Epilogue
by
Nin Tendo
Chapter 1 - The One and Only
~ Disclaimer ~ GW belongs to someone other than myself.
~ Spoilers ~ Endless Waltz, Episode Zero, and the series manga and anime! Maybe Blind Target and Ground Zero in the future!
(Heero's POV)
A simple question has haunted me for as long as I can remember. It's so simple, it nauseates me, yet so complicated, that I ponder it day after day, night after night.
Who am I?
I am Heero Yuy, pilot of the Gundam Wing Zero.
No. That's not right. Heero Yuy was a pacifist. I am not a pacifist. Heero Yuy died twenty years ago. I didn't even exist back than. The person known to some as Heero Yuy, pilot of the Gundam Wing Zero, died the moment Zero fell to pieces above Brussels.
I am no longer a Gundam pilot. Now, the only thing that binds us ex-pilots are the memories that will fade over time.
At least, THEY will forget. Not me, though. A photographic memory is a curse as well as a blessing.
Too bad it can't tell me who I am.
Relena asked me who I was once. I laughed, a sound that became so hollow since that little girl died, and said I was a killer.
Yet, as I stood over Marimaia Khushrenada's dying body, I said that I would never kill again.
The question plagues my mind.
Who am I?
I remember a time when I was Odin Lowe's son. He was a prefessional assassin, and taught me everything he knew. But, then again, we weren't genetically related. It was more like we were two souls, isolated from the rest of mankind. He never told me what happened to him, but I could always sense the burning sorrow deep down inside.
He could see the question in me, too. One day, he caught me staring out a semi-reflective window revealing outer space. He asked, "What are you looking at? The universe that robbed you of everything? Or you, who has no identity?"
I've never answered that question. I doubt that I ever will. Maybe I was staring at both, but that's irrevelent. This is not the question that I would like to answer.
Who am I? I want to know.
Odin found me lying unconscious a few meters away from what used to be a building when I was five years old. I had amnesia. I still can't remember what happened.
He told me to live by my emotions, and I have to this very day. I followed my emotions when I snuck into that building just to see Relena again. To hear her voice. I followed my emotions when I left in the middle of her speech. I don't know why I did these things. They just seemed to be the right thing to do at the time.
Maybe I'm attracted and afraid of her at the same time. She...inspires new emotions in me that I do not know how to act upon.
Maybe I'm afraid that Relena knows who I am, and I just want to find out for myself.
I left her a note. I wrote that we would meet again one day, after I find my answers.
I wonder if she will come looking for me again.
I wonder if I'll come back, looking for her again.
The war brought us together. Will peace pull us apart?
I can't say what will happen now. Zero told me many things; described many of my possible futures. I still don't know which one that I would prefer. Would I ever know happiness? Do I even deserve happiness?
Zero didn't show me anything past its own destruction, so I suppose that I'll have to figure it out for myself.
But the question still haunts me.
Who am I?
I am not Heero Yuy. I am not a pacifist. I am not Odin Lowe Junior. I am not a killer.
So what does that make me?
What is a warrior without war? A pseudo-son without his pseudo-father? A child without his childhood?
But...
Perhaps I am about to start upon another road. Another life.
Yes, that sounds plausible.
Maybe I'll find my answers then.
Because, as Relena said, I don't want to die without the answers.
Maybe I left because I knew that she would try to help me.
Maybe I left because I want to figure it out for myself.
I don't know. I just did.
The question haunts me.
Just who am I, anyway?
Author's Notes:
1. This is a realistic epilogue to the Gundam Wing series and Endless Waltz. There is also some references to the manga series and Episode Zero. Blind Target and Ground Zero may also be used in the future, though I sincerely doubt it. If you cannot bring yourself tolerate one of the Gundam Wing characters, or the most plausible pairings, then you're obviously not mature enough to sway my way of thinking, so don't even try. :p
2. This story will follow a pre-determined form. All the characters will have their time in the spotlight. Obviously, I'm using Heero to get the ball rolling. The next chapter will be told in the third person, in which Heero searches for his answers (probably more than one chapter). After that, there will be a concluding Heero introspective, and then I'll move on to the next character. When all the characters are done, there will be one more introspection for each character as a final conclusion. If you want a teaser for the rest of the characters, check out www.geocities.com/magetanith/Gundam, which is a totally awesome (and LONG!) essay on Gundam Wing.
3. Any suggestions for future parts should be sent to: nin_tendo15@hotmail.com. Please don't tell me about them in the review box! The rest of the readers would find out, and I can't have THAT!
4. I'll also include a few strange and, perhaps even disturbing, devastating plot twists, which I have lovingly nicknamed the "What the F*CK?!" factor. For example, you'll find one at the end of Heero's storyline. Don't worry, you'll understand....n_n (evil chuckle)
by
Nin Tendo
Chapter 1 - The One and Only
~ Disclaimer ~ GW belongs to someone other than myself.
~ Spoilers ~ Endless Waltz, Episode Zero, and the series manga and anime! Maybe Blind Target and Ground Zero in the future!
(Heero's POV)
A simple question has haunted me for as long as I can remember. It's so simple, it nauseates me, yet so complicated, that I ponder it day after day, night after night.
Who am I?
I am Heero Yuy, pilot of the Gundam Wing Zero.
No. That's not right. Heero Yuy was a pacifist. I am not a pacifist. Heero Yuy died twenty years ago. I didn't even exist back than. The person known to some as Heero Yuy, pilot of the Gundam Wing Zero, died the moment Zero fell to pieces above Brussels.
I am no longer a Gundam pilot. Now, the only thing that binds us ex-pilots are the memories that will fade over time.
At least, THEY will forget. Not me, though. A photographic memory is a curse as well as a blessing.
Too bad it can't tell me who I am.
Relena asked me who I was once. I laughed, a sound that became so hollow since that little girl died, and said I was a killer.
Yet, as I stood over Marimaia Khushrenada's dying body, I said that I would never kill again.
The question plagues my mind.
Who am I?
I remember a time when I was Odin Lowe's son. He was a prefessional assassin, and taught me everything he knew. But, then again, we weren't genetically related. It was more like we were two souls, isolated from the rest of mankind. He never told me what happened to him, but I could always sense the burning sorrow deep down inside.
He could see the question in me, too. One day, he caught me staring out a semi-reflective window revealing outer space. He asked, "What are you looking at? The universe that robbed you of everything? Or you, who has no identity?"
I've never answered that question. I doubt that I ever will. Maybe I was staring at both, but that's irrevelent. This is not the question that I would like to answer.
Who am I? I want to know.
Odin found me lying unconscious a few meters away from what used to be a building when I was five years old. I had amnesia. I still can't remember what happened.
He told me to live by my emotions, and I have to this very day. I followed my emotions when I snuck into that building just to see Relena again. To hear her voice. I followed my emotions when I left in the middle of her speech. I don't know why I did these things. They just seemed to be the right thing to do at the time.
Maybe I'm attracted and afraid of her at the same time. She...inspires new emotions in me that I do not know how to act upon.
Maybe I'm afraid that Relena knows who I am, and I just want to find out for myself.
I left her a note. I wrote that we would meet again one day, after I find my answers.
I wonder if she will come looking for me again.
I wonder if I'll come back, looking for her again.
The war brought us together. Will peace pull us apart?
I can't say what will happen now. Zero told me many things; described many of my possible futures. I still don't know which one that I would prefer. Would I ever know happiness? Do I even deserve happiness?
Zero didn't show me anything past its own destruction, so I suppose that I'll have to figure it out for myself.
But the question still haunts me.
Who am I?
I am not Heero Yuy. I am not a pacifist. I am not Odin Lowe Junior. I am not a killer.
So what does that make me?
What is a warrior without war? A pseudo-son without his pseudo-father? A child without his childhood?
But...
Perhaps I am about to start upon another road. Another life.
Yes, that sounds plausible.
Maybe I'll find my answers then.
Because, as Relena said, I don't want to die without the answers.
Maybe I left because I knew that she would try to help me.
Maybe I left because I want to figure it out for myself.
I don't know. I just did.
The question haunts me.
Just who am I, anyway?
Author's Notes:
1. This is a realistic epilogue to the Gundam Wing series and Endless Waltz. There is also some references to the manga series and Episode Zero. Blind Target and Ground Zero may also be used in the future, though I sincerely doubt it. If you cannot bring yourself tolerate one of the Gundam Wing characters, or the most plausible pairings, then you're obviously not mature enough to sway my way of thinking, so don't even try. :p
2. This story will follow a pre-determined form. All the characters will have their time in the spotlight. Obviously, I'm using Heero to get the ball rolling. The next chapter will be told in the third person, in which Heero searches for his answers (probably more than one chapter). After that, there will be a concluding Heero introspective, and then I'll move on to the next character. When all the characters are done, there will be one more introspection for each character as a final conclusion. If you want a teaser for the rest of the characters, check out www.geocities.com/magetanith/Gundam, which is a totally awesome (and LONG!) essay on Gundam Wing.
3. Any suggestions for future parts should be sent to: nin_tendo15@hotmail.com. Please don't tell me about them in the review box! The rest of the readers would find out, and I can't have THAT!
4. I'll also include a few strange and, perhaps even disturbing, devastating plot twists, which I have lovingly nicknamed the "What the F*CK?!" factor. For example, you'll find one at the end of Heero's storyline. Don't worry, you'll understand....n_n (evil chuckle)
