A L I
V E
"Night
and day are one with love,
Love and
pain are silent doves,
If death
makes sorrow, why the life?
Strength
that bleeds through the heart---stealthy knife.
Red, fire,
passion, pain--
Loves that
melt away, disappear---washed away by
the rain...
Alive...a
feeling I haven't felt for an eternity...
Alive...a
pulsating innocense....
Alive...the
warmth and energy radiated by nearly every being...
Am I alive?
Being
constantly enveloped by this mask of sadness, I have been trained to
destroy...and so, why is it
every time I do so I lose a piece of myself...?
Trained
with weapons, and being called only Nanashi, am I alive as well? These dark eyes knowing nothing more than
pain and sorrow, I am the image of a man growing deeply inside the body of only
a child. Can it be that I am alive?
Mercenary,
soldier, acrobat and more...all these things, and yet why do I still not feel
alive...?
I turn and
discover a gentle face, what is this feeling that surges within me? The softness of those fingertips...I feel
intensly, wanting to find more tenderness, I stare into those sea-green
eyes. They twinkle mysteriously and
bury themselves into the depths of my soul.
Tell me what this feeling is...tell me if I am alive.
~Trust in
me~
The sweet
face murmurs. Trust. Do I trust?
~Put your
faith in me~
Do I have
faith?
~Believe in
me~
Do I
believe?
~Let
the mask fall off?~
What mask?
Powdery
fingertips pull me closer...I glance in their direction, letting the mask fall
off...letting my face crack. I snuggle
into the palm near my cheek and bend down toward the lifeform. It gives a slight gasp. "It is you who should trust
me..." I murmur softly.
Gently and
gathering my strength, I pull away and stare into the tender face. It's eyes express nothing more than purity
and love---I want to feel that way as well!
~Let me
Love you...~
I want to
love
~I want to
hold you~
I want to
be held.
~I want to
kiss you~
I want to
be kissed.
Sweaty
palms and soft caresses,
gentle lips and tender tresses,
an
innocense that slowly fades away...
And I feel
alive, by those fingertips, by those kisses, because of that smile. It is you...it is you that makes me alive...
The
End