"Do you guys ever wonder why she left?" Matt asked sitting at the table

"no shit Matt, of course I do, she was like my best friend"

"Ya I know, I think about her everyday and wonder why? She`s been gone, what 4 years now?"Matt asked sipping his coffee.

Jeff sat and stared into space thinking to himself. He lost more than a friend, he lost his true love. He blew it. They were drinking that night, 4 years ago, they did something that shouldn`t have happened, at least not that way. They were fine around each other afterwards, a little awkward together, but still the same as before. She left 3 weeks later. She never told anyone why or even that she was leaving. She just vanished. It couldn`t have been his fault, She didn`t act like anything was wrong. She never had a reason to leave. But he still felt guilty.

"Dude, hello you there?" Jeff was awakened from his thoughts by his brother`s fiancee

"Oh sorry Amy, what did you say?"

"Do you miss her?"

"Yeah, I do. She never even told us where she used to live." Jeff said fighting back tears

"I`m gonna go for a walk" He said standing up, leaving his brother and Amy to contemplate his reasonings. Jeff walked out of the door at the end of the hallway and exited the arena.

The Civic Arena. For some reason Jeff always liked this venue, it was peaceful. Not now, too many memories resurfacing. He had tried to hide them for so long and now they were all rushing back into his mind. He walked into a store not realizing where he was going. He stopped and looked around,

"A wicca store" He knew from the candles and incense...she had taken him to a few of them before .He wiped his eyes and was surprised when he opened them again.

"OMG she`s here! Is that really her? No, I`m just imagining it."

No, she was there, at the counter. Her red and blue hair gave her away. He studied her to make sure it wasn`t an illusion. No, it was her, he knew it.

"Amber?" She turned and looked at him with a panicked look on her face

"Um.... sorry, wrong person" She said running out of the store grabbing her bags. Jeff sat and stared at the door swinging back and forth slowly. He had seen her but she acted like a stranger. He blew it again. He knew it was her. Why had she lied to him? He knew how he could find out. He looked at his watch

"only 8:30 good" He muttered to himself. He ran to a phone booth and grabbed the phone book. He looked under her name, there it was. He was right, it was her. He wrote down the address and headed back to the arena

"Hey Jeff, where ya been?" Amy asked

"Um.. just walking. Hey, I`m gonna borrow the car ok?"

"alright" Amy said confused

"Ok thanks, bye" He said grabbing the keys and bolting out of the room.

"C-ya" Amy replied to an empty room. Jeff ran down to his rental car and turned on the ignition. Outside came on by Staind

"Damn, I haven`t heard this song since...." He thought as the memories of the song came back. It was playing that night. Amber had sung it to him. Even drunk she sang like an angel. He drove to Carnegie. He had been there before with her, she had friends there. He turned onto the street and parked the car. He ran his hands through his hair and breathed heavily. He opened the screen door and knocked. No answer. The tv was on upstairs. He knocked again and the door flew open

"Can I help you?"