In that moment everything made sense. There was no more hurt or confusion, it felt good; like when you get away with the kill, when you get all your problems worked out, when the drugs take affect, or when you get something you wanted for so long in your hands. JD wanted Lynn from the moment he saw her, and Lynn did feel the same about JD. JD was sure of it; he knew it in the way she kissed him, the way she talked to him, or the ways she looked at him from afar in Shane's arms. 'Shane's arms.' JD thought again. 'That's right she was in Shane's arms all those times. She was with Shane, Shane got those same looks and gestures and more.' Shane understood her, more then JD ever wanted to. He kept thinking about this mistake, he couldn't take her away from Shane. Shane needed her, and she needed him. Plus what of Bonnie? His Bonnie, the girl he really truly thought he could love.
Then Lynn pulled away. "JD, what's wrong?" She asked, her hands on his chest with his arms securely around her. He looked at her again, and held on to the piece that wanted her, to the piece that told him he was a rebel and to screw off Shane, to the part that told him commitment sucks and to get away from Bonnie who would be the next veronica, the piece that wanted chaos and confusion and nothing to be right, he held all of this and replied, "Nothing." Even with all those feelings pulled together, it wasn't even 1/3 of him in that flat nothing that could make anyone believe him. Lynn smiled that smile that made JD's heart skip a beat, but even with that there was not a raise in the 1/3 of him that felt like betraying them.
Lynn kissed JD on the cheek and looked into his eyes. "JD, I am in love with Shane. Just Like you are in love with Bonnie. We know that we would never work out, and you know Shane would murder you if we even tried. But we also have an attraction to each other; I know you've been caring about me, like I have with you. Now I know this needs to get out of our systems, so you get a free pass tonight. Now the question is; will you take it?"
JD sat there stunned. He could never think Lynn would say that. But he wanted her, and he would take it. This would always be a one-time thing, just the thing JD needed to love Bonnie even more. JD leaned in and kissed her passionately, their lips moist and easily sliding against one another while he held his eyes closed, focusing in on the feeling rather the act. If they would for once think about what they were doing they would crumble, feel guilt like no other, and so they refrained from thinking about Shane behind bars in the police station, or Bonnie at home giving herself a pedicure thinking of JD. No one made a sound; even their kissing was silent. The lake was heard, the owl in the tree, even a truck on the distant road grew louder and then faded away in time. No one dare moan, sigh, or breathe, when they could help it, because any noise would ruin the moment. JD slid off his coat, while Lynn lifted her shirt off her body. JD couldn't help stare at her skin, it was pale white, like the skin never once touched a ray of the sun in all the years she was living. It aroused JD like he never known, the only color that showed was her pale pink nipple that stuck up from the cold breezes going by. Lynn started kissing his neck while JD place his hand on her chest. She closed her eyes and enjoyed the heat of his touch, while stimulating pulses ran threw her entire body. She slid her hands under JD's shirt and it lifted almost effortlessly while her hands caressed his entire chest before she flung his shirt off.
In the next moments the time passed quickly, the air seemed colder, while their bodies covered in sweat got goose bumps from the crispy night air. They bodies were warm though, and the heat of the inside mixed with the heat from the other person made the night not seem so cool.
As they pulled away from each other as the act of passion ceased, they looked in their eyes and they felt fulfilled. They didn't have that aching need for each other anymore; anything passionate between them was gone. And the only thing left was the undying love for their spouse, wither it was Shane or Bonnie. They were friends again, and this night was soon to be a night of the past, never mentioned by anyone ever again.
While Lynn put on her last item of clothing, and JD finished with his trench coat he wondered if she really did love Shane. She was pretty, no denying that, but why did she love a guy like Shane? He didn't want her, but was he the only guy that she gave this "pass" too? He wondered if she really loved Shane if she would let JD touch her like that. He had to know, he needed this to rest in his mind. So he got up the courage and asked, "Lyric, are you happy with Shane?"
Without even looking at him she replied, "Yeah."
"Then why did you let me sleep with you?"
"Oh." She said as if this was asked all the time, "That question." She now lifted her head and looked straight at JD. "Listen, I love Shane with all my heart. And he knows that, he treats me like I was better than anyone else, even him. He cares about me, and talks with me, and never behind my back like other boys did. He would die for me, and I know he would marry me if he knew he could take care of me, or if he had a ring. Now the reason I slept with you is because if I didn't, that longing we had for each other would turn into a 'crush' and we would think we were in love with each other. Then I would lose my Shane and you your Bonnie and when we got together there would be passion at first, then nothing, just the realization that we felt a simple lust that needed to be fulfilled. And I am not letting anything or anyone break up me and Shane, we are the only ones for each other."
"Why do you say that?"
"What? That Shane and I are meant to be or the thing about the crush?"
"Both."
"Well, the crush thing I know about because in a past relationship the very same thing happened. I fell 'in love' with my boyfriends' best friend and so I dated him until the passion went out and it just got weird. And then I knew my mistake, and I won't do that with Shane. Now I know Shane and I are meant for each other because of one thing, when I close my eyes I see his face. When I see him the world stops, when I hear his voice I can't help but smile, when I see him in pain I cry and wish for anything in the world I could die for him so he never would have to be sad again, when I feel his touch, no matter how small, I shiver, and it feels like an eternity every second I don't have him by my side. And I never felt that before, that and I love hearing sappy love songs and pretend he sings them to me." She laughed at that, and JD smiled. Then she asked, "Do you feel the same about Bonnie?"
JD sighed. He never thought about it. "Truthfully I don't know. I can say yes to some of those things, but I am not all the way there yet. Takes time before you know if its real. So am I the only guy you slept with while you are with Shane?"
"No, there were others. I can count 5 at the most, all only once, and you are included and we have been dating for a really long time."
"Yeah, I kinda figured that."
::Chuckles:: "Yeah, but I think he has never cheated on me at all. I feel a bit bad for doing what I do, but it would be worse if I didn't. Because I would keep thinking, 'would it be better if I was with him?' And shit like that. But Shane loves me and he wouldn't care about that, as long as I was still happy with him."
"And if you weren't?"
"Then he'd kill me, and who ever the last person I fucked was, or the guy that I fell in 'love' with was. But don't worry, I am happy with my lover Shane, and it will always be that way." And then as JD looked at her he knew she was telling the truth, but a distant look in her eyes made her have a shimmer of melancholy languid glow about her. He pitied this, because it made her look sad, and dull. Normal like she could never be, she was better than normal. She was Shane's girl, Shane and her were the only two that made any sense in the world, or even knew what was going on. And the best part was, they were letting JD get in on it, and Bonnie had a piece of it too. They were chosen by these people, the saints from hell, as Shane would say.
"What do we do about Shane?" JD asked.
"Wait." Lynn said as a single tear that held the moon's reflection slid down her pale skin, and in that moment she looked like the most doleful person in the world. She was so beautiful there it was like a portrait of a crying woman by an artist, something that JD could feel like it was truly happening, like he wasn't even there. But as the tear fell, so did the feeling.
Lynn wiped the remains of the tear off her face and got up, JD followed and drove her to his house where she spent the night, secure in his arms in his bed as friends. She needed a friend and JD was it, there was no spark anymore between them, and so she slept peacefully and JD thought about Bonnie, and then about Shane and what he was going to do with out him for the next few days. And JD hoped Lynn could get along without him for that long.
Then he felt a little nod from Lynn's head while she adjusted it in her sleep and he smiled, he was glad to have everything worked out with her, and now he never had to feel that confusion for her again. And with that he fell asleep next to her, his friend, Lyric, Lynn.