CHAPER EIGHT (Songs in his heart)
*sorry for all the songs, but I was feeling sappy as I wrote this, if you wish to hear the songs that go along with this chapter you can hear them as they go along with the passage on my website. http://www.geocities.com/jkstovercater/taulmaril.html Warning: these are acoustic versions that are slightly altered to better fit Spike. Don't expect screaming guitar solos or anything like that because I'm not that good (my guitar doesn't even have a whammy bar [BEG]) Don't forget to come back here to leave a review and to tell me my singing stinks. Thanks to everyone who has left reviews so far, they mean the world to me.*
DISCLAIMER: see chapter one for the rest of the story, added just for this chapter are songs by Lonestar and Skid Row
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Love is but the discovery of ourselves in others, and the delight in the recognition.
-Alexander Smith
Spike stepped out of the shower and wrapped a towel around his waist, he was still humming a little song that he had heard several years ago but he couldn't quite remember the words. He walked over to the sink and pretended to look in the mirror while he ran a comb through his platinum locks. "Here's lookin, at you kid" he said while winking at the mirror trying to remember what it was like to be able to look at himself. "I'm going to have to have little bit take my picture so I can see if I'm still as handsome as I remember being" he thought to himself as he turned and headed out the door to his bedroom in the back of the basement. "Ready or not, Buffy, here I come" he said as he slipped on a pair of boxers and hopped into his bed wanting to fall asleep as fast as possible. He didn't have to wait long before sleep overtook him
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Spike found himself standing in front of the Summer's home in the middle of the day. He started to panic and pull his coat over his head when he realized he wasn't on fire. "Oh, right, I'm dreaming, I almost forgot" he said to himself. He shucked off his coat, tossing it up on the porch and spread out his arms and looked up into the bright sunlight that was streaming down on him. "This is more like it" he said while turning in a slow circle. Just then Buffy appeared at the front door of the house wearing white jeans and a white sweater.
"Are you having fun?" she asked him while smiling sweetly at his child like antics.
Stating the obvious Spike said "I'm in the sun" while pointing up at the big orange ball in the sky.
"Yes I see that, are you planning on staying out there for the whole dream or did you want to talk to me at all?" Buffy asked already knowing the answer. Spike was up on the porch in an instant. He quickly put his arms around her waist picking her up and spinning her around. Buffy giggled and said "Put me down, you silly vampire"
"Sorry" Spike said while putting Buffy down slowly in front of the opened door.
"Come with me" Buffy said while taking Spike's hand and leading him over the threshold of the house. "I've really like what you guys have done with the place, I somehow expected it to be more messy with you living here." She continued to lead him through the house and down to the basement to Spike's room.
"Buffy, why are we down here?" Spike asked "Do you have more to tell me about how to get you back?"
"I've told you almost all I'm allowed to but I have faith that you will figure it out without any problems. I did want to tell you that once you do figure out what you have to do I will understand if you don't want to go through with it" Buffy replied while sitting down on Spike's bed
"Not go through with it? There's nothing I wouldn't do to bring you back" Spike said joining her on the bed.
"No more talk of the future, that's not why I brought you here" Buffy said while placing her fingers to Spike's lips to silence him. She reached over grabbed the guitar that was sitting in the stand at the end of Spike's bed and handed it to Spike.
Spike looked at the guitar with confusion written on his face "How did this get here, and how did you know about my guitar, this is mine, isn't it? It's a 1965 Gibson Dove, not very many were made you know"
"Uhh Spike I'm in a kind of all knowing state right now, I can read you mind, know what's in here" She said placing her hand on Spike's chest.
"Oh, ohhhhhh", realization hitting him "You know everything?" he said with his eyes going wide.
"Well, yeah, but don't worry, I haven't seen anything I disapprove of. In fact I'm seeing a lot of things that I very much approve of. I want you to sing to me, do that song you've had in your head all night"
"But I don't remember the words" Spike said flustered.
"Yes you do" Buffy reminded him
"Hey I do, how'd you do that?"
"I have many skills" Buffy said lightly
"Ok Xena, whatever you say" Spike kidded back. "Well, here goes" Spike said while balancing the guitar over his right knee.
Every time our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more that I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams
I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life,
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing you do
Baby I'm amazed by you
The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me
Baby you surround me
You touch every place in my heart
Oh it feels like the first time every time
I wanna spend the whole night
In your eyes
I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life,
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing you do
Baby I'm amazed by you
"Oh Spike, that was beautiful" Buffy said through her tears
Spike quickly placed the guitar on the bed behind them and took Buffy's hand in his and said "It doesn't even compare to the beauty I see before me" as he kissed her gently.
"Spike?" Buffy asked meekly
"Yes, luv?"
"How can you love me, when I've been so horrible to you?"
"I don't blame you, it's more than natural to give you mortal enemy a hard time now and again, and you couldn't read my mind or see into my heart, until now that is. Do you see how much I adore you? my sweet"
Buffy nods and makes a sniffling noise.
"Well if this is the kind of reaction I'm going to get I'm going to have to go get my guitar out of storage for when you come back to me for real."
"Oooo, I like that idea. You could also get that Harley you've been hiding in the storage shed as well, motorcycles are way sexy."
"Hey! How did you know about my storage shed?" Spike inquired. Buffy gave him a look as if to say duh! "Oh yeah, all knowing, I forgot. I don't know if I should bring you back now, you're going to know all my secrets . . . . " Buffy smacked him on the arm. "Just kidding, you dreamgirls take everything so seriously"
"Spike, it's almost time for me to go. Would you sing me another song?" Buffy asked.
"I can think of other things to do with our free time" Spike said reaching around her waist and drawing her in close to him.
"Spike . . . " Buffy said warningly
"Ok, ok a song" he said quickly kissing her cheek for turning her loose and retrieving the guitar. "What would you like to hear?"
"Whatever you'd like to sing for me"
"Ok, give me a second . . . . , how about this one?"
I woke up to the sound of pouring rain
The wind would whisper and I'd think of you
And All the tears you cried they called my name
And when you needed me I came thru
Paint a picture of the days gone by
When love went blind and you made me see
I'd stare a lifetime into your eyes
So that I knew that you were there for me
Time after time you were there for me
Remember yesterday walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand
I remember you
Thru the sleepless nights, thru every endless day
I wanna hear you say I remember you
We spent the summer with the top rolled down
Wish ever after would be like this
You said I love you babe without a sound
I said I give my life for just one kiss
Live for your smile and die for your kiss
Remember yesterday walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand
I remember you
Thru the sleepless nights, thru every endless day
I wanna hear you say I remember you
We had our share of hard times but that's the price we pay
And thru it all we kept the promise that me made
I swear you'll never be lonely
I woke up to the sound of pouring rain
Washed away a dream of you
Nothing else could ever take you away
Because you will always be my dream come true
Oh my darlin I love you
Remember yesterday walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand
I remember you
Thru the sleepless nights, thru every endless day
I wanna hear you say I remember you
Remember yesterday walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand
I remember you
Thru all the sleepless nights, thru every endless day
I wanna hear you say I remember, I remember you
After the final note drifted off Spike shyly looked over to Buffy who was smiling brightly at him "You like?" he asked while he got up to put the guitar back in the stand.
"I love" Buffy said rising behind him. She put her arms around his waist and hugged him pressing the side of her face into his back. Spike patted her hands before prying them loose so he could turn around to face her.
"Good" he said while tapping her on the nose, he then proceeded to brush his hand across her cheek, then under her hair to caress the back of her neck. "Buffy, I'm so sorry I couldn't stop the ritual from starting, I don't know what happened. I should have been able take that weasley demon but he just tossed me off the tower like I was nothing" Spike's eyes started to tear up. "It's all my fault, I failed you and the Nibblet"
"Spike, you couldn't stop fate. This was meant to happen it was the work I had to do there was nothing you could do to stop any of this. Now there is work that you are meant to do. I don't regret what has happened and neither should you. Buffy then looked up like she was listening to something.
"It's time for me to go, listen quickly, you did good telling Giles about the chip tonight I know it couldn't have been easy for you, tomorrow's going to be a little tense with Xander but you saving his life tonight will help things. Also if you get stumped trying to find someone, read my journal, I talked to Angel a few days before the battle and I recorded what he told me, it will be helpful to you on your search. Remember no regrets" Buffy said hurriedly before she reached up on her tiptoes to kiss Spike soundly.
When Spike opened his eyes he was lying in his bed, fully rested and ready for a day of researching. He looked down at the end of his bed to see if the guitar was still there, it wasn't. "Note to self, get guitar from storage shed before Buffy comes back" Spike said to the ceiling.
TBC . . . . . .
