~*~Whispers From The Flame~Part 16~


~*~Jeff was giving up,he had nothing to fight for now,what was left to do now,he sat up slowly,feeling the cold and wet ground under him,the rain seemed to let up,but only enough to let him see a bit more ,as he rubbed the water from his eyes then wiped his face off with his hands he looked,noticing the liquid on his hands wasnt clear like the rain,it was red,his own blood,but he didnt care,not now,not after what he knew,lifting his head again he looked up at Matt~

"Do it...whatever you have planned...just get it done with..."~the water in Jeff's eyes wasnt from the rain,tho by looking at him it would seem that way,the water was his tears,the hurt and pain he felt was too much,the tears in his eyes told as much~

~Matt stared down at him his words low~"dont you even want to know....why Jeffrey?"~his words came out colder when he spoke his brothers name~

~the look in Matts eyes as he stared down at Jeff was enough to let Jeff know Matt did this...he did it all....nomore looking and wondering,the person who killed Savannah and who was moments away from killing him...was his own brother~


~As Jeff stared up at Matt,he did want to know why Matt would kill his own girlfriend,he was having a hard time understanding it,nothing could make him understand that,but looking in Matt's eyes now.fully looking at him,Jeff,for the first time seen something wasnt right,Matts eyes seemed to be glazed over with redness around the pupils,as Jeff looked down to Matt's hands he saw how much they were shaking,it wasnt a shake from the cold,it was a constant shaking that Matt couldnt seem to control himself~

~Matt saw Jeff looking at his hands,trying with all he had Matt couldnt get his hands to stay still,or the urge inside him,it was over bearing ,the deep loneliness he felt seemed to consume his very soul~

~Jeff shook his head some,the rain coming down on his head,why hadnt he noticed it before,his brother,the way he was acting,the look in his eyes,it wasnt Matt,not the brother he loved and looked up to,something was so very wrong and Jeff had thought Matts actions was because of loosing Savannah,on looking back Jeff knew it was more now,the constant mood swings....the different sleeping patterns,the lack of interest Matt showed in his wrestling career now,something was wrong with Matt,something way beyond Savannah,something that had been going on when Savannah was alive~

"I.....yeah I want to know why you killed her.."~something inside Jeff seemed to click,his own brother was a murderer,had killed his best friend Savannah,it caused jeff to get angry,the anger starting to take over he went to stand then fell back down,feeling the pain in his head,but then Jeff felt a soft cool breeze around his head,then what felt like soft finger tips run over his forehead,to the back of his head,as the movement continued the pain in Jeff's head slowly lessoned,then was gone comepletely,turning his head some he came face to face with Savannah,the look in her eyes made Jeff want to cry again,there was so much pain and hurt in her eyes,because she knew now as well....the man she had loved with her whole heart had killed her~

~trying not to break down Savannah forced a weak smile,her words low~"I denied it...all the time...because I loved him so much Jeff,I wouldnt and could not believe he would do this to me...but...so much unsaid,you know...look at him....tell me he looks like the Matt we know and love..."

~Jeff nodded his head,looking up at Matt again,Matt stared down at him,the same look on his face~

~jeff's words were low~"What is it.....you knew when you were alive.....tell me now before he does something else..."

~Savannah fought back the tears she felt,the heart seeming to be shattered now~"When he was hurt that one time,if you remember he was taking pain killers....he never stopped..."

~Jeff stared at her a moment,then it finally dawned on him what she meant~"You mean...he is....addicted to them...That dont ex..."~jeff stopped when Savannah placed a finger on his lips~

"It's not him...its the need talking,the constant need for the pills...he cant see anything or focus on anything but those pills,which causes mood swings ...before I died,me and him had a fight...over you..."~Savannah looked up at Matt,even now there was love in her eyes,she then looked at Jeff again~"He thought I was leaving him for you..."

~Jeff shook his head,this was too much for him~"no....no why the hell would he think that!!"

~Matt's eyes narrowed~"who the fuck are you talking to Jeff?Why do you keep looking beside you?Answer me god dammit..."~Matt spit the words out,his eyes getting enraged~

~Jeff looked at Savannah then looked up at Matt,the pain in his head now gone he lifted himself up to stand,meeting Matt dead in the eyes~

"Savannah....I was talking to one of my best friends, you KILLED!!!"

~Matt's eyes wavered some looking beside Jeff,seeing nothing he looked back at Jeff then hissed his words out~"Dont fuckin play jokes with me!It is your fault I had to kill her....you were taking her away from meJeff.Like always you take everything that means something to me....but not her...no...I loved her and you or noone was ever taking her from me..."~With those words spoken Matt's hand slipped around to his back,sliding something out he aimed it at Jeff~

"All your fault.....I had to kill her becaue you wouldnt let her be!I love her and now she is gone cause of you...all your fault....I cry myself to sleep every god damn night cause I miss her...and you,what do you do?Have a fuckin party with your friends then insult my inteligiance by saying your talking to her.Well....nomore,cause your going to die....."~Matt's eyes wavered again,almost like he was fighting his inner demons over what he said,over everything he had done,noone knew but him what pain and misery he had brought upon himself,but he couldnt admit he brought it on himself,like most addicts he had to have someone to blame,and who else but his brother~

~Jeff looked at the gun then to Matt's eyes,seeing the look in them,Jeff knew Matt was in there,not this Matt,the one who didnt care for anyone,but the Matt that would rather killed himself than ever harm a hair on Savannah's head or ever touch his brother~

"You cant blame me for your mistakes....You killed her,not me.How did you do it Matt?Because you left the room then someone else came in...so how the fuck did you do it?"~Jeff's eyes never looked away from Matt's~

"I took the elevator down and then hit the next floor,snuck up the stairs then past the nurse and.."Matt stopped for a moment as something struck him as odd with what Jeff had asked him~

"How..how did you know...I had left the room?"

~Jeff looked at him,then smiled sadly~"Because ...Savy woke up and seen you leave....she called for you but she didnt have the strength to get your attention.Way I see it she must have blacked out for a moment,or she would have seen your face and known it was..."~Jeff's words died on his lips as he turned to look at Savannah~

"You...you did see him...didn't you?All this time and...you knew.."

~Savannah nodded her head as tears slipped down her cheeks,the rain around them had abrubtly stopped,but her tears continued on,as they fell from her face,once they hit mid-air then the ground,it was almost like tiny crystals falling,then shattering when they hit the ground~

"Yes...I know now thats why I was sent here...why i came looking for you after our arguement.I was in denial even in death that he did it...I refused to face it...now I know and..I have to stop him..and make things right."

~Jeff watched the tears feeling a stab right through his heart,she had known but refused to admit it,he knew without a doubt Savannah loved Matt and always would~

~Jeff turned around looking at the gun Matt had aimed at him~"Go ahead....you think you can.."

~Matt's finger slid over the trigger then stopped,his head turned slightly looking directly beside Jeff,because for once Matt could see the crystal like tears coming from nowhere,and it startled him and confused him,shaking his head thinking must be seeing things he looked back at Jeff~

"Dont be so sure thinking I cant kill you....I am capable of alot more than you think.."~Matt's finger teased the the trigger~


"No....I won't let you kill him Mathew..."~her words were soft to Matt's ears,Matt hearing her turned to look beside Jeff,his eyes widened some then filled with tears,tears of misery,of pain and regret for what he had did to her,because he too saw his Flame for the first time since she had been killed by his hands and it was like a slap to his face,even though the addiction to the pain killers were taking there toll on him and his body,he for once was seeing clearly and the guilt he felt was over bearing~

"Flame..."