows it was him, or even that he was there; he thought maybe it was time to change. He made up his mind to go out to the football field at lunch and talk more with Shane about The Black Circle Boys group; it was time to receive his role. He knew now, that last night was his addition, and he made the part.
Time went by so slowly, every second felt like a minute, every minute like and hour, he didn't even want to go into how long an hour felt. Alone with the thoughts, why had they corrupted him so, he was JD, he was the rebel. He was the one that influenced people, yet now, he met his match. The bell for lunch rang, and he walked outside. He had no idea where the football field was, so a sigh of relief came over him when he saw someone in the distance that looked like someone Shane would have, walk out ahead of him. He followed and surly enough, there, a little walk down a small deserted school made road, was the field, and no faculty members in sight. These people where utterly alone with each other, like out in the woods. Lost in the abyss of the breaks in society, lost with each other. He wondered if this was really what he wanted, at least when he was by himself, he was one of the society, these people, were the people that surrounded them, never to join them. Like an eye of the hurricane, inside calm, nice, eerie, and on the outside, strong, loud, destructive, terrifying, these two could never get along, let alone mix.
Then JD saw Shane in the distance, Lynn by his side, the two laughing with the others, and how JD yearned to be apart of that. He had held it off so sense the death of his mother, that he never knew how much his missed having someone. Someone that understood him, he was so despite he took the first person to come his way, Veronica. Veronica didn't understand him, but he was so lonely, desperate for companionship he took her. God knows where THAT led to, him faking his death and nearly killing the school. Let alone the few that were MEANT to die.
He looked at Lynn, the girl that held Shane's heart, she was different from the rest, and she was affable. Everyone else had this malism line of thought, expect her
Before he knew it he was hopping the fence around the field and greeting Shane.
"Greetings and Salutations." Shane walked up and grabbed JDs hand and with their elbows hit each other in the chest (We have all seen this be done before).
"Hey man, wanna hit?" He held out his bong for JD.
"Nah got my own." He pulled out a cig, and lit it.
"A little bit from last night, huh?" JD shook his head yes, "Don't worry, you'll get used to it."
"So I heard."
Shane looked at him a sec, and then realized Lynn talked to him this morning, "Oh." He said right out of the blue. It wasn't attended for anyone, just a little wake up call for him self.
"Anyway," JD said, ignoring the little moment Shane had, "What are the Black circle boys?" Shane leaned on one foot again, the other leg was a bit more forward and bent, he tossed his hair then ran a finger threw it.
"Like I told you last night, man, you gotta join to know. So are you in?" He looked at JD with a smirk on his face, like he knew a secret he promised someone he wouldn't tell. JD thought for a second and all those repressed feeling came flooding back to him, and in no time at all he answered, "Yeah."
"Fuckin' hard core!" He made the rock on/bull shit sign with his hands, and Lynn came over.
"Whats got you all excited?" she asked, JD noticed the ease into which she fell in Shane arms, he deosculate kissed her.
"You." She laughed; JD closed his eyes and let it echo in his head for as long as he could, before Shane started talking. "Nah, JD's going to be in our group." They looked at JD.
"Yay!" She said, in her little high-pitched girlie voice that males love to hear girls make. It made them look innocent, sweet, like a child. Lynn went over and hugged JD, JD's emotion for her grew, but like he said before, it's only physical. Lynn broke away and stood in-between them two, as Fairy came over and they made their own little coterie.
"Wh-What are we doings tonight Shane?" Fairy asked. Shane looked at him, he wasn't angry in the day, he had a languid approach about him in the day, it was at night, when he came alive.
"I dunno. We could visit Greggo. Or go to a club, some shit like that."
"Oh, but I can't." Lynn interrupted, Shane looked at her for her to explain herself. "My friend asked me to go to a party with her. See some person she likes is going to be there and she doesn't fucking know anyone else, so I said I'd go. Little Bitch needs some moral support anyway. I'll make it up to you guys, I promise."
"Okay, but this Friday there is this band I want to go see at Club Notte Scura. You're coming, no exceptions."
"Fine, but they better be good." She said and kissed him, before she went off to her friends.
JD looked at Shane he repeated, "Notte Scura?"
Shane looked at JD. "What?"
"What is Notte Scura?"
"Its Italian for Dark Night." Fairy said, Shane gave him a warning look.
"Yeah, its a night club. The best nightclubs for Goths are in other languages, that way normal people just walk on by. This place is so tittup" JD nodded. They talked about useless things, what teachers to look out for, what teachers were all right, which ones were gay. That type of thing. When the lunch bell rang, Shane ended the conversation by telling JD, "Meet where we did last night, at midnight. Tell NO one." He said this so only JD could hear, his first Black Circle Boy secret. And he did just that.
