"Who to hell`s here?" I said walking down the stairs.
I opened the door
"Oh fuck! Ok don`t panic" I thought to myself
"Can I help you?" I asked him
"Amber?"
"...sorry got the wrong house." I replied smoothly
"Why is he here? He can`t be here?"
"Amber I know it`s you don`t lie to me" He said.
I didnt say anything as he stepped into the room and shutting the door behind him
"What do you want?" I asked quietly
"I wanna know why you left"
"That is none of your business, it`s not like you care" he was shocked
"Amber, of course I care...we all care! we`ve all been worried sick, no one could find you, we all thought you were dead!" "Well I`m not so you can leave"
"Not until you tell me why we all tried so hard to find you "
"Did you ever think maybe I didnt want to be found?" I yelled
"But why? Why did you leave us all? Why did you leave me?"
" there is no reason" I lied
"Amber I want the truth"
"The truth!?! Yeah right. You couldn`t handle the truth, ok?!" I screamed at him
"Try me" He replied calmly
"No Jeff, the WWF is my past, I have a future I can`t be selfish anymore I can`t do something I want to do, like that, anymore. I have responsibilities."
"Oh and your not being selfish by leaving without telling anybody"
"Jeff you wouldn`t understand"
"Well tell me so I can understand!"
"No Jeff!" I screamed being interrupted
"Mommy why are you fighting?" She said tugging on my pant leg. My heart raced
"Shit. Um ....Celeste, baby go upstairs and watch wrestling honey. I`ll be up in a few minutes once the man leaves." looked at Jeff he seemed like he seen a ghost
"Awww mommy"
"Cel please" I begged her
"Ok but hurry the Hardy Boyz are on!" She squealed skipping up the steps
"Happy now?" I replied coldly
"You have a kid? Is that why you left?"
"Yes, I left because of her, ok?" Jeff sat in silence, afraid to ask
"Is…… she……… mine?" I walked and poured myself a glass of water staring out the window
"I have a right to know" He whispered. I wiped my eyes
"Yes, she`s yours, and don`t even bother about it, we`ve done fine by ourselves. We`ve made it 4 years." I said putting the glass in the sink
"That is way too long"
"Jeff I don`t want your sympathy, or your charity. I make enough to support us both."
"Since when does being a parent just mean supporting someone financially?" Jeff asked walking closer to me
"I want to be a part of my child`s life!" He replied
"And yours" I began to reply and was interrupted by Celeste tugging on my leg.
" Oh Celeste, what did you do to your hair?" I cried picking her up
"I used you hair stuff" she replied smiling
"It looked pretty on you and I wanted to look pretty too!"
"Oh baby you`re pretty enough without it!" I said kissing her cheek
"I know but I also wanted to look like daddy!" I pulled away from her face
"Your daddy?" I asked shocked
"Ya my daddy on tv!" She giggled
"And who is that? I asked her
"Jeff Hardy!" She beamed a wide smile and looked at Jeff
"Celeste how did you know that?" I asked as she jumped from my lap she ran up to Jeff and screamed
"daddy!" She jumped into his arms and Jeff smiled
" Yeah Celeste, I`m your daddy!" He replied excitedly.
I moved against the wall and covered my mouth with my hands
How did she know? I never told her! Not until she was older" I always said....so how did she know
"Come on let`s wash this out of your hair" Jeff said walking up the steps
"Jeff....that`s Manic Panic" I said following him
"Uh oh" He cringed
"Permanent"He said looking at the splotches of red and blue in the child`s hair.
We walked into the bathroom. Miraculously there was no mess. I handed Jeff a tinting brush and a bottle of the hair dye "You get red I get blue"
we sat Cel on the side of the tub and worked on her hair. I laughed. Jeff had another blue streak in his hair courtesy of his daughter. I washed her hair after a few minutes and dried it.
"Lift me up I wanna see!" She cried.
Jeff picked her up and stood her on the sink. She stood between me and Jeff in the mirror.We were a family. Mine and Jeff`s faces molded into one beautiful child. And we all had the same hair. I knew this was how it should be, so did Jeff...of course Celeste knew all along.
I opened the door
"Oh fuck! Ok don`t panic" I thought to myself
"Can I help you?" I asked him
"Amber?"
"...sorry got the wrong house." I replied smoothly
"Why is he here? He can`t be here?"
"Amber I know it`s you don`t lie to me" He said.
I didnt say anything as he stepped into the room and shutting the door behind him
"What do you want?" I asked quietly
"I wanna know why you left"
"That is none of your business, it`s not like you care" he was shocked
"Amber, of course I care...we all care! we`ve all been worried sick, no one could find you, we all thought you were dead!" "Well I`m not so you can leave"
"Not until you tell me why we all tried so hard to find you "
"Did you ever think maybe I didnt want to be found?" I yelled
"But why? Why did you leave us all? Why did you leave me?"
" there is no reason" I lied
"Amber I want the truth"
"The truth!?! Yeah right. You couldn`t handle the truth, ok?!" I screamed at him
"Try me" He replied calmly
"No Jeff, the WWF is my past, I have a future I can`t be selfish anymore I can`t do something I want to do, like that, anymore. I have responsibilities."
"Oh and your not being selfish by leaving without telling anybody"
"Jeff you wouldn`t understand"
"Well tell me so I can understand!"
"No Jeff!" I screamed being interrupted
"Mommy why are you fighting?" She said tugging on my pant leg. My heart raced
"Shit. Um ....Celeste, baby go upstairs and watch wrestling honey. I`ll be up in a few minutes once the man leaves." looked at Jeff he seemed like he seen a ghost
"Awww mommy"
"Cel please" I begged her
"Ok but hurry the Hardy Boyz are on!" She squealed skipping up the steps
"Happy now?" I replied coldly
"You have a kid? Is that why you left?"
"Yes, I left because of her, ok?" Jeff sat in silence, afraid to ask
"Is…… she……… mine?" I walked and poured myself a glass of water staring out the window
"I have a right to know" He whispered. I wiped my eyes
"Yes, she`s yours, and don`t even bother about it, we`ve done fine by ourselves. We`ve made it 4 years." I said putting the glass in the sink
"That is way too long"
"Jeff I don`t want your sympathy, or your charity. I make enough to support us both."
"Since when does being a parent just mean supporting someone financially?" Jeff asked walking closer to me
"I want to be a part of my child`s life!" He replied
"And yours" I began to reply and was interrupted by Celeste tugging on my leg.
" Oh Celeste, what did you do to your hair?" I cried picking her up
"I used you hair stuff" she replied smiling
"It looked pretty on you and I wanted to look pretty too!"
"Oh baby you`re pretty enough without it!" I said kissing her cheek
"I know but I also wanted to look like daddy!" I pulled away from her face
"Your daddy?" I asked shocked
"Ya my daddy on tv!" She giggled
"And who is that? I asked her
"Jeff Hardy!" She beamed a wide smile and looked at Jeff
"Celeste how did you know that?" I asked as she jumped from my lap she ran up to Jeff and screamed
"daddy!" She jumped into his arms and Jeff smiled
" Yeah Celeste, I`m your daddy!" He replied excitedly.
I moved against the wall and covered my mouth with my hands
How did she know? I never told her! Not until she was older" I always said....so how did she know
"Come on let`s wash this out of your hair" Jeff said walking up the steps
"Jeff....that`s Manic Panic" I said following him
"Uh oh" He cringed
"Permanent"He said looking at the splotches of red and blue in the child`s hair.
We walked into the bathroom. Miraculously there was no mess. I handed Jeff a tinting brush and a bottle of the hair dye "You get red I get blue"
we sat Cel on the side of the tub and worked on her hair. I laughed. Jeff had another blue streak in his hair courtesy of his daughter. I washed her hair after a few minutes and dried it.
"Lift me up I wanna see!" She cried.
Jeff picked her up and stood her on the sink. She stood between me and Jeff in the mirror.We were a family. Mine and Jeff`s faces molded into one beautiful child. And we all had the same hair. I knew this was how it should be, so did Jeff...of course Celeste knew all along.
