May 23rd, 2021 - 3:00 AM

I'm under my blankets writing this. I don't know what to do. I'm trying to search online with my phone, but the internet is down. Did I forget to pay the damn bill again? Eh, doesn't matter. What does is I have some light. I can't reach my lamp from here, because of what's happening above it. Yeah, I have a big lamp from the 90's right underneath my TV that's propped on the wall. Might not be the safest place, but screw it, it works.

Well, until now of course. I'm pretty sure the bulb operates, but that's not the issue. My issue is what's on the screen. I'm the guy who leaves his TV on until he passes out, and I succeeded at doing that around 11. Thus, the cable naturally turned off around 2, but for some reason, the screen didn't agree. It's still on. Nicktoons is still on. The cable box is off. I'm trying to make sure I'm not just dreaming this, but so far my nerves are pretty accurate.

You know what episode is on. I don't understand. Loud House doesn't even air this early. They usually wait until 5, least around these parts, so why the hell is it on now? And what are the odds it's Roadie? Seriously, three days in a row? I get Luna might be popular, but she has more episodes. Even still, this is really off to me. Maybe I'm doing that lucid dreaming bit. I hear Dad sleeping in the other room, so I guess everyone else is fine? I don't know. Thank god I can't see my mirror from here; I wisely piled a bunch of games in front of it. My window's blinds are covering the glass, so I'm good there.

Hate seeing my reflection at night.


May 23rd, 2021 - 3:45 AM

It's still on. It's on endless repeat, and I know I'm not up that often this early, but I know they still have some commercial breaks. Not one so far. The episode ends, it begins again. I'm really starting to regret not charging my phone last night. It has enough, but I really don't want it running out now. The episode at least seems normal, so got that going for me. Have to admit though that as every minute passes, it's getting quieter, but not Luna. She's the same pitch, but everyone else isn't. It's... weird. I'm just hoping I'm tired. It's probably just a lazy guy in the office endlessly running the episode, wondering who's even awake right now. Guess it's only midnight on the west coast feed. Who knows?

Yeah, but what am I gonna do? I can't sleep. The same dream, anyways. If I sleep now, I'll wake up around 7, and feel even worse than I am now. Shit, at least I have a day off today. Well, maybe I can write right now. After all, strange as it is, the episode does provide a nice distracting buzz to keep my head in check. Maybe I'll finally make the next great American novel! Heh, gotta stop depressing myself further.


May 23rd, 2021 - 3:59 AM

It froze. The bloody screen froze. I just went to check on the cable box, and when I pressed the power button, it stopped. Luna right now is looking sad. She just lost her customer at that new job of hers. It's just a stupid frame, and it's freaking me out. The power button on the TV isn't working either. Can't change the volume, nothing. It's all frozen in time. Least I got the lamp on. Probably just gonna have to accept I'm up. Bro's gonna force me to help him in a game again, so maybe getting an early out by resting will be ideal. I don't know, her damn sad face is getting to me. Why? I've seen this same frame how many times now? Far more than I love to admit.

I'm gonna get a drink of water in the darkness of this house. Wish me luck.


May 23rd, 2021 - 5:00 AM

Excuse me? Hello, are you there? I don't know who this will reach, but if you're there, I need to ask you something. Please, pick this journal up and respond. I can't find her anywhere. It's seriously freaking me out! If you write back, I can [PAPER RIPPED OUT FROM HERE]


May 23rd, 2021 - 7:00 AM

Is it seriously still on? By this point, this makes no sense. At least the internet's back, but I'm getting nothing. Just compilations and general complaints about the network. Nothing about Roadie to Nowhere endlessly parading itself. Don't know when it unfroze itself. I think I nodded off around 4 or something. I don't know, it's confusing. Bro hasn't woken up yet, and Dad left at some point. Volume is normal.

Man, this is getting too weird. Luckily the remote worked, and presto! Watching the completely-made-for-adults [REDACTED] like the Baker I am! Hah! And they say depressed people watch the weirdest stuff. Do people say that? Well I do, starting now! God, I'm so lonely.

I'm just happy it's a day off. Maybe I'll try sleeping without the TV on. Sure, I hate being alone in the dark, but it's better than getting paranoid by a kid's cartoon. At least I hope it is. Well Journal, if I have time tonight, I'll write more. Otherwise, I'll see you soon.